根据真实故事改编
为鲍比祈祷
1982年
1979年 加州 沃纳溪
好啦 你们俩别闹了 Alright you two. That's enough.
我喜欢她 I like her.
我觉得她喜欢你 I think she likes you.
妈妈 别乱讲 What tells you that mum?
吹蜡烛吧 妈妈 Here you go mum.
今天是个好日子 This is such a nice day.
谁知道这句话的出处 Who knows this?
愿爱你的人 May those who love you,
如初升的太阳般茁壮 Be like the sun when it rises in its strength.
是《歌林多后书》吗 Corinthians?
是《士师记》[圣经旧约]第五章31节 Judges 5:31.
奶奶 再问您一次 您高寿了 So grandma, how old are you again?
就不告诉你 Never mind.
你不该问年龄的 You know you shouldn't ask for the age...
真不错 That's very nice!
给我留点 Save some for me, will you?
真漂亮 That's very nice!
是谁送的 Who's that from?
是你和玛丽送的 From you and Mary!
没错 You are correct!
我只是考考您 I was just testing.
妈妈 您记得吗 Remember mum?
我们逛商场的时候 We were at the mall
你看中了这个 And you said you liked that.
我跑回去给您买的 So I went back and I got it for you.
南希宝贝 把包给我拿来 Nancy honey, get me my purse.
怎么每次都让我去拿包啊 Why am I always the one to ask to get the purse?
格里菲斯家的老幺去拿包吧 Youngest Griffith girl's the purse mule.
奶奶 拆我的礼物吧 Oh grandma.Open mine.
为什么一定要我去拿 Why do I have to be the purse mule?
好吧 我来 Ok. Fine.
我背很合适 Yes, I think it suits me.
你们觉得呢 What do you guys think?
奶奶 那是很美的唇膏印 Grandma, that is a lovely shade of lipstick.
很漂亮 Beautiful!
爱德华 别闹了 Ed stop it.
为什么 这怎么了 妈妈 Why? What's wrong mum?
真恶心 It's disgusting.
要我说 If you ask me,
同性恋都该被枪毙 Queers should all be lined up and shot.
去年您不是说该枪毙的是大力士吗 Didn't you say that last year about the giants?
你说什么 What did you say?
没什么 Never mind.
这是什么 What is this?
是记事本 It's a journal.
像日记本一样 Like a diary.
我才不需要这个 I don't need any more stuff.
妈妈 Mum!!
-怎么了 -我去看看她 - What? - I'll go.
还好我们没送您笔 It's a good thing we didn't get you the pen.
别放在心上 You can't take it personal.
奶奶就是这样 It's grandma.
你知道的 她有时候很难伺候 You know the rules. She's mean sometimes.
然后我们就尽情取笑她 Then we get a free pass to make fun of her.
鲍比 她看我不顺眼 Bobby, she picks at me.
没人和你过不去 大家最喜欢你 Nobody ever picks on you. You're the favorite.
做完美的人是什么感觉 So what's it like to be perfect?
我完美吗 I'm perfect?
你觉得我完美吗 You think I'm perfect?
你没照镜子看看自己吗 Have you looked in a mirror lately?
你就像霹雳娇娃一样美 You're Charlie's next angel, ok?
能送给我吗 Can I have it?
你才不喜欢呢 You don't want it.
我想要这个 Well, I'm taking it.
我一星期就能写满 I'm gonna fill this up in a week.
来吧 我们去给奶奶庆祝生日 39加39岁 Come on. Let's go celebrate grandmas' 39-39 birthday.
我准备好了 I am ready.
什么 What?
我想更进一步 I wanna go further.
有什么不对吗 我以为你想... Is... Is something wrong? I thought you'd want to...
在这里吗 这和我想象的不太一样 Here? I mean, this isn't really what I had in mind.
不一定非在这里 It doesn't have to be here.
我得走了 我明天要早起 I should go. I have to get up early tomorrow.
你怎么了 Is something wrong?
这觉得我们不合适 I don't think this is gonna work.
我想和你分手 I think we should break up.
我以为你喜欢我 我都见过你的家人了 I thought you liked me... I came to meet your family.
我不想搞得太认真了 I just don't want to get that serious.
不需要很认真 Well, it doesn't have to be serious, ok?
不关你的事 是我的问题 It's not you, it's me.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
要和我一起看吗 You wanna watch with me?
我有点累 I'm tired.
来吧 Oh come on!
除了你没人愿意陪我看黑白老电影 Who else can I get to watch an old black and white movie?
你爸爸只喜欢看约翰·韦恩的戏 You know if it's not John Wayne, your dad's not interested.
真可怕 It's really scary.
知道吗 这一幕很有名 You know this scene's famous?
是吗 Really?
知道吗 他们让那杯牛奶发光 You know they got that glass of milk to glow?
怎么发光 How?
希区柯克在杯子里放了个灯泡 Well hitchcock put a lightbulb inside the glass so
观众会知道牛奶里面有毒 The audience would know the milk was poisonous.
是吗 No kidding.
真聪明 That's clever.
你怎么知道的 How do you know that?
因为我很聪明 Cause I'm brilliant.
没错 You are brilliant!
你吃吧 我吃得太多了 Take it away; I'm eating too much.
我觉得自己有点不对劲 I think there's something wrong with me.
我肯定 That's for sure.
你猜 如果妈妈发现我们当中 What you think mum would do if she
有人心理有问题 她会怎么做 Found out one of us was a psychoptath?
你说"如果"是什么意思 What you mean "if"?
你知道 她常说... You know she's always saying...
下辈子一家人还会在一起 The whole family's gonna be together in the afterlife?
如果有人成了罪人怎么办 What if one of us is a sinner?
你把米歇尔怎么了 Have you sinned with Michelle?
我发誓会保密的 I promise I won't tell.
不是那件事 It's not that.
我只是 I'm just...
思考一些事情 Thinking about stuff, you know?
你想太多啦 You think too much.
这很危险 It's dangerous.
所以我才尽力避免 That's why I avoid it at all cost.
是吗 Yeah?
和你谈完轻松多了 I'm glad we talked.
说真的 出了什么事吗 Seriously, something... Something wrong?
没有 No.
别担心 我是你哥哥 会照顾你的 Relax, cause I'm your big bro. I'm just looking out for you.
你好吗 鲍比 What's up Bobby?
能走了吗 Ready to go?
鲍比 Hey Bobby.
谢丽尔 Cheryl.
她不是你喜欢的类型 妆太浓了 She's not your type, too much eye shadow.
你跟米歇尔怎么了 What's wrong with Michelle?
我们分手了 We broke up.
回头再聊 Talk to you guys later.
将秘密深埋心底 Not telling the truth...
有时我感觉自己像是站在悬崖边 Sometimes I feel like I'm at the edge of a cliff,
看着下面波涛汹涌 Looking down at the crashing surf
无处可去 只能纵身跃下 With nowhere to go but down.
闲暇时 我常做古怪的梦 I used to have these fun dreams when I was so free.
现在 我在飞翔 But now, as I fly,
我很害怕 I'm afraid.
电话线和电线 They are telephone lines and electrical wires.
挂着上面会有多痛 How painful it would be to run into one.
我是否能重获自由 I wonder if I'll ever be free again.
阿司匹林
有人在吗 Hello?
鲍比 鲍比 Bobby? Bobby?
鲍比 你做了什么 Hey! Bobby? What did you do? Ha?
你吃了这个吗 Did you take these?
回答我 Answer me!
没有 No!
真的吗 Is that the truth?
我没吃 放开我 I couldn't do it, ok? Get off me.
我想死 但我做不到 I wanted to but I couldn't.
你到底怎么了 What's wrong with you?
我为什么不能那么做 Why I couldn't do it?
因为那是罪恶的 Because it's a sin.
鲍比 你在说什么 Bobby, what are you talking about?
我不想下地狱 但是 I didn't wanna go to hell, but...
我已经在地狱里了 I am.
事情越来越糟 Cause this is worse.
鲍比 你吓着我了 到底怎么了 Bobby, you're scaring me. What's going on?
你们都会讨厌我的 You'd all hate me.
我知道的 我知道如果你们 I know it. I know that if you guys
了解真相 你们会讨厌我的 Knew the truth, you'd hate me.
不 No.
不管是什么 Whatever it is...
我们要告诉妈妈 We'll tell mum...
不行 No!
不 妈妈不会理解的 不能让她知道 No. Mum wouldn't understand. Ok? She can't know.
那么 你现在就告诉我 Then you have to tell me right now.
我和你不一样 爱德华 I'm not like you Ed.
那又怎样 So what?
我一直在尝试 I keep trying.
我试着告诉自己 总有一天 我会清醒 I keep telling myself that one day I'm gonna wake
一切都会变好 但并不是这样 Up and it's gonna be different. But it's not.
我不像你 I don't dream...
会幻想女孩子 About girls, like you do.
我幻想的都是男生 I dream about guys.
你是同性恋吗 You're gay?!
听听 See?
你的口气就透着嫌恶 You even say it like you hate me.
鲍比 别这样 Bob, give me a break.
我不知道该怎么办 I don't know what to do!
-我们要告诉爸爸妈妈 -不 -We'll tell mum and dad. -No!
不 No.
他们会帮我们的 鲍比 They can help, Bobby.
他们希望我们遇事和他们商量 They always want us to come to them.
他们能帮我们 They can help.
不可以 I can't! Ok?
你也不许说 And you're not gonna say anything either.
答应我 Promise me.
答应我你什么也不会说 Promise me you're not gonna say anything.
爱德华 你保证 Ed, promise!
好吧 Ok.
我保证 I promise.
妈妈 您常说 如果我们有事 Mum, if there was something wrong with one of your kids,
应该对您说 You always said that we should come to you...
你闯了什么祸 What did you do?
不是我 是鲍比 It's not me, it's Bobby.
怎么了 What is it?
我本不想告诉你 但是他... I didn't want to tell you but he was...
状态很不好 我很担心他 In such a bad shape, I'm really worried about him.
他觉得 He thinks...
他可能是同性恋 He might be homosexual.
不可能 He's not.
他不让我告诉你 He didn't want me to tell you. He
他都打算吃阿司匹林自杀了 Was gonna take a bunch of aspirins.
知道吗 Ok?
他信任我才告诉我 您别对他太严厉 You know... He trusted me, you can't go too hard on him.
好的 我知道 Ok, good. It's good.
还好你告诉我了 I'm glad you told me.
我绝对相信上帝可以解决这个问题 There's no doubt in my mind that god can handle this.
他会帮助我们的 He'll help us.
他会治好鲍比 He'll heal Bobby.
为了让我们所有人 In order for all of us to be
能够到天堂重聚 Together in the kingdom of heaven,
我们不能行差踏错 We cannot stray.
不能犯那样的错误 We can't sin like that.
这是严重的罪孽 That is a terrible sin.
《圣经》称之为 亵渎 The bible calls it an abomination.
《利未记》中提过 如果两个男人交媾 In Leviticus, if a man lies with another man,
他们都将被处死 They should both be put to death.
我不会让我的家人 I will not raise my family not
在下一世分离 Being together in the next life.
玛丽 我们在担心下辈子之前 Mary. Can we please worry about this life
先顾这辈子 Before we worry about the next life?
发生什么事了 Hey. What's going on?
你没有什么事要对我们说吗 Isn't there a problem you need to tell us about?
-没有 -鲍比 - No... - Bobby
如果你有问题 If there is something wrong, you
你可以和家人分享 Need to share it with your family.
-你怎么可以这样对我 -鲍比 - How could you? - Bobby...
我要杀了你 I'm gonna kill you!
不 No!
够了 Ok, ok. Enough!
我很担心你 I was worried about you!
我信任你 I trusted you!
冷静点 Calm down!
爱德华 进屋去 Hey, Ed. Go find some room.
鲍比 我们是一家人 Bobby, we're your family.
会没事的 We can get through this.
如果我们相信上帝 就会度过此劫 I know that if we trust in god, we can get through this.
他会治好你的 It's curable with his help.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我控制不了自己 I can't help it.
我也不想这样 妈妈 我该怎么办 I don't even want it mum! What do I do?
鲍比 你不是同性恋 Bobby, you're not gay.
你只不过是... You're probably just...
没有遇到倾心的女子 You haven't met a girl that you're really attracted to.
求你 Please...
妈妈 求你不要告诉任何人 Mum, please don't tell anyone please...
-妈妈 求你不要告诉任何人 -好了 - Mum, please don't tell anyone. - It's all right.
会没事的 It's gonna be fine.
我担心你 I was worried about you.
你想我怎么做 What was I supposed to do?
我出去睡 I'm out of here.
再次感谢大家收听 Thank you again for joining us
我是雷蒙德神父 I'm pastor Raymond
我们再接一通电话 And we'll take another call,
我建议你 依靠圣洁的灵魂 I advise you to live according to
开始你的新生活 Your new life in the holy spirit
这样你就不会 Then you won't be doing...
被邪恶的灵魂所驱使 What your sinful nature craves.
当圣洁的灵魂占据你的生命之时 When the holy spirit controls your life,
会产生爱 愉悦和仁慈 It will produce love, joy and kindness,
善良和自制力 Goodness and self-control.
需要这样吗 Does everyone have to know?
我们是一家人 我们爱你 We're your family. We love you.
我心灵纯洁 受上帝之善良庇佑
我们依然爱你 鲍比 We still love you, bobby.
谢谢 我能有点隐私吗 Yeah ,thanks, can i get some privacy?
-嘿 玛丽 -嘿 - Hi Mary! - Hi
当一个同性恋否认自己的性取向时 If a homosexual who wants to renounce homosexual reality
找一个知道如何 Finds a psychiastrist who
治愈同性恋的心理医生 Knows how to cure homosexuality...
他很有可能可以变成 He has every chance of becoming...
一个快乐正常的异性恋 A happy well adjusted heterosexual.
你有幻听吗 Do you hear any voices?
没有 No.
你有耳鸣吗 Do you ever hear any ringing sounds?
没有 No.
电话响了吗 Is that the phone?
开玩笑的 It was a joke.
所以你认为自己是同性恋吗 So you think you're a homosexual?
鲍比 你和多少个女孩交往过 Bobby, how many girls have you been with?
忘记了 两个吧 I don't know. Two.
有过性关系吗 Had sexual relations with?
那你怎么确定自己是同性恋 Then how do you know for sure?
我只是 I just...
有那种感觉 你知道吗 Have these feelings, you know?
我不是说你知道 我是说 I don't mean you know. I mean...
我有那种感觉 I have these feelings.
你想当同性恋吗 Do you want to be homosexual?
我只想重新亲近我的家人 I just wanna be close with my family again.
一失足成千古恨 I feel like I slipped up and now I can't...
无法回头 Get back.
我没办法帮你 I'm not gonna be able to help you...
除非你正面回答我的问题 If you don't answer my questions.
不 我不想当同性恋 No, I don't wanna be this way.
我要和你母亲单独谈一下 好吗 I'm gonna talk with your mother alone for a minute, ok?
她想和你谈 She wants to talk to you.
你可以治愈他的 对吗 He can be cured. Right?
他需要自愿接受改变才行 He has to be willing to really put the work in.
他当然想 我知道的 He is. I know he is.
我认为会有效果 更为重要的是 And I think it would be good, it would be important
你丈夫也能来参加疗程 To have your husband come join us in therapy.
好吧 Right...
情况如何 How did it go?
她建议我们应该花多点时间在一起 She said we should spend some more time together.
或许你俩应该 Maybe the two of you could spend
花多点时间亲近亲近 Some quality time together.
当然 没问题 Yes, sure.
60美元一小时 她就这点建议吗 That's all she said for 60$ an hour?
她还建议我们三个一起参加若干疗程 She also wants the 3 of us to go to a few sessions together.
难道还是我们的错吗 What? So it's our fault?
我搞不懂 你和他去就行了 No no... I don't know about it but it's fine if he goes.
鲍伯 我需要你帮我 Bob, I want you to be a part of this.
我一个人不行 I can't do it alone, ok?
书上说同性恋在公共澡堂做爱 I read that homosexuals have sex in public bathrooms,
他们还引诱小孩 And that they recruit children.
你想说什么 What are you saying?
你觉得鲍比是被人引诱的吗 Do you think Bobby was recruited?
拜托 玛丽 你想太多了 Come on Mary, you're going overboard.
你得做点什么 我不要失去他 You got to do something about this. I won't lose him.
仁慈的主啊 请你让鲍比平安且远离诱惑 Dear lord, we ask that you keep Bobby safe from temptation.
帮助他找回纯洁的心 Please help him return to a pure heart.
你以为这样我就可以治愈吗 Do you think this will heal me?
你得相信主可以治愈你 You have to trust the god will heal you.
撒旦只会把你拖下无尽深渊 And that satan will try to discourage you.
你相信上帝吗 Do you trust in god?
嗯 Yeah.
让我睡觉吧 Now let me go to sleep.
当我们置身于诱惑之中 When temptation is all around you,
光有信念是不够的 我们需要自律 Faith is not enough. It requires discipline
不仅仅是精神上 还有肉体上的 Not just mental, but physical.
谁愿意和大家分享一下自身的经历 Who would like to share their story?
我曾经很抑郁 I used to be so unhappy.
夜不归宿 I stayed out all night,
跟我妈妈顶嘴 I talked back to my mother.
自从来到这里 奉耶稣为我的救世主 Since coming here and accepting jesus as my savior,
我改变了 I've changed..
我和妈妈现在成了最好的朋友 My mum and I are like best friends now.
太棒了 凯莉 That's great Kerry.
这就是祷告和集会的力量 The power of prayer and hard work.
鲍比你呢 你做的怎么样 Bobby what about you? How are you coming along?
还行 Good...
你看起来好多了 不是吗 Well, you feel better. Don't you?
我能从你的眼神看出来 I can see it in your eyes.
你的努力有所回报了 不是吗 Your hard works' paid off. Hasn't it?
是吧 Yeah...
让我们唱起颂歌 Let's sing, shall we?
似乎无论我怎么做都是一样 Nothing I do seems to make a difference.
我试着像他们一样 但做不到 I try to act like them but it feels impossible.
想到自己会直接掉进炼狱 It's an awful feeling to believe you can
这种痛楚无法言喻 Be headed straight for the fires of hell.
更甚的是每个人 Even worse is everyone telling
都说解决方法是如何简单 You how simple the solution is.
他们也不会感同身受 They don't know what it is to be in my shoes.
我坚持跑步 拒绝垃圾食品 I'm running, I'm not eating junk food.
很好 很好 Good, good!
是很好 可是 Yeah, that's good but...
我不明白这有什么意义 I don't know the point of it.
我是说 我的气色是好多了 I mean, my face has cleared up but
但其余一切照旧 Everything else feels the same.
你得持之以恒 Well you have to stick with it.
小组里的人怎么样 Do you like the people in your group?
都还行 They're ok.
有个女生 她... This one girl, she...
你能不能认真对待这事 You know, I hope you're taking this seriously.
我说真的 我希望你尽自己的全力 I mean that I hope you are trying with all your might.
我不能因为这个失去你 I cannot lose you to this.
你不会的 You won't.
要有信心 Have faith!
这肯定会很好玩 Well this is gonna be fun.
上一次格里菲斯家的男人 When was the last time all the
集体远足是什么时候了 Griffith men went hiking together?
在学校怎样 So how's school?
还行 Good.
有想过什么计划吗 You thought about your plans?
上大学吧 Well college...
不 我的意思是 No, I mean...
生活规划 Life plans.
我还是想当一名作家 Well, I'm still thinking of becoming a writer.
听着 鲍比 你有丰富的想象力 Listen Bobby, you always had a strong imagination.
这没什么不好 And we've always been alright with that.
但当你到了一定年纪 But you're getting to the age where
你该学会面对现实 You're gonna have to get practical.
说到作家 Alright, dreams...
你年轻时候还可以 They're great when you're young, but...
可是作家 They don't really have...
在现实中好比浮萍 难以立足 Really have a place in the real world.
嗯 Yeah.
你有听进去我的话吗 You hear what I'm saying to you?
-嗯 -好了 快点走 - yeah. - alright, alright. Le'ts go, let's move.
好吧 Alright.
玩得怎么样 How did it go?
我被"治好"了 I'm "healed".
没事 It was fine.
你们有谈过吗 Did you two talk?
当然 Yeah, we talked.
你们谈了什么 What did you talk about?
玛丽 谈的挺好的 Mary, it was fine.
这个很重要 No, but this is important.
关乎到造就他或是让他自生自灭 This could make him or break him.
我尽我所能了 你还不满意吗 I did the best I could. Is that alright with you?
很多情况下 鲍比的困惑 A lot of times, confusions like Bobby's
可能源自父亲的冷漠和母亲的专横 Can be caused by a distant father or an overbearing mother.
我父母两样占齐 可我也没事啊 Well, I had both but I'm fine.
鲍伯 Bob?
我们需要你认真对待这事 You need to participate in this.
我在这里 玛丽 我在这个房间里 I'm right here Mary. I'm in the room.
我觉得 I think...
我是个好父亲 I've been a very good father.
你可能不清楚 但鲍比... And maybe you don't know this but Bobby.
我是说 他从来不喜欢 I mean he was never into...
他哥哥或其他男孩喜欢的那些 The stuffs his brother or other boys into it.
他就是不感兴趣 He's just not interesting.
我不会去强迫他喜欢 So i am not gonna force him.
鲍比 我是谢娜 Hi Bobby I'm Sheila.
妈妈 那是谁 Mum, who's that?
谢娜是我周日学校课堂的学生 Sheila is a student in my sunday school class.
你是给我找对象吗 You got me a date?
你得接触多点女孩 You need to go out with lots of girls.
你爸也是这样想的 And your dad thinks so too.
至少能让我自己选吗 Can I at least pick my own?
不要叉着腰 Do not thing your arm.
玩开心点 Have fun.
你帅极了 来点饼干吗 补充能量 You look nifty. Do you want a brownie for energy?
端出去吧 take them up! No?!
嗨 这位是谁 Hello. Who's this?
我哥哥爱德华 That's my brother ed.
-嗨 -嗨 我叫谢娜 - Hi. -Hi, I'm Sheila.
-很高兴见到你 -我也是 - Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you too.
-要不要过去见见我朋友 -当然 - Are you up to see my friends? - Yeah!
你再也不跟我说话了吗 So you're never gonna talk to me again?
你看你给我惹的麻烦 Look at where you got me.
如果她走时要和我吻别怎么办 What if she wants me to kiss her goodnight?
就说你是同志啊 Tell her you're gay.
看着点 基佬 Watch out fag.
你跟你朋友说了吗 Did you tell your friends?
鲍比 那不是我朋友 Bobby, that's not my friend.
你跟所有人讲我是同性恋了吗 You told everyone I'm gay?
我谁都没说 别再疑神疑鬼了 I haven't told anyone. Stop being so paranoid.
你们都讨厌我 You all hate me for it.
你们以为我看不出来 可是错了 I know you don't think I see it but I do.
我要走了 I gotta go.
鲍比 Bobby...
现在是凌晨3点 It's 3 in the morning!
抱歉 我忘记看时间了 Sorry I lost track of time.
你去哪了 Where were you?
鲍比 Bobby...
你该不是去和同性恋鬼混了吧 You weren't with homosexuals, were you?
你不是这样的 This is not you.
这只是诱惑在作祟 This is temptation working its ways.
如果你想康复 你得更加用心去祷告 You have to pray harder if you're going to get well.
晚安 妈妈 Good night, mum.
现在就去祈求主的宽恕 Pray for forgiveness right away.
你们祷告 无论求之何物 只要信 后必有所得 --马修
这很好 女士们 我得走了 It was fine, girls. But I gotta go.
好的 Ok.
那不是鲍比吗 Bobby! Hey!
乔伊去哪了 Where's Joy?
她来不了 叫我开车来接你 She's at work so she asked me to pick you up.
不用谢 You're welcome.
-你怎么回事 -什么 - what's with you? - what?
你觉得我会没注意到吗 You think I didn't notice that?
你不想让你的朋友看见我 You don't want your friends to see me.
有些人不会理解 Some people wouldn't understand.
就这么明显吗 And now it's so obvious...
你为何不直接告诉他们 What did you tell them?
看看你穿的是什么 Well look the way you're wearing.
我跟你讲了一次又一次 And I told you time after time not
不要把手叉在腰上 To do that thing with your arm.
这会显得你像女生 你就是不听 Makes you look like a girl and you continue to do it.
-我总是这样穿的 -不 - I'm always dressed this way. - no,
你以前不是 现在更糟糕 You haven't. It's gotten worse.
你为什么要这样做 我在帮你啊 Why you're doing this? I'm trying to help you.
不 你没有 No, you're not.
你只是在帮你自己 问题不在我 You're trying to help you it's not about me. It's
而在别人怎么看你 About what people think about you.
想象一下要是她们知道你儿子是个同性恋 Imagine that they thought your son is some big queen
你到底怎么回事 别这样 What's wrong with you? Stop that!
-很好 妈妈 太好了 -我们回家 - Nice mum, great - le'ts go home!
-我走路 -别 - I'm walking. - No!
你去哪 Where are you going?
我之前没在这见过你 I haven't seen you around here before.
你真的好美 You are really beautiful.
我得走了 I gotta go.
我可以给你打电话吗 Can I call you?
不行 No.
教会庆祝同志游行 教会欢迎你们
鲍比 Bobby...
别瞎操心 我去教堂了 Don't worry. I was at church.
-表弟 -我有名字的 应该是帅表弟 - Hi cousin - I have a name. It's gorgeous cousin.
你准备在这待多久 So, how long you're here for?
就今天 晚上开车回去 Just a day, I'm driving home tonight.
本来是去看老爸的 但忍不住先来看你们 I came to see my dad. But I couldn't resist stopping by.
或许这不是什么选择 或许我根本没得选 Maybe it's not a choice. Maybe I just can't help it.
你这等于说盗窃也是没得选 So you say that stealing's not a choice.
什么 What?
玛丽婶婶 午餐很美味 Aunt Mary, lunch is delicious.
乔伊说的对 鲍比 Joy's right ,Bobby.
圣经说 男人之间行可耻之事 The bible says men committed shameless acts with men and received
将众多罪罚尽加己身 In their own's person the due penalty for their error."
你不会改变的 是吗 You just won't change, will you?
这些句子不会从圣经中抹去 I can't erase what's in the bible.
个人认为 每个人 Personnally, I think people should
都有权利去追求自己所爱 Be able to love whoever they want.
我刚才有说午餐很好吃吗 Did I mention how good lunch is?
连动物都知道找谁交配 Even animals know what to do it with.
其实我们的狗对着枕头也会... Actually, our dog does it with a pillow...
我们能换个话题吗 Can we please find something different to discuss?
爱德华 说说你大学的事情 Ed, why don't you tell us about college?
我上周退学了 I dropped school last week.
你什么 You what?
那大学怎么办 Well, what about college?
不上了 I'm not going.
太好了 Great!
接下来是什么 What's next?
毁掉你的人生吗 You wanna ruin your life?
毁掉的也是我的人生 Yeah well it's my life to ruin.
每顿饭都像这样吗 Is it like this at every meal?
差不多 Pretty much.
你该来波特兰看看我 那里很棒 You should come up and visit me in Portland. It's so great!
我曾经好羡慕你 I used to envy you..
每次我和爸妈来这里 When I came here with mum and dad, I always
我总希望你父母是我父母 Wished your parents were my parents.
你们以前是那么其乐融融 You all seemed so close.
那已经过去了 Well that's over with.
他们认为不该爱我 I think they love the sinners. Not the sin.
他们应该爱儿子 不管他犯了什么罪孽 They should love the son no matter what the sin.
瞧我说的 Hey that's good.
我应该自己写本圣经 I'm gonna start my own bible.
想一下来波特兰 Think about coming to Portland?
格里菲斯夫人 Hi Mrs. Griffith!
鲍比在吗 Is bobby here?
鲍比 Bobby!
你出去鬼混就算了 You know it's enough you go
天知道你晚上都去哪 God knows where are you at night.
但现在你把这些 But now you're bringing these
异形带来我家 Deviants into my house.
这也是我家 It's my house too.
而且他们是我的朋友 And they're my friends.
那不男不女的是你的朋友吗 Is that what that boy is?
把自己的朋友带回家也是罪吗 妈 Is it a sin to have friends now too Mum?
我们在一起很开心 知道吗 We have a good time, ok?
我们一起出合唱团的 We go to the rock choir together.
你的意思是我们都该被封杀了吗 Does it mean we're all gonna get strucked down?
他们是同性恋 对吧 They're gay, aren't they?
我以为你已经好起来了 I thought you were getting better.
什么时候 When?
当我痛苦的时候吗 When I was miserable?
这像是我好起来的样子吗 That looked like I was getting better?
你说得对 妈 You're right Mum!
我注定要在地狱中煎熬 I'm doomed just to roast in hell!
不许这样说 Don't say that.
你的圣经上是这样说的 That's what your bible says!
圣经上还说人是可以改变的 The bible also says a person can change.
我尝试过了 妈 我不行 I tried Mum. I can't!
为什么你坚持这样选择 Why do you keep choosing this?
为什么我要这样选择 Why would I choose this?
为什么我选择让整个家庭恨我吗 Why would I choose to have my entire family hate me?
不 我们爱你 No we love you.
你难道不知道我们为什么这么做吗 Can't you see that's why we're doing this?
真的吗 妈 这就是爱的表现吗 Really mum? Is that what love feels like?
在波特兰玩得开心 Have fun in Portland.
这是给你的旅行杂志 Here's an issue for your vacation.
我希望你喜欢 I hope you like it.
你保证会一直写信和打电话给我 Promise me you'll write and call all the time?
只有两个月啦 It's two months.
小心驾驶 Drive carefully.
请不要担心 夫人 Don't worry madam.
到波特兰以后打电话给我 You call me when you get to Portland.
这上面刻有你名字的首字母 I had this engraved with your initials.
我爱你们 I love you guys.
再见 鲍比 Bye Bobby.
我已经为离开沃纳溪高兴了 Already I'm glad to be away from Walnut Creek.
这感觉像是重生 This feels like a new life.
全新的一天 A new day.
我会用尽努力获得成功 I'm gonna be a success in every way I can.
这是我要实现的目标 It's my goal to achieve,
成为有自豪感 A sense of pride,
有价值感的人 And worth as a human being.
我的帅表弟 Gorgeous cousin.
欢迎来到波特兰 Welcome to Portland!
相信我 Trust me...
你在家乡肯定找不到这样的夜店 You don't find clubs like this back home.
眼见为实 I'll see.
欢迎来到伦敦之夜 表弟 Welcome to London house cousin.
这真是太棒了 This is amazing!
我们去跳舞吧 Let's go boogie.
戴维 David!
珍妮 Janette!
这是我的表弟鲍比 This is my cousin Bobby.
终于见到你了 鲍比 Nice to finally meet you Bobby!
珍妮告诉我你妈妈 So Janette tells me your mum wants
想要治愈你的同性恋倾向 To cure you of your gayness.
是的 Yeah, well...
我的父母无法理解 My parents don't really understand it.
你的父母呢 Do yours?
他们刚开始也不能 They didn't first.
但是 后来他们理解了 But, they eventually came around.
你是怎么让他们改变的 How did you get them to change?
有一天 Well, one day,
我告诉他们 接受真实的我 要不就忘了我吧 I told them accept what I am, or forget it.
我知道我妈的意图是好的 I know my Mum means well, but I
但我不知道她是否会接受我 Don't know if she'll ever accept me.
不要放弃就好 Just don't stop trying.
父母应理解同性恋子女
一路顺风 Have a great trip.
不要让她影响了你 Don't let her get to you.
并且不要害怕和她正面对峙 And don't be afraid to stand up to her.
一下子发生这么多事 Too much flew by fast.
到家以后打电话给你 I'll call you when I get home.
你最好别忘了 You'd better.
看看谁到家了 Well. Look who's home.
-好啊 爸 -好啊 过来过来 - Hey Dad. - Hey, come here, come here.
正好赶上吃饭时间 进来吧 Just in time for dinner. Come on in.
这真有趣 That's funny.
波特兰怎么样啊 So how was Portland?
波特兰很棒 Portland was great.
好极了 Good!
我想或许我能搬去那 I'm thinking of maybe moving there
住一段时间 For a little bit.
搬到那 Moving there?
我和某人约会了 I met someone...
一个男的 A guy.
丫头们 Girls...
快来给我帮忙 Give me a hand with this.
我们得假装没听到吗 We're supposed to pretend we didn't hear that?
是的 Yes.
鲍比 Bobby...
现在说这个有些不合时宜 This might not have been the right time.
我知道 I know.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry..
你得开始考虑 You should start thinking
明天秋天上大学的事了 About college for next fall.
你得先通过高中毕业考试 You need to get your GED first.
你休息一段时间是没问题的 但是 I mean... It's ok to take some time off but...
你听到我说的了吗 Did you hear me?
我不想知道 I don't wanna know.
我想要你知道 I want you to know.
他叫戴维 His name's David.
我们每一次都是从这开始 We always start at the beginning every time
但如果我们得不出结论的话 And if we're not getting any more different
还是不要谈了 let's just not go there.
当我和他一起时 When I'm with him,
我感觉 It feels so...
很棒 Good!
他对我很好 He treats me well...
他很幽默 他很聪明 He's funny and he's smart...
住嘴 我是认真的 我不想听 Stop. I mean it. I don't wanna hear it.
你是知道的 And you know I don't.
我去年一整年都在听你说话 I spent the last year listening to you
你现在只要听我一次 And you're gonna listen to me for once.
我和戴维在一起感觉很好 It feels good when I'm with David.
但如果他在公共场合碰我 But if he touches me in public,
更有甚者 亲了我 Or god forbids, kisses me,
我会推开 I pull away.
我感觉很羞耻 I feel ashame.
因为你知道这是不对的 Because you know it's wrong.
因为你告诉我这是不对的 Because you told me it's wrong.
不是我 是圣经 It's not me. It's the bible.
不是圣经 是你 It's not the bible. It's you!
你为什么就不能承认呢 Why can't you admit that?
为什么你就不能承认 Why can't you admit that
你无法忍受这样的我 You can't stand what I am?
是你变成的样子 What you've become!
是我本来的样子 What I am!
我很抱歉 我不是你一直 I'm sorry. I'm not the perfect
想要的完美小鲍比 Little Bobby you always wanted.
但我不能为此而一直道歉 妈 But I can't keep apologizing for it Mum.
接受真实的我 要不就忘了我吧 Accept what I am, or forget it!
我不要自己的儿子是同性恋 I won't have a gay son.
那你就当没有我这个儿子吧 Then Mum you don't have a son.
好吧 Fine.
鲍比 Bobby...
你认为她会改变吗 鲍比 Did you really think she'd change, Bobby?
她是真心的 She meant it.
她真心的不想要一个同性恋儿子 She meant that.
我真的希望你能快乐 I really want you to be happy.
我肯定他是个很好的男孩 And I'm sure that guy's really nice.
无论如何 她都不会接受的 No matter what. She'll never accept it.
这注定是孤独的生活 因为 It's gonna be a lonely life because
这里永远不会欢迎他 He'll never be welcome here.
不管是圣诞节 感恩节 还是其他的什么 And for Christmas, Thanksgiving, anything.
不要太担心你妈 Don't worry about Mum too much.
她会理解的 She'll come around.
我不会一直干等的 I'm not gonna hold my breath.
给你 Here you go.
降落伞裤啊 The parachute pants!
谢了 Thanks.
我会把我的第一本小说寄给你 I'll send you my first novel when I write it.
再见 兔牙 Bye buck-tooth!
保重 好吗 Take care, ok?
小心开车 Drive safe.
大多数新病例似乎都发生在 ... Most of the new cases up to 5 a day
同性恋社区 已经达到一天五起 Seem to be settled in the homosexual community...
难道艾滋病已成为同性恋疾病了吗 The AIDS becoming known as the gay disease?
看来你妈妈为了你的生日跑了很多地方嘛 Well... Your mum went a lot for your birthday.
没有贺卡 No card.
一件毛衣和"艾滋 上帝的愤怒" A sweater and "AIDS - the wrath of God".
祝我生日快乐 Happy birthday!
你不能指望她有什么改变 鲍比 You can't expect anything different from her, Bobby.
她是不会变的 She's not gonna change.
生日对我们全家来说一直是一件大事 Birthdays were always a big deal for all of us.
我已经不属于家的一份子了 I'm just not in the all of us anymore.
还是没有法接受这个事实 Can't get that throughout my head.
戴维来了 There's David.
再聊 Talk to you later.
你确定这样合适吗 You sure this is ok?
他们肯定会喜欢你的 They're gonna love you.
我们走吧 Let's go.
爸 你非说那事不可吗 Dad, do you have to tell that story?
我觉得我有必要说 Hey, I felt I had to.
是的 我还有无数个新故事 Yes. And I've got about a dozen more where
如果你有兴趣听的话 That came from if you're interested.
不用了 Oh, oh no thanks.
鲍比 So Bobby...
和我们说说你的事 Tell us more about you.
你在沃纳溪长大 对吧 You grew up in Walnut Creek, right?
戴维是你和你的家人很亲近 David says you're very close to your family.
是的 Yeah.
那你的父母怎么看待你是同性恋这件事 So how are your parents with you being gay?
不是很好 Not good.
可能他们刚开始很难接受 Maybe it's hard for them at first.
他们会理解的 They'll come around.
你看起来是一个很出色的青年人 You seem like a wonderful young man.
我肯定他们很爱你 I'm sure they love you.
-为此干杯 -为此干杯 - Cheers to that! - Cheers to that!
很高兴认识你 鲍比 It's great to meet you Bobby.
你们是怎么认识的 So how did you guys meet?
你知道珍妮吧 You know Janette?...
这是罪恶 It's a sin.
这不正常 It's not natural.
这里永远不会欢迎他 He'll never be welcome here.
你为什么坚持这样选择 Why do you keep choosing this?
有时我感觉很受伤 Sometimes I hurt so bad...
我很害怕 我很孤单 And I'm scared and I'm alone.
我肯定他们很爱你 I'm sure they love you.
我注定遭厄运 I'm damned.
我在一片巨大而湍流的沙石中慢慢下沉 I'm slowly sinking in a vast lake of quick sand.
像一个无底洞 A bottomless pool.
我想就在石下蜷居 I wish I could crawl under a rock
长眠 And sleep forever.
你已经接通戴维 You've reached David.
我现在不在 请在提示音后留言 I'm not here right now but if you leave a message
我会马上回复你 After the beep, I'll get right back to you.
祝好 Have a good one...
戴维 是我 鲍比 Hey David, it's Bobby.
我以为你会在 I thought you'd be there.
听着 我 Look I'm...
真的需要和一个人谈谈 I really need someone to talk to
我还希望你能在 And I was hoping you'd be there.
亲爱的上帝 Please, Dear lord,
请求您继续宽恕鲍比罪恶的心吧 Continue to convict Bobby's heart off sin.
这样他就能找他的路 That he may find his way
通向纯洁的道路 The way of purity,
通向正直的道路 The way of the righteous.
这是罪恶 It's a sin.
这不正常 It's not natural.
我不要自己的儿子是同性恋 I won't have a gay son.
你上学要迟到了 You're gonna be late for school.
你才是睡过头了 You're the one who slept in.
好吧 我们都要上学迟到了 Ok, then we're both gonna be late for school.
车上见 Meet you in the car.
好的 OK!
你好 Hello?
珍妮 发生了什么 Janette, what's wrong?
不可能 No...
怎么了 What's wrong?
不可能 No...
怎么了 What's wrong?
南茜 滚一边去 Nancy, get out of here!
爸 Dad!
爸爸 Daddy...
你好 Hello.
嗨 嗨 珍妮 Hi. Hi, Janette...
玛丽 有人找你 Mary, you've been called up front
他还说叫你带好钱包 And he said to bring your purse.
应该是我的小孩又要钱了 Probably one of the kids that needs money again.
反正我也需要休息了 I need a break anyway.
拜 Bye.
怎么了 What is it?
鲍比自杀了 Bobby killed himself.
他从桥上跳了下去 He jumped off a bridge.
他...已经走了 He... He's gone.
帮帮我 Help me!
帮帮我 Help me!!
我儿子死了 让我出去 My son is dead! Let me out!
让我出去 Let me out!
我儿子死了 让我出去 My son is dead! Let me out!
乔伊 慢点说 怎么了 Joy, slow down. What's wrong?
谢谢 Thank you.
挚爱的人过世永远都是悲剧 Death of a loved one is always tragic
尤其是一位年轻人的过世 But the death of a young person
更是无比之痛 Can be particularly painful.
因为他本来是前途无量的 Because that person had his whole life ahead of him.
鲍比年仅20岁 Bobby was only 20 years old.
我们永远也不知道他会成为怎样的人 We'll never know who he could have been.
或是他能取得怎样的成就 Or what he could have accomplished.
鲍比是一个好青年 但是迷失了自我 Bobby was a good young man but he was lost.
在诱惑中 迷失了自我 By giving into temptation, he strayed.
最终幻想破灭 Then disillusioned,
他选择结束自己的生命 He chose to end his life.
现在我们知道应该谴责罪恶 Now we know to condemn the sin,
而非罪人 Not the sinner,
这是一个鲍比无法摆脱的罪恶 It was this sin that Bobby succombed to.
这导致了他的不幸 It led to his unhappiness.
也导致了他 And it led him
结束自己的生命 To take his own life.
善有善报 As goodness begets goodness,
恶有恶归 So does sin begets sin.
这么说不过分吗 They're ok with this?
三明治不够了 They're running low on sandwiches.
妈妈 你觉得鲍比会得到救赎吗 Mum, do you think Bobby got salvation?
不知道 I don't know.
自杀是种原罪 Suicide is a sin.
不过也许上帝知道那不是鲍比的本意 But maybe God knows that Bobby wasn't in his right mind?.
我是说 如果上帝有能力治好鲍比 I mean... Why would God allow Booby to go to hell
为什么还要让他掉进地狱 If it was in his power to cure him?
我不知道 玛丽 I don't know Mary!
你也别想了 Clear yourself together.
大家已经够伤心的了 People are unconfortable enough.
感谢您的到来 Thank for coming.
我为您儿子的死感到遗憾 I'm so sorry for your loss.
格里菲斯先生 格里菲斯夫人 Mrs Griffith. Mr. Griffith..
我是戴维 I'm David.
我是鲍比的朋友 I was a friend of Bobby's.
我想表示我的哀悼之情 I wanna offer my condolences.
他是个很出色的年轻人 He was an amazing young man.
我很遗憾 I'm so sorry.
玛丽婶婶 Aunt Mary...
戴维是个好人 David is a good person.
鲍比的朋友都是 All of Bobby's friends were.
鲍比在这的时候 他还控制着自己 When Bobby was here, he was under control.
等他搬到波特兰 Then he moves to Portland
某些人给他灌输了这些鬼思想 And someone puts all these ideas into his head.
不是你说的那样 It wasn't like that.
戴维在乎鲍比 David cared for Bobby.
我们是他的家人 We're his family.
我们知道该怎么帮他 We know how to help me,
他想要改变 想更靠近上帝 He wanted to change, to be closer to god.
想更靠近你 To be closer to YOU!
然后他越来越陷入了同性恋的生活方式 Then he went further and further into that life style
无法自拔 And he couldn't get out.
你信教堂里说的一切吗 Do you believe everything they tell you in church?
我知道你和鲍伯叔叔不同意同性恋 I know you and uncle Bob meant with that serment...
鲍比知道做同性恋的后果 Bobby knew the repercussions about homosexual lifestyle.
鲍比是个好人 他谦卑 和善 Bobby was good, descent and kind.
那人根本不了解鲍比 Someone who didn't even know Bobby
还站在那谴责他 你居然不管 Stood up there and condemned him, and you let him.
鲍比做了所有他能做的 Bobby did everything he could
就为了让你接受他 To make himself acceptable to you.
他聪明 幽默 他应该得到赞美 He was so good, and bright, and funny. He should be praised.
很遗憾你看不到那些 I'm sorry you can't see it that way.
也许你该走了 Maybe you should go.
好 Fine.
我把鲍比的东西放他房间里了 I left Bobby's things in his room.
鲍比 Bobby!
妈妈 Hey Mum!
再也不许这样了 我知道这都不是真的 Don't you ever do that again!I knew it wasn't true.
我就知道上帝会把你带回我身边的 I knew God would bring you back to me.
妈 你过虑了 Mum, you worry too much.
我在一片巨大而湍流的沙石中慢慢下沉 I'm slowly sinking in a vast lake of quick sands.
像一个无底洞 A bottomless pool.
我想就在石下蜷居 长眠 I wish I could crawl under a rock and sleep forever.
没人能理解我 No one understands me.
这房子里的人都不能接受我 No one in this house can accept my side of the story.
我能感觉到上帝用怜悯的眼光俯视着我 I can feel god's eyes looking down on me with pity.
所有人都会知道我是个同性恋 I can't never let anyone find out I'm not straight.
真的好丢脸 It would be so humiliating...
我的朋友都讨厌我 My friends would hate me.
还有家人 And my family...
妈妈 Mum
我听到他们的谈话 I've overheard them.
谢谢 Thank you.
他们说他们讨厌同性恋 They've said that they hate gays.
连上帝都讨厌同性恋 And even God hates gays.
那真的吓到我了 It really scares me when they talk that way
因为我就是个同性恋 Because now they are talking about me.
我不想选择成为原罪 I don't wanna choose sin.
我真的不想 I don't.
我真的对上帝很生气也很困惑 I'm so mad and frustrated god...
我好像已经走到了路的尽头 I seem to be at the end of the road.
为什么你还在保持沉默 Why do you remain silent?
5月30日 May 30th.
纪念日 室外烤肉 Memorial Day Barbecue.
很开心 Had fun.
妈妈很贴心 还很幽默 Mum was sweet and funny self.
像以前的妈妈 Like the old Mum...
有一瞬间真的仿佛回到了从前 For a second it felt like the old days.
她因我的话而开心的笑 She smiled at something I said,
有一瞬间我看她的眼神 仿佛真的忘了 And I saw on her eyes that for a second she forgot
她究竟是怎么想我的 What she really thinks of me.
仿佛愤怒从没有爆发过 The anger never erupts.
我胆怯的天性根本承受不住 My timid nature would never allow
这家里的狂风暴雨 A full fledged thunderstorm to occur.
可它就这么发生了 But it's there, on the horizon.
我能感受到上帝充满怜悯的俯视着我 I can feel god's eyes looking down on me with such pity.
尽管他帮不了我 He can't help me though.
因为在罪恶和正义之间我选择了前者 Because i've chosen sin over righteousness.
不好意思 Excuse me!
你还好吗 爱德华 You alright Ed?
我很好 我想大家都很好 不明显吗 Oh yeah, I'm fantastic. I think we all are. Isn't that obvious?
爱德华 我们一家人必须一起来处理这件事 Ed. We have to deal with this as a family.
鲍比的事你也是这么说的可那根本没用 That was your answer for Bobby too but it didn't work.
妈的 Damned!
我去 我去 I'll go. I'll go.
不好意思 Excuse me.
来 南茜 Come, Nancy.
出去走走吗 来点啤酒? You wanna get out of here, maybe go for a beer?
他就一点都没想到我们吗 Did he even think about what he would do to us?
他可以给我们打电话的 He could have called...
或是其他什么的可是... Or something but...
就这样让我们心痛 Not just screw us, right?
爱德华 Ed...
什么都没有 没有告别 没有留言 Nothing no! No goodbye, no note,
什么都没有 就那么... Nothing. Just...
对不起 鲍比 I'm sorry Bobby.
对不起 I'm sorry.
你现在好受了吧 Are you happy now?
对不起 鲍比 I'm sorry Bobby.
你现在好受了吧 Are you happy now?
爱德华 Ed...
这不是你的错 It's not your fault.
一定还有很多像鲍比这样的人 There must be other Bobbys out there.
想结束自己生命的年轻同性恋者 Other young gay people who may be thinking of taking their lives.
教堂有接触到他们吗 Does the church reach out to them?
有些教堂接触了 There are other churches to do that.
牧师约瑟夫让我们告诉您 Reverend Joseph asked us to tell you
他对您儿子的事情深表遗憾 How sorry he is for your loss.
我们可以过几周再来 来看看您的家... We can come back in a couple of weeks and check in on your f...
你不明白 对吗 You don't understand, do you...
我不知道该怎么做 I don't know what to do.
我想要心安理得可我做不到 I need to make peace with this and I can't.
上帝说污秽的灵魂将被投入火海 The lord says the impure will be thrown into the lake of fire.
鲍比 Bobby...
罪孽深重 Sinned!
可是他有颗纯净的心 But he was pure of heart.
他从未故意伤害过别人 He'd never knowingly hurt anyone.
这样够吗 Is that enough?
够吗 Is it?
亲爱的上帝 Dear god,
我对你还有些乞求 My relationship to you leaves something to be desired.
我从来没有向你索求过 I have never asked of you,
只有给予 就像你告诉我的那样 Only given, as I was told.
你的圣灵教授我如此之多 Your holy spirit has taught me so much...
但我现在需要知道更多 But now there's more I need to know.
我不想 I can't.
好吧 Ok.
我去客厅睡 I think I'm gonna sleep in the living room.
城市公共教堂
牧师吗 Reverend?
我是玛丽·格里菲斯 Mary Griffith.
很高兴你过来 玛丽 Nice to have you with us, Mary.
圣经 The bible...
说同性恋是一种应被处以死刑的罪恶 It says that homosexuality is a sin punishable by death.
你信吗 Do you believe that?
圣经上有各种各样的解释 格里菲斯夫人 There are other interpretations of the bible, Mrs Griffith.
我的儿子 My son...
是同性恋 Was gay...
他自杀了 And he killed himself.
这是那另外的一种解释吗 Is there an other interpretation of that?
很抱歉 I'm sorry.
他叫什么 What was his name?
鲍比 Bobby.
鲍比·格里菲斯 Bobby Griffith.
我在这见过他几次 I saw him here a couple of times.
我儿子吗 My Bobby?
他总是坐在很后面 He always sat way in the back.
后来他不来了 He stopped coming.
我很抱歉 I am so sorry.
你应该... You must be...
我要知道答案 I need answers.
我要知道他现在在哪 I need to know where he is.
同性恋是一种不可被饶恕的罪行吗 Is homosexuality an unforgivable sin?
利未记[圣经旧约] 第18章第22节说 Leviticus, 18:22 says:
如果两个男人交媾 If a man lies with another man,
这是一种亵渎吗 It is an abomination.?
亵渎 不意味着是原罪 An abomination, in that time, didn't mean sin.
那意味着不圣洁 It meant unclean.
利未记也说 Leviticus also goes on to
吃贝类物是亵渎 Say eating shellfish is an abomination.
还有编织 Or mixing fabrics...
利未记 第20章第13节 Leviticus 20:13
如果两个男人交媾 他们都该被处死 If a man lies with another man, they both should be put to death.?
里面还说 通奸和违令父母 And then he says the same thing about an adultere,
也该被处死 Or a child that disobeys their parents.
我们当然不能只从字面上去理解经文 And we certainly don't interpret that scripture litteraly.
申命记第22章里 In Deuteronomy 22,
如果一个女人在结婚当日不是处女 If a woman is not a virgin on her wedding day,
她应该被带到父亲的房子后被砸死 She should be taken to her father's house and stoned to death.?
那你对来这的那些人怎么说 So what do you tell people who come here?
那些同性恋 Gay people...
同性恋没什么吗 That homosexuality is ok?
在上帝眼中这能被允许吗 That it is permissible in god's eyes?
我告诉他们我认为的真理 I tell them what I believe to be the truth:
上帝爱他们 不论他们是谁 That God loves them as they are.
上帝的复仇之心是强大的 God's vengeance is great.
他的恻隐之心也是 So is his compassion.
你不应该教他们同性恋没事 You shouldn't teach them that homoseuxality is ok.
那不是圣经中说的 That's not what the bible says.
那只会让他们更困惑 It just confuses them more.
格里菲斯夫人 Mrs Griffith,
如果你周末想来加入我们的谈话 If you'd like to come back during the week and talk,
我的大门向你敞开 My door is open,
但不是被责备 But not to be blamed.
好吗 Ok?
我们弄了棵很漂亮的圣诞树 I think that we got a pretty good one,
漂亮还布满装饰 Nice and full.
这球球像你老爸的秃顶一样闪亮 A couple of balls like your dear old dad.
或祖母的 Or grandma...
对 Yeah...
妈妈 咱们能把这个挂在树上吗 Mum, can we hang this one on the tree?
我记得他做这个的时候 I remember when he made this.
二年级 Second grade.
我记得是在唐斯太太的班上 Mrs Towns' class, I think.
他可自豪了 He was so proud of himself.
你想挂哪 Where do you want to put it?
高高的 Up high.
这样他就能看到了 So he can look out.
它亮了 Hey, they work.
我去看看我的饼干 I'm gonna go check on my cookies.
我看了你之前说过的章节 I found the passage you talked about.
关于石刑 About stoning to death
申命记第22章 Deuteronomy, 22.
但桑多和哥莫若呢 But what about Sodom and Gommorah?
上帝惩罚了他们同性恋的罪行 God punishes the sin of homosexuality.
那个你怎么解释 How do you explain that?
很高兴见到你 玛丽 It's nice to see you too, Mary.
这是要干嘛 What's this for?
物件拍卖 It's a roomish sale.
同性恋者们也都有 All gay people have roomish too.
那桑多和哥莫若呢 So... What about Sodom and Gommorah?
许多教徒认为他们的罪是贪婪而非同性恋 Many scholars think this sin was greed and not homosexuality.
被写出来后他们也不会就此被 And it wasn't labeled homosexuality until years
标上同性恋的标签 After it was written.
你对所有的事情 Do you have answers for all these things
都有自己的一套理论吗 Just to justify being that way?
你的理论是错的 You have answers to justify that it's wrong.
好像咱们看法很不同啊 I guess we're in an impass here.
那你觉得随心所欲用你的想法 So you think it's ok to interpret the bible
来解释圣经就行吗 Any way you want?
当然不 No, of course not.
但圣经是被凡人们写成并解释的 But the bible was written and interpreted by mortal men.
里面很多的解释反映了当时的时代背景 And many of those interpretations were reflections of the time
及人们当时的生活状态 And what they lived.
所以你就能随便的质疑它吗 So you feel completely free to question it?
因为... Because...
我觉得这是一种亵渎 I think it's blasphemous.
我不觉得上帝会介意质疑 I don't think God minds questions.
也许他并不满意我们原有的答案 He might not be thrilled with all our answers.
我认为盲目的信仰和没有信仰一样危险 I think blind faith is just as dangerous as none at all.
我从没质疑过我的信仰 我... I've never questioned my faith. I...
我没有理由去质疑 I've never had reasons to.
有时候质疑 Sometimes to question it...
会帮你找到更深刻的信仰 Helps you find a deeper faith.
鲍比不来教堂的原因 Bobby stopped coming here.
我想是 I think the reason was...
他觉得自己配不上帝的爱 He couldn't never allow himself to feel worthy of God's love.
而我们却什么都没帮上 And we didn't help.
玛丽 Mary...
你听说过P-FLAG吗 Have you ever heard about P-FLAG?
他是一个国家型组织 It's a national organisation.
全称是 同性恋者亲友团 It's parents and friend of lesbians and gays?
不 我不去那 No, that's not for me.
他们能帮你 They could help.
你会觉得你并不是孤军奋战 You'd be able to see you're not so alone in this.
再见牧师 Bye Reverend.
在康科德 有位女士叫贝蒂·兰博 No. There's a woman in Concord, Betty Lambert.
你会喜欢她的 You'll love her.
她30岁时发现自己有个同性恋儿子 She has a gay son in his 30s.
我只是有些问题 我不需要其他的了 I just had a few questions. I don't need anything else.
只是以防万一 Just in case.
真的没错 圣经里有一章说到如果孩子 It's true. There's a passage that says if children are disobedient
违背父母 他应该被处死 They should be put to death.
我想说没人只从字面上去理解它 And I mean no one interprets that litteraly.
我想说的是 What I'm saying is...
既然教堂已经不再按字面解释那一条 If the church no longer interprets that litteraly,
也许同性恋也一样 Maybe homosexuality is also on that list.
也许吧 Well, maybe.
你不觉得这很重要吗 Well, don't you think that's important?
玛丽 我对圣经该怎么理解 Mary, I wasn't that keen with
没有那么大热情 The first interpretation of the bible.
可是那意味着鲍比可能在天堂 Well, it could mean that Bobby's in heaven.
是 但是他没在这儿 好吗 Yeah, well, he's not here. Right?
为什么你还是不满意呢 Why isn't that enough for you?
你满意了吗 Is it enough for you?!
你做的一切 让事情好转了吗 Does it make it any better? Everything you're doing?
那你想让我做什么 What do you want me to do?
忘了他 我做不到 也许你可以 Just forget about him? I can't do that. Maybe you can.
我没有 也不会忘记他的 玛丽 I don't wont to forget about him, Mary.
我想要记住他 但是生活也要继续 I want to remember him. Then I want to move on.
但是我做不到 But I can't!
没有人可以 Nobody can...
又走了 你总是这样 Just walk away. Like you always do.
从来没有正视过问题 You never deal with anything.
我明白了 Oh, I see...maybe
如果我面对了 鲍比今天可能还活着 Maybe if I did, Bobby would still be alive today?
你是这个意思吗 你是这么想的吗 Is that what you're saying? Is that what you think?
你能回答我吗 You can answer me!
听着 我们都有错 所有人都有错 Listen Mary, we both made mistakes. We all made mistakes.
但是已经结束了 他已经走了 But it's done, he's gone.
我们也不能让他再醒来 We're not gonna bring him back.
我知道 I know that!!!
你不知道我知道吗 Don't you know I know that?!
玛丽 我是贝蒂 Mary? I'm Betty.
你好 Hello.
贝蒂·兰博 我很高兴你打来电话 Betty Lambert. I'm so glad you called.
请进 Please, come in.
韦氏教士告诉我了鲍比的事 Reverend Whitsell told me what happened to Bobby.
我无法想象那样失去一个孩子是什么感觉 I can't imagine what it must feel like to lose a child like that
过去多久了 How long has it been?
六个月 Six months...
六个月零几天 Six months and a few days.
我们的孩子向我们出轨的时候是14岁 Our son was 14 when he came out to us.
那不会太小了吗 Isn't that a little young?
在那之前我就知道了 I knew before then.
我们作为母亲总是知道的 不是吗 We, mothers, we always know. Don't we?
你们觉得那没问题吗 And you were ok with it?
上帝 当然不 Oh god, no.
我觉得不会有家长听到之后会觉得"真好" I don't think any parent hears the news and thinks oh Goodie?
至少那不是我的第一反应 Goodie Wasn't the first word that came to my mind.
玛丽 Mary...
为什么不和我参加一次PFLAG的聚会呢 Why don't you come to a P-FLAG meeting with me?
不了 我... No, I'm...
我不擅长当众发言 I'm not good at talking in groups.
那就不发言 So don't talk.
就来听听 Just come and listen.
你会大吃一惊的 I think you'll be shocked
那么多人觉得自己家本是绝对美式家庭 At how many people think they were the All-American-Family.
我会考虑的 I'll think about it.
埃里克在学校总是被人嘲笑 Eric was taunted in shcool all the time.
玛丽 你来了 Mary, you came.
我不能待很久 I can't stay long.
没事 进来吧 That's great. Come on in.
我气坏了 我去找校长 I was so furious, I went to the principal.
但是他不愿意让那个男生受到惩罚 But he didn't do a thing to the boys who did it.
我吃了一惊 I was shocked by that.
我叫同性恋是基佬 玻璃 I called them fruits, and ferries.
我之前不知道 I didn't know.
我花了好久才能接受我的萨姆 It took me a long time to accept my Sam.
我想我一直知道的 I think I alway knew.
要知道 I mean...
他问我要一件粉红色鳄鱼衫作为生日礼物 He asked for a pink Lacoste shirt for his birthday.
他总是与众不同 He was always different.
所以他告诉我他是同性恋之后 So he tells me he's gay...
我能怎么办 What do I do?
我带他去打猎 I take him hunting.
他穿着他的粉红色鳄鱼衫就去了 There he is in his pink Lacoste shirt,
他看到一头鹿 就大叫 斑比 快跑 He saw a deer and yaled run, Bambi, run?
我相信我会永远爱我的儿子 I always knew I could love my son
但是我没想过可以接受他是一个怎样的人 I never thought I could accept him. For who he is.
当吉尔告诉我说她是同性恋时 Well, when Gil told me she was gay.
我坚持让她去看心理医师 I insisted she see a psychiastrist.
但是当那个男人说要进行电休克疗法 But when that man suggested shock therapy,
我看着我的宝贝 她的眼神告诉我她很受伤 I looked at my baby and, the hurt in her eyes.
我想我一定是疯了 I thought this is crazy!?
你好 教士 Ah, hello reverend!
快请坐 Please, come sit down.
-你们好 -你好 - Hi guys! - Hi reverend!
很高兴今天晚上你们都来了 Glad to see you're all here tonight.
就像你们知道的那样 As you may know, Reverend Whitsell is
韦氏教士是公共社区教堂的一名牧师 A pastor of the Metropolitan Community Church,
他在向沃纳溪市政议会申请 And he's proposing a gay freedom day
设立"同性恋自由日" To the Walnut Creek city council.
市政议会的投票大约会在一个月之后进行 The city council vote happens in about a month.
我希望你们都能支持我 And I would love all your support.
玛丽 Mary!
玛丽 Mary?
玛丽 你在这里干什么 Mary, what are you doing out here?
你都湿透了 快进来 You're soak. Come inside.
我不知道还能去哪儿 I didn't know where else to go.
我坐在那儿 I was sitting there,
听着他们的故事 Listening to all their stories.
他们都说 About how they...
他们一直都知道 Always just knew...
自己的孩子与众不同 Their kid was different.
今天晚上我做了一个梦 And then I had this dream tonight...
鲍比还是一个婴儿 Bobby was a baby.
我的儿子一直都是与众不同 My son was always different.
在他成人的最初就已经与众不同 His difference began at conception.
我知道 的 I knew that.
我感觉得到 I felt it.
我现在知道 I know now...
为什么上帝没有治愈鲍比 Why God didn't heal Bobby
没有治愈他是因为 He didn't heal him because...
鲍比没有什么不正常 There was nothing wrong with him.
都是我的错 I did this!
我杀死了自己的儿子 I killed my son!
你没有杀死他 鲍比自杀的 You did not kill your son. Bobby killed himself.
上帝会原谅我吗 How could God forgive me?
鲍比会原谅我吗 How could Bobby forgive me?
上帝早已原谅了你 你要原谅自己 God has already done the forgiving. You have to forgive yourself.
我错了 I'm so sorry!
我真的错了 I'm so sorry!
我的主 Dear god.
请给我们生活的勇气 Give us something we can live with
并将勇气带给那些因为爱者已逝 And pass on to others whose lives will never be the same
而生活无法继续的人们 Because of a loved one's death.
我没有自己选择褐色的眼睛 I did not decide on brown eyes for myself.
现在我明白 鲍比没有选择做一名同性恋 And I now realize that Bobby didn't decide to be gay.
如果你说 If you say in your word
生来没有胳膊的人是邪恶而受诅咒的 That it is evil and wicked to be born with no arms,
那么一个生来没有胳膊的孩子 And a child is born with no arms,
要怎么想 What is that child to think?
我们今天的第一项提案是 Our first order business is a proposal
在沃纳溪设立同性恋自由日 For a gay freedeom day in Walnut Creek.
请肃静 Attention, please.
我们有代表对这一提案进行辩论 We have a select group to debate the issue.
-我没看到她 -有请韦氏教士 - I don't see her. - ...it's reverend Whitsell.
我们希望有一天 For one day,
在这一天 For one day,
人们可以庆祝自己的不同 而不是感到羞耻 People can celebrate their difference rather than feel shame.
他们应该感到羞耻 Hey should be ashame!
还有那么多人 There are so many other people
需要我们的时间和关心 Who need our time and our attention.
为什么要浪费在这上面 Why are we wasting it on this?
请遵守秩序 Alright, alright. Let's have some order here please.
他们玷污了体面和道德 They spit in the face of decency and morality.
我们这个社会中的所有人都应该团结一致 We cannot allow the fabric of our society to be torn apart.
不是吗 Right?
我听说他想要竞选加入人权委员会 I heard he tries to run for the Human Relations commission,
但是他们最后挑了瘸子韦氏 They picked that limped Whitsell instead.
他们寄给他一封信 They sent him a letter.
我说 我们在教堂中唱赞美诗 I said, 'We sing hymns at our church'.
你们难道在教堂里搞基吗 What do you do with the hymns at your church?
我们要休会做出最后决定 So unless anyone else has anything else to add,
还有人要补充的吗 We'll adjourn to make our decision.
玛丽 Mary?
爸 Hey Dad!
爸 快进来 Dad, get in here!
爸 快点 妈上电视了 Dad hurry up! Mum's on TV.
同性恋是一种不可饶恕的原罪 Homosexuality is a sin.
同性恋者被判死后下地狱永世不得超生 Homosexuals are dommed to spend eternity in hell.
如果他们希望改变 If they wanted to change,
他们可以被治愈 远离邪恶之路 They could be healed of their evil ways.
如果他们愿意远离诱惑 If they would turn away from temptation,
他们会再次变得正常 They could be normal again.
如果没有用 If only they would try and try harder,
他们就应该更加努力 If it doesn't work.
这些是我发现我的儿子是同性恋的时候 These are all the things I said to my son Bobby
对他所说的话 When I found out he was gay.
当他告诉我他是同性恋时 When he told me he was homosexual,
我只觉得世界天崩地裂 My world fell apart.
我尽我所能 I did everything I could
想要治疗他的病态 To cure him of his sickness.
八个月之前 8 months ago, my son...
我的儿子跳下一座大桥 自杀了 Jumped off a bridge and killed himself.
我深深地后悔自己对同性恋知识的缺乏 I deeply regret my lack of knowledge about gay and lesbian people.
现在我明白 我所受的教育 I see that everything I was taught and told
都只是固执偏见 缺失人性 Was bigotry and dehumanizing slender.
如果我曾经多去了解 而不是墨守陈规 If I had investigated, beyond what I was told,
如果当初 If I had just,
在我的儿子对我坦诚相见的时候 Listened to my son,
我能认真听他说 When he poured his heart out to me...
我今天就不会站在这里 I would not be standing here today with you
心中充满悔恨之情 Filled with regrets.
我相信 I believe
上帝为鲍比的善良有爱而高兴 That God was pleased with Bobby's kind and loving spirit.
在上帝的眼中 善良和爱才是一切 In god's eyes kindness and love are what it's all about.
我不知道 I didn't know that each time
每次重复对同性恋的永世诅咒 That I echoed eternal damnation for gay people...
每一次 我都是在说鲍比是 Each time I referred to Bobby
病态 堕落 威胁着孩子们的安全 As sick and perverted and a danger to our children...
他的自尊 His self-esteem,
他的价值观 都被我所摧毁 His sense of worth, were being destroyed.
最终 And finally,
我对他的伤害无法补救 His spirit broke beyond repair.
鲍比翻过人行护栏 It was not god's will
跳向一辆重卡 That Bobby climbed over the side of a freeway overpass
当场死亡 And jumped directly into the path of an 18 wheel truck
那不是上帝的旨意 Which killed him instantly.
鲍比死亡的直接原因是 Bobby's death was the direct result
家长的漠视 他们对同性恋的恐惧 Of his parents' ignorance and fear of the word gay.
他想成为一名作家 He wanted to be a writer.
他的希望和梦想本不应该被剥夺 His hopes and dreams should not have been taken from him
但是被我们剥夺了 But they were.
有些像鲍比一样的孩子 They are children like Bobby,
坐在你们的教堂之中 Sitting in your congreggations,
与你们不相识 Unknown to you,
但他们会聆听 They will be listening,
当你们念出阿门 As you echo Amen
他们也许将不再祈祷 And that will soon silence their prayers.
向上帝祈祷理解 Their prayers to god, for understanding,
接纳 And acceptance,
和你们的爱 And for your love.
但是你们的厌恶 恐惧 But your hatred, and fear,
和对同性恋的漠视 会让他们放弃祈祷 And ignorance of the word Gay will silence those prayers
所以 So...
你在家中或者教堂里念出阿门之前 Before you echo Amen In your home and place of worship.
先想一想 Think!
请记住 Think and remember.
一个孩子在聆听 A child is listening.
妈妈 Oh, Mum...
应该没问题 Should be good.
他输了 He lost.
投反对票的人更多 They voted the order install.
他明年还会继续努力的 不是吗 Well, he'll try again next year, right?
我们真的要去旧金山 So, we're really going to San Francisco?
我们必须去 I think we have to.
我想我们没的选 I don't think that's a choice.
还真是讽刺 That's ironic.
好了 Ok.
我们晚了吗 Are we late?
刚刚好 Just in time!
刚刚来得及 Just in time.
杰姬 所有人都到了吗 Jacky, is this everyone?
亲爱的 不 Oh! Honey, no...
跟我来 Come with me.
我们为你们预留了一个特别的位置 We have a special place for you.
好的 Ok .
1984年国际同性恋节日
同性恋亲友团
我想对世界上所有的鲍比和珍说 To all the Bobby and Janes out there...
我把你们当作自己的孩子 I say these words to you as I would with my own precious children.
请不要对生活失去希望 Please don't give up hope on life.
不要对自己失去希望 Or yourselves.
对我来说 你们都很特别 You're very special to me.
为了让这个世界为你们变得更好 更安全 I'm working very hard to make this world a better and safer place
我在努力着 For you to live in.
答应我 你们会继续坚持下去 Promise me you'll keep trying.
鲍比对爱失去了信心 Bobby gave up on love.
我希望你们不会 I hope you won't.
你们永远都是我的天使 You're always in my gods.
我叫做鲍比·格里菲斯 My name is Bobby Griffith.
我写下这些 希望有一天 I write this in hope that one day,
很多年以后 Many years from now,
我可以回过头 I would be able to go back
记起我的人生曾经是怎样的 And remember what my life was like,
当我还是年轻而彷徨的少年时 When I was a young and confused adolescent,
绝望地想要明白在这个世界上我是谁 Desperately trying to understand myself in the world I live in
另一个原因我写下这些 也许在我死后很久 The other reason I write this, so long after I died,
其他人可以有机会读到我的故事 Others may have a chance to read about me,
看到我作为一个年轻人的生活是怎么样的 And see what my life as a young person was like.
1995年12月6日 On December 6th 1995, Mary Griffith testified
玛丽·格里菲斯得到了美国国会支持 Before members of the Congress of the United States.
她为保护同性恋青年所做出的不懈努力 Her tireless work protecting the rights of gay and lesbian youth
奠定了 Has established her as a major force
她在捍卫人权运动中的中坚力量 In the fight for human rights.
当你在家中或者教堂里念出阿门之时 Before you echo Amen in your home or place of worship,
记住 一个孩子在聆听 玛丽·格里菲斯 Think and remember. A child is listening. - Mary Griffith
仅以此片纪念鲍比·格里斯菲和雷若伊·艾伦 In loving memory of Bobby Griffith and Leroy Aarons