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我们有机会在这里建立伟大的制度 We have an opportunity to build something great.
为了做到这一点 我们需要更多人 In order to do that, we do need more voices
翻译 -小y Carolgcz
在这里发声 而非只有我 in the room than just mine.
格雷洛克的新立法委员是 Greylock's new legislators are
翻译 易碎的绝对 王木木 苏葵
艾米·约翰逊 丹尼尔·库珀 Amy Johnson, Daniel Cooper,
玛雅·吉梅内斯 以及伊莉莎白·弗恩斯比 Maya Jiménez and Elizabeth Fernsby.
校对 苏葵
你为什么没告诉莎拉你要结婚了 Why didn't you tell Sarah you're getting married?
我以为你会说 你是她最好的朋友 Well, I thought you would. You're her best friend.
你是她哥哥 Yeah, you're her brother.
而且这是你的订婚 And it's your engagement,
时间轴 树 爱撒谎的孩子
顺便说一句恭喜 which, you know, congratulations, by the way.
也许这次你可以信守承诺 Maybe this time you'll actually go through with it.
我知道你为什么要离开格雷洛克 I know why you had to leave Greylock.
后期 MythCreator
为什么你离开我 Why did you leave me?
我希望我能解释 但我不能 I wish I could explain. But I can't.
总监 苏葵
你是说你不愿意 You mean you won't.
韦斯顿要在南卡罗来纳州待多久 How long is Weston in South Carolina?
一周 他在那负责竞选报道 A week. He's covering an election there.
他还要回来吗 Oh, is he coming back
还是我要把我的降噪耳机退掉 or can I return my noise-cancelling headphones?
不 我们没那么吵吧 No. We aren't that loud, are we?
有几次我还以为 It was a couple times I thought God
上帝真的在回应你 was gonna actually answer you.
抱歉 I'm so sorry.
不过没错 他会回来 But yes, he's coming back.
我真幸运 Lucky me.
今天是个大日子 Today's a big day.
格雷洛克
今天我们要开始制定宪法 Today we start writing our constitution.
携手共进 我作为格雷洛克的领导 Together, me as Greylock's leader,
你们作为国会议员 我们将建立 you as its congress, we will establish
我们新国家政府的蓝图 the blueprint of our new country's government.
宪法是永恒的 A constitution is forever.
但我知道 如果我们共同努力 But I know if we work together,
就能创造出让格雷洛克人民引以为傲的宪法 we can create something that all of Greylock will be proud of.
我们可以告诉世界 And we can show the world
真正的民主依旧存在 还发展得很好 that real democracy is alive and well.
莎拉共和国 第一季 第七集
我们政府的任何部门 There should be no term limits
-都不应该有任期限制 -什么 - for any part of our government. - What?
丰富的领导经验很宝贵 Experienced leadership is valuable.
不限任期 只会让一群落伍的人管理国家 No term limits is how you get a country ran by dinosaurs.
没错 就像现在的美国 Yeah, just like America is now.
-各位 我们能不能... -格雷洛克应该 - Guys, please, can we... - Greylock should have
设立四个政府部门 four branches of government and
-其中一个专门管理经济 -又来这套 - dedicate one to the economy. - Oh, here we go.
-你疯了吗 -经济很重要 - Are you insane? - The economy's important.
-放轻松 -这能保护格雷洛克的经济利益 - Relax. - ...who can protect Greylock's economic interests.
-好吧 我们能不能... -如果他能这样 - Okay, look, if we can just... - If he gets that,
那我想设立一个独立的执法部门 I want an independent branch for law enforcement.
警方应该与政治分离 Police should be separate from politics.
-否则 体系就会... -警察需要监督 - Otherwise, you get a system... - Cops need oversight.
独裁者就能安插马屁精法官 ...where autocrat wannabes can install kiss-ass judges
-来阉割法制 -这感觉... - to neuter the rule of law. - That feels...
拜托各位冷静 我们能不能停一下 Calm down. Please. Can we just take a moment...
应该允许青少年参与选举并在政府工作 ...that teenagers are allowed to vote and work in the government.
-没门儿 -你们都死后 我们就要接手国家 - No way. - We're gonna inherit this country when you all croak.
我们不能在国家管理上有发言权吗 Shouldn't we have some say in how it's run?
-你们还是别管了 -她说得对 - You need to let it go. - She has a point.
我不会不管 如果我们要管好国家 I won't let it go. If we're gonna get this right,
-就得马上行动 -我们得妥协 - we have to get it right. - We have to compromise.
各位 各位 Guys, guys...
怎么了 What?
-文斯 -抱歉打断你们 - Hi, Vince. - Sorry to interrupt,
-没关系 -外面有一房车的移民 - It's okay. - There's a Caravan of immigrants outside.
一房车的移民 A caravan of immigrants?
-对 -有多少人 - Yeah. - How many are there?
我不知道 Uh, I don't know.
房车能坐 差不多七个人吧 A Caravan seats, what, like, seven?
我还以为... I thought...
-没事 我们都懂 -好 - Yeah, we all did. - Yeah.
格雷洛克警察说你们都来自宾夕法尼亚州 Greylock PD said you all came up from Pennsylvania?
你是莎拉·库珀 Whoa, you're Sarah Cooper.
我感觉自己遇到了明星 I feel like I'm meeting a celebrity.
没有 这里唯一的明星 Oh, no, the only celebrity around here is
就是会跳舞的斗牛犬小仙狗 Pixie the dancing pit bull.
-我是凯莉 -你好 很高兴认识你 - Kayleigh. - Yeah. Hi, nice to meet you.
这是格雷洛克的新国会议员 This is, uh, this is Greylock's new congress.
我们想来打个招呼 We wanted to come say hello.
你好 你们都是同一个地方的吗 Hi, there. So, uh, you're all from the same place?
我们来自瑞德福 宾州的西南角 Radford, southwest corner of the state.
我们差不多有30个人 There's about 30 of us.
大家都在那家餐厅 Everyone's at that diner.
但我的孩子忘了他的上衣 没错 But my little one forgot his hoodie, of course.
你们离家很远啊 You're a long way from home.
那里已经不再是家了 Well, it's not home anymore.
自从去年迪奥蒂恩出现后就不算家了 Not after Diotyne showed up a year ago.
本要在格雷洛克的事 What was supposed to happen to Greylock
其实已经在瑞德福上演了 actually did happen in Radford.
不过是压裂开采 不是采钶钽铁矿 Except it was fracking and not coltan.
我记得我看过新闻 他们夷平了镇子 I remember reading about that. They flattened the town.
对 几个月前 我们几个看到了你们的报道 Yeah, and a few months ago, a couple of us saw your story
我们就想 "我们为什么不移民去格雷洛克" and we thought, "Why not move to Greylock?"
我们今早出现在边境时 When we showed up at the border this morning,
我们问他们 我们能不能移民 we asked them if we could immigrate.
他们看起来有点疑惑 They looked a little confused
他们说会打电话给你 and said that they would call you.
格雷洛克还是小镇时就很热情好客 Greylock was always a welcoming place when we were just a town.
我们没理由因为现在这里是国家就变得不同 No reason we should be any different now that we're a country.
谢谢你 莎拉 Thank you, Sarah.
他们是不是好人并不重要 It doesn't matter if they're nice.
我们不能开放边境 莎拉 We can't have open borders, Sarah.
因为你不喜欢移民吗 Because you don't like immigrants?
我妈妈也是移民 玛雅 My mother was an immigrant, Maya.
我挺喜欢移民的 I like immigrants just fine.
但我们没空间了 But we don't have the space.
现在只有几家人 Right now, it's a few families,
但如果来了成百上千人呢 but what happens if a hundred show up, or a thousand?
我们的宪法得为格雷洛克 Our constitution has to set a precedent
接下来的500年开创先例 for Greylock for the next 500 years.
我们不能让今天的事影响宪法的制定 We can't let some incident from today affect how we write it.
我们都不知道这些人是谁 We don't know who these people are.
公司雇佣员工前都会做背景调查 Businesses run background checks before they hire you.
我们国家难道不应该至少做到这一点吗 Shouldn't our country at least do the same?
新居民意味着为社会带来新能量和新想法 New people means new energy and new ideas for a community.
也意味着新的问题 Also means new problems.
好了 我会拿出我们的区域图给你们看 Okay. I'm gonna pull our zoning maps and show you that
我们还有很多空间给新家庭 we have plenty of space for new families.
AJ可以对宾夕法尼亚的朋友 AJ can run background checks
还有其他前来的移民 on our friends from Pennsylvania,
进行背景调查 as well as anybody else who shows up.
5个月前格雷洛克差点从地图上消失 Greylock was nearly wiped off the map five months ago,
那样的话 我们就会成为移民 and then it would've been us who were the immigrants.
我们应该推己及人 热心给予他人 We should be just as eager to give out a second chance
第二次机会 as we were to get one.
你好 公主 Hi, Princess.
你来这里干什么 What are you doing here?
父亲不能来看看他的女儿吗 Can't a father come visit his daughter?
你一直以来去哪里了 Where the hell have you been?
-我一直在附近 -附近 - I've been around. - Around?
他们在附近有电话吗 Do they have phones in around?
有无线网络吗 What about Wi-Fi?
我知道 我应该打电话 我只是 I should've called, I know. I-I just...
我已经18年没见过你 或收到你的消息 I haven't seen or heard from you in 18 years.
为什么现在回来 Why come back now?
我在电视上看到莱登在格雷洛克钻探的事 I saw Greylock on TV with the drilling and Lydon.
然后 就看到了你 And then, there you were--
我的小女儿 已经长大了 my little girl, all grown up.
我 我不是你的小女儿 I'm not... I'm not your little girl.
看到你让我意识到 我需要 Seeing you made me realize I needed to
修复跟你和你哥的关系 make things right with you and your brother.
所以我来了这里 That's why I'm here.
我只是觉得 也许我们可以聊聊 I-I just thought maybe we could talk.
我不想跟你聊 I don't want to talk to you.
现在不行 Not now.
永远不行 Not ever.
莎拉 Sarah?
你有充电器吗 Do you have a phone charger?
今早开会时我手机没电了 My phone died during the meeting this morning.
有 操作台那边 我的背包里 Yeah. Counter, my backpack.
好的 谢了 All right, thanks.
这些是你的照片吗 Are these your photos?
-我 -是嘛 - I, um... - Yeah.
我都不知道你喜欢摄影 I didn't know you were into photography.
泽利格尔
-我没有 -兄弟 这些真不错 泰 - I'm not. - Dude, these are really good, Ty.
我之前从未见过这样的格雷洛克 I've never see Greylock look like this before.
-我真该把这些挂起来 -你能放回去吗 - I should honestly put these up. - Could you put those back?
拜托了 Please?
-可以 -谢谢 - Yeah. - Thanks.
这是今晚买一赠一的甜甜圈 It's two-for-one donuts tonight.
你想吃赠的那个吗 You want my extra?
蓝莓味的 It's blueberry.
是我的最爱 It's my favorite.
对 我知道 Yeah, I know.
宪法的事 So, uh, how's-how's the...
怎么样了 constitution thing?
事实证明 民主比看上去要难一点 Turns out democracy is a little harder than it looks.
你从什么时候开始教会计学了 Since when do you teach accounting?
我收到了一份完全不认识的银行 I got this delinquency notice from a bank
寄来的拖欠通知 that I don't even recognize
我想与我的学生贷款有关 that I guess has to do with my student loans.
-想让我看看吗 -不不不 不了 - Want me to take a look? - No, no, no. No.
我有足够时间读完这些附属细则 I've got plenty of time to wade through the fine print,
因为亚当和乔什在波士顿 'cause Adam and Josh are in Boston
参加幼童军活动 所以我 for a Cub Scout retreat, so I...
科琳 我是位律师 Corinne, I'm a lawyer.
附属细则对我来说是小菜一碟 拿来吧 I eat fine print for breakfast. I insist.
-是吗 -是的 - Yeah? - Yeah.
谢谢你 丹尼 Thank you, Danny.
不客气 You're welcome.
-这不会太麻烦你吗 -不会 - This isn't too much? - No.
抱歉来迟了 泰 手机没电了 Sorry I'm late, Ty. The battery died.
没事 今天不忙 No problem. It's been pretty light.
手机没电了吗 Dead battery, huh?
是的 Yeah.
你知道的 我明白你其实在哪里 You know I know where you really were.
我知道你明白我不想聊这事 And I know you know I don't want to talk about it.
去做心理治疗你不必撒谎 格罗弗 You don't have to lie about going to therapy, Grover.
没什么丢人的 It's nothing to be ashamed of.
知道吗 已经三个疗程了 You know, it's-it's been three sessions,
我几乎一句话也没说 and I've barely said a word.
但我张开嘴 却什么 But I open my mouth, and nothing...
什么也说不出来 nothing comes out.
你考虑过找其他人吗 Have you thought about maybe finding somebody else?
不可能 艾德娜是方圆百里唯一的 No way. Edna's the only Black therapist
黑人心理治疗师 for a hundred miles.
而且 她并不是问题所在 Besides, she's not the problem.
我才是 I am.
也许心理治疗不适合我 Maybe therapy just isn't for me.
这很难 但是值得的 It's hard, but it's worth it.
你值得这样做 And you're worth it.
据我所知 And as far as I can tell,
格雷洛克有足够的空间 Greylock has more than enough space
容纳来我们这里的所有人和东西 for whatever or whoever comes our way,
所以莉兹可以放轻松 so Liz can relax.
我不知道你们这么激动干什么 I don't know what you're getting so worked up about.
我 你和玛雅都这么想 我们有足够的选票 Between me, you and Maya, we have all the votes we need
在移民问题上票数超过她和你哥 to outvote her and your brother on immigration.
不 我们正试着建立真正的民主 No. We're trying to build a real democracy.
我们不能强行压制反对我们的人 We can't just steamroll people who disagree with us.
我们必须改变他们的想法 We have to change their minds.
这些地图可以帮助回答莉兹担心的问题 These maps should help answer Liz's concerns.
对凯莉和其他新来者的 Um, how is it going on the background checks
背景调查怎么样了 for Kayleigh and the rest of our new arrivals?
进行中 In progress.
好吧 能帮我个忙 Okay, can you do me a favor
把保罗·普雷斯顿·库珀加到你的列表里吗 and add Paul Preston Cooper to your list?
我为什么要这样做 Why would I do that?
因为他来了 Because he's here.
你父亲在格雷洛克吗 Your father's in Greylock?
从今早开始 Since this morning.
他会永远在这里吗 Is he here for good?
我不知道 也不关心 I don't know, and I don't care,
但我们告诉过莉兹和丹尼 but, um, we told Liz and Danny
我们会调查所有打算在 we would look into anyone who had the intention
格雷洛克长期居住 而非度假的人 所以 of staying in Greylock for longer than a vacation, so...
好吧 我会调查他的 Okay. I'll check into him.
好的 请彻底调查 Yeah. Um, make it thorough.
如果你能找到任何正当理由 If you can find any reason
把他踢出格雷洛克 我洗耳恭听 to justify kicking him out of Greylock, I'm all ears.
明白 You got it.
格雷洛克镇宪法
我很想你 丹尼 I missed you, Danny.
丹尼 我 我不需要这些 You know, Danny, I... I don't need all this.
找到房子前 我可以住旅馆 I can stay in a hotel until I find a place.
旅馆里全是宾夕法尼亚州来的移民 别提了 The hotel's full of immigrants from Pennsylvania. Don't ask.
这房子没人 不住也浪费 This place is empty. Seems like a waste not to use it.
只需要打开暖气 Just gonna turn the heat on.
我记得买了那个沙发 I remember buying that couch.
你的旧行李箱可能还在地下室 Your old trunks are probably still in the basement.
我还以为 Well, would have thought
她会清理掉我的所有痕迹 she'd gotten rid of every trace of me.
得了吧 我就没见过她 Please. Never saw her do anything
做任何需要放下酒杯的事 that required putting down her drink.
嗯 几个月前我在新闻上看到了她的报道 Yeah, caught her interview on the news a few months back.
三次酒驾啊 Three DUIs?
我不知道她酗酒这么严重 I had no idea her drinking got so bad.
"严重"已经是轻描淡写了 "Bad" is an understatement.
爸 Hey, Dad?
这么长时间来 你去哪里了 All this time, where'd you go?
工作需要我在哪里 我就去哪里 Wherever work sent me, you know?
你就没想过... You didn't think to maybe...
偶尔来看看我们吗 stop by once or twice?
我...我想来 丹尼 I-I... I-I wanted to, Danny.
只是...我还是不出现比较好 I just... It was better that I didn't.
因为妈妈 Because of Mom.
因为我 Because of me.
我的出现只会弊大于利 I would've done more harm than good.
我以前真的不是当父亲的料 I-I just really wasn't father material back then.
可你现在就是了吗 But you are now?
我想试试看 I'd like to be.
谢谢 格罗弗 Thank you, Groves.
你和丹尼到底是怎么回事 What the hell is going on with you and Danny?
什么 What?
-你在说什么 -我是说你们的笑容 - What do you mean? - I mean the smiles,
深情对视 激情的眼神交流 the long stares, the wistful eye contact.
你们俩看彼此的眼神 It's like I'm watching a-a teenage rom-com,
-就像青少年的浪漫爱情 -不 我们不是... - the way you two are looking at each other. - No. We're not...
你这是在玩火 You're playing with fire.
-格罗弗... -听着 - Grover... - Look,
我明白初恋的魔力 I understand the power of first love.
好吗 那是一种不管过了多少年 Okay? There's a connection that doesn't fade
都不会磨灭的联系 no matter how many years go by,
很明显 你和丹尼仍然藕断丝连 and it's obvious you and Danny still have that connection.
这很正常 And that's okay.
你没法控制自己的感觉 You can't control how you feel.
但你能控制你的行为 But you can control how you act.
而现在你表现得像是 And right now, you're acting like someone
要自找麻烦 who's looking for trouble.
我说这些并不是为了讨嫌 I'm not saying this to be a dick.
是因为我是你的朋友 I'm saying this because I am your friend.
离丹尼远点吧 Stay away from Danny.
走近他不会有好结果 That road only leads to bad places.
你也很清楚 You know that.
丹尼 你居然让他在妈妈的房子里留宿 Danny! You let him stay in Mom's house?
那也是他的房子 It's his house, too.
是吗 Oh, is it?
他付房贷吗 Does he... Does he pay the mortgage?
-还有物业税呢 -你想让我怎么做 - What about the property taxes? - What do you want me to do,
给他开个账单吗 他需要有个住处 send him a bill? He needs a place to stay.
你怎么能...怎么能不管他以前的所作所为 How can you... how can you treat him
把他当作亲爱的老父亲呢 like dear old Dad after what he did?
你就不想知道他之前去哪里了吗 Don't you want to know where he was?
你不觉得他时隔多年突然回来 Don't you think it's weird that he's suddenly back
-很奇怪吗 -我当然想知道 - after all this time? - Of course I do.
但我不像你 But, unlike you,
比起跟他冷战 我更愿意 I'm willing to actually let him answer those questions
让他回答我的问题 instead of giving him the silent treatment.
你知道你要是无视他会怎么样吗 莎拉 You know what happens if you ignore him, Sarah?
不会怎样 只会带来更多的沉默 Nothing. Just more silence.
听着 Look,
他曾经是我们的爸爸 he was our dad once.
我想看看他能不能再次成为爸爸 I'd like to see if maybe he could be again.
我花了很多年的时间 It took me years
走出他留下的阴影 to climb out of the crater that he left behind.
他也伤害了我 He hurt me, too.
跟他吃顿饭吧 Have dinner with him.
最糟糕能发生什么 What's the worst that could happen?
有人给格雷洛克艺术展发了两张我拍的照片 Somebody submitted two of my photos to the Greylock art show.
-泰勒 -我说过我不想跟这些扯上任何关系 - Tyler... - I told you i didn't want anything to do with this.
我知道 只是贝拉不在 Hey, I know. I-It's just with Bella being gone
我也很忙 你最近有点情绪低落 and me being so busy, you've been kind of down lately.
我不确定 我以为 Thought it might, I don't know,
让大家看到你的作品 能让你情绪高涨一些 get you more hyped if people actually saw your work.
"伊斯特布鲁克先生" "Mr. Easterbrook,"
"你的作品既微不足道 又自命不凡" "your work is both trivial and pretentious."
"你拍的照片很业余 构图也很差" "The photos you captured were amateurish and poorly composed."
"我们 格雷洛克艺术委员会" "We, the Greylock Arts Council,"
"经过专业专人的考量" "on our highty, hoity-toity horses,"
"认为你的作品不够好" "think that your work is not good enough."
去你的 滚回你来的地方吧 Screw you. Go back to where you came from.
我只是想帮帮你 Hey, I was just trying to help.
我以为你需要一个正向刺激 I thought you needed a boost.
我需要的是能信任的朋友 What I need are friends I can trust.
你不用接我下班 送我回家 格罗弗 You don't got to walk me home from work, Grover.
如果有熊出没 我会打爆它 If a bear comes, I'll just fight his ass.
没事 It's all good.
我也顺路回酒店 My hotel is the same direction.
再说 如果你要跟熊打斗 Besides, if you're gonna fight a bear,
我一定要在现场观看 I definitely want to watch.
我猜你心情不好 I guess your sour mood has to do
跟你之前跟玛雅吵架有关 with your little throwdown with Maya earlier.
她没有权力背着我那样做 She had no right to go behind my back like that.
你说得对 You're right.
如果这是你不开心的唯一原因 And if that were the only reason why you were upset,
我会站在你这边 I'd be on your side.
可这不是你生气的原因 对吗 不完全是 That's not why you were mad, right? Not entirely, anyway.
你对这件事的结果感到气愤 You were mad at the results.
是的 那些评委的话让我崩溃 Yeah. Those judges tore me apart.
听着 格雷洛克的艺术委员会 Look, the Greylock Council for the Arts
都是些老头和白人 他们固步自封 is old and white and stuck in their ways.
他们看到巴斯奇亚的作品 觉得只是普通涂鸦 They look at Basquiat and think that it's graffiti.
去他们的艺术展 Screw their art show.
如果你想展示你拍的照片 那就自己去展示吧 If you want to show your photos, do it yourself.
别在乎别人对你作品的看法 Don't worry what other people think about your work.
关注你自己对作品的想法 Focus on what you think about it.
好吗 Cool?
那么说我一直在给错误的地方寄钱吗 So, I've been sending my cash to the wrong place?
到现在已经三个月了 For three months now.
因此那家新银行试图用滞纳金来敲诈你 Which is why the new bank tried to nail you with late fees.
等等 "试图" Wait, "Tried?"
是的 我跟他们说了一堆法律术语 Yeah, I spouted a bunch of legalese at them
说他们没通知你 about failing to notify you
贷款转让的事 他们就退缩了 of the loan transfer and they backed off.
谢谢你 丹尼 这太... Thank you so much, Danny. This is so...
-你帮了我一个大忙 -不客气 - This is so helpful. - You're welcome.
我猜你一直在 You know, I assume that you've been
靠自动贩卖机生活 living out of a vending machine,
所以我给你做了些曲奇 so I made you some cookies.
-天啊 请告诉我 -给 - Oh, my God. Please tell me - Yeah.
这跟高中所吃的是一样的配方 this is the same recipe from high school.
棕黄油巧克力碎曲奇 微微烤焦吗 Brown butter chocolate chip, a little burnt?
没有焦 它们烤得很完美 They're not burnt. They're well-done.
你应该用这些去贿赂莎拉 我是说... You should bribe Sarah with these. I mean...
也许可以帮她减轻点压力 Might get her to relax a little bit.
她父亲离家之后从没回来过 Her father left and never looked back.
他走的时候她才六岁 She was six years old when he left.
现在他想要回到她的生活中 And now he's trying to worm his way back into her life.
-她太小了 没法真正了解他 -不对 - She was too young to really know him - No,
如果有人要少给人施压 那就是他 if anyone should relax, it's him.
也不了解事情的来龙去脉 or understand the whole story.
好吧 Okay.
事情的来龙去脉是怎样的 And what's the whole story?
我爸大概是三十年前认识我妈的 My dad met my mom almost 30 years ago
当时他在新罕布什尔州 when he was on a State Department assignment
执行国务院任务 in New Hampshire.
她怀我的时候 When she got pregnant with me,
他安定下来了 因为大家都这样 he settled down because that's what people do,
但生了孩子不等于成为父母 but having kids is different from being a parent.
我爸生来就不是当父亲的料 My... My father wasn't built for fatherhood.
回想当时 我认识到 Looking back, I realize
他在格雷洛克过得很糟糕 he was miserable in Greylock.
我想我也不该意外他离开了这里 Guess I shouldn't have been so surprised when he left.
但现在他回来了 But now that he is here,
你真的想欢迎他回来 you're really just gonna welcome him back,
-什么都不问吗 -我有很多问题 - no questions asked? - I have plenty of questions.
但我了解我爸 他爱我们 没有人会 But I know my dad. He loves us. And you don't walk away
无缘无故离开自己爱的人 from people you love without a good reason.
我要走了 I should go.
再次感谢你帮忙 Thank you again so much for the help.
甜心派餐厅
如果我们能谈谈 This might go better
可能会好点 if we could actually talk.
你想说随便你 You can talk all you want.
我会来是因为丹尼让我来 I'm here because Danny asked me to be here.
是吧 Yeah.
我以为今晚 You know, I-I thought tonight,
我们可以... we could...
我想听你聊聊你的生活 I-I would like to hear about your life.
你离开了 我长大了 Uh, you left, I grew up,
我建立了一个国家 就这样 I started a country, now I'm here.
该你说了 Your turn.
到现在为止 关于这十八年 So far, the only information I have
我知道的唯一消息是你在... about the last 18 years is that you were...
附近 around.
本来不该要这么久 It wasn't supposed to be for that long.
刚开始只是一个星期 At first, it was just a week.
理清头绪 接着... Get my head on straight. And then...
变成一个月 week became a month
-然后一年 -我知道时间变换 - became a year. - Yeah, I know how time works.
一年级老师就教了 We covered that in first grade.
你也没机会亲眼看到 Not that you were here to see it.
我希望我能亲眼看到 I wish I had been.
但显然我的缺失并没有阻碍你 But my absence certainly hasn't prevented you
成为出色的女性 from becoming a remarkable young woman.
我需要的是父亲 不是大学推荐信 I needed a father, not a college admissions essay.
更别说你离开对妈妈造成了什么影响 And don't even get me started on what you leaving did to Mom.
你妈妈很坚强 她... You mother was strong. She...
-她能应付一切 -是的 - She could roll with the punches. - Yeah.
她也可以找人发泄 She could dole 'em out, too.
什么意思 What's that supposed to mean?
你该问问丹尼 You should ask Danny.
莎拉 你觉得 You know, Sarah, you-you think
我的离开使我成为一个坏爸爸 my leaving made me a bad father.
但事实是在那之前我就不是一个好父亲 But truth is I was a bad father before that.
为人父母意味着无私 Being a parent means being selfless.
而我没做到 I wasn't.
我不停地想着 I couldn't stop thinking
我错过的机会 about the opportunities I was missing,
失去的人生 the life I wasn't living.
你是说我们是你的负担 You're saying we were a burden?
我们碍你事了 We were getting in the way?
-我是说我是个白痴 -所以你回来 - I'm saying I was an idiot. - So you've come back here
想证明你不再是白痴 to prove that you aren't anymore?
我回来想说对不起 Come back to say I'm sorry.
真的非常对不起 Down to my bones, I'm sorry.
对不起我离开了 I'm sorry I left.
对不起我没有跟你们联系 I'm sorry I didn't stay in contact.
对不起 因为我 I-I'm sorry for me.
我犯的错数都数不过来 Made more mistakes in my life than I can count.
我想是时候 I guess I just thought it was about time
我开始尝试做一些弥补 I started to try and make some amends.
艺术展
跟你爸聊得怎么样 How'd it go with your dad?
不知道 我想恨他 I don't know. I want to hate him.
我的确恨他 但是... I do hate him, but...
我也不知道 跟他聊完觉得他... I don't know, talking to him made him seem...
像个普通人 human.
嗨 芬威 Hi, Fenway.
你怎么了 你看起来就像谁死了似的 What's up with you? You look like someone just died.
我在调查我们那些新移民的背景 I was running background checks on our new immigrants,
我发现两件事 and I found two things.
第一 First,
凯莉的妈妈 她跟他们一起来的 Kayleigh's mother-- she's traveling with them--
1968年 她在越南一次抗议活动中 she was arrested for civil disobedience
因非暴力反抗被捕 at a Vietnam protest in 1968.
好 那是优点 不是缺点 Okay, that's a... that's a feature, not a bug.
第二... And second...
是你父亲 莎拉 It's your dad, Sarah.
保罗·库珀是 Paul Cooper is wanted
美国政府的通缉犯 by the U.S. Government.
你对我撒了谎 你来格雷洛克 You lied to me. You only came to Greylock
是因为你被美国政府通缉 because you're wanted by the U.S. Government.
因为我们跟美国没有正式外交关系 And since we don't have any official diplomatic ties to the U.S.,
这样我们就是不能引渡国家 that makes us a non-extradition country,
也就是说只要你留在这里 which means they can't arrest you
他们就不能抓你 as long as you're here.
我的公主 不要妄下断论 Princess, don't jump to conclusions.
我不是你的公主 I'm not your princess
不是你的避风港 or your safe haven
也不是你的出路 or your way out.
我以为你 I didn't think you could sink
不会再堕落了 但是恭喜你 any lower than you already were, but congratulations.
你到达了深渊 You found a basement.
你不想听听我做了什么 You don't want to hear what I did?
是肇事逃逸吗 Was it a hit-and-run?
你总是很擅长逃避责任 You were always really great at fleeing from responsibility.
我偷了国务院的机密文件 I stole classified documents from the State Department.
把它们发布到网络上 Published them online.
几个月前新闻上到处都在说这件事 The story was all over the news a few months back.
卡佩罗326泄密 The Capeero-326 Leaks.
我就是卡佩罗326 I'm Capeero-326.
如果你觉得... If you think...
我会相信... that I'm gonna believe...
-真是荒谬至极 -卡 佩 罗 - That is so ridiculous! - Ca- pee-Ro.
代表城堡 山峰 岩石 Castle. Peak. Rock.
3月26日 3/26.
这是你的生日 莎拉 It's your birthday, Sarah.
我在联调局的工作去了世界各处 My work with the Feds took me all over the world.
在那段时间 我看到了国务院的 During that time, I saw a lot of bad behavior
不少恶行 at the State Department.
回扣 贿赂那种类型 Kickbacks, payoffs, that kind of thing.
但去年的一天 金沙萨[扎伊尔首都]大使馆 But then one day last year, the embassy in Kinshasa
由美国承包商建造的那个倒塌了 that was built by U.S. contractors collapses.
没有地震 炸弹 就是突然倒塌了 No earthquake, no bomb-- just poof, collapses.
害死了16人 Kills 16 people,
伤了六十多人 injures another five dozen.
所以我开始四处打探消息 然后发现 So I started digging around, and I find out
国务院有一群官员 there's this group of officials at State
一直在受贿睁一只眼闭一只眼 that have been accepting bribes to look the other way
让承包商用劣质建筑材料 while contractors use shoddy construction materials.
第三世界国家 第三世界伤亡 Third-world countries, third-world casualties.
没人在乎 Nobody bats an eye.
我甚至没有... I didn't even...
说任何话 say anything.
直到我在新闻上看到了你 Until I saw you on the news,
我的小公主改变世界 于是我想 my little princess changing the world, and I thought,
"老天 我也该做正确的事" "Man, I got to do the right thing,"
所以我发布了手里的证据 然后消失了 and-and so I published the proof that I had, and I disappeared.
世界上只有五六个人 There's, like, a half a dozen people on Earth
知道我就是卡佩罗326 现在你是其中之一 that know that I'm Capeero-326, and now you're one of them.
我把自己的性命交给你了 I'm putting my life in your hands.
你决定你想怎么做 You decide what you want to do.
老天 我只想让你相信 Heck, I just wanted you to believe for a minute
也许我的生活不完全是浪费时间 that maybe my life wasn't a total waste.
我以为这段时间你要去看心理医生 I thought you had this time blocked off for your sessions.
我今天不想去 I'm not feeling it today.
人们说心理治疗跟健身房一样 Well, they say therapy is like the gym--
你不想去的日子 the days you don't feel like going
也许是你最需要的时候 are probably the days you need it most.
好吧 我的毛病没法治愈 懂吗 Yeah, maybe what's wrong with me can't be fixed, okay?
好吧 上车 Okay, get in the car.
听着 我不 我没心情 好吗 Look, I'm not... I'm not in the mood, okay?
我今天不想听鼓励的话 Look, I'm not feeling the pep talk today.
我说让你上车 格罗弗 I said get in the car, Grover.
别让我鸣警笛 Don't make me use the siren.
AJ 我们在哪 AJ, where are we?
我们来这干什么 What are we doing here?
玛西娅 Hey, Marcia.
他今天怎么样 How is he today?
你知道的 过得不错 Oh, you know him-- he's getting by.
好的 我给他带了薄荷 All right. Well, I got his peppermints.
还有 我带了他最爱的花 And... I brought his favorite flowers.
他喜欢那些糖 不过你别在假公济私 Oh, he loves those candies, but you need to stop pretending
假装那些花不是给自己买的了 like those flowers aren't just for you.
好吧 听着 反正没别人买给我 Okay, look, nobody else is buying them for me--
我不如宠一下自己 对吧 I might as well spoil myself, okay?
AJ Aj.
来吧 我想让你见一个人 Come on. I want you to meet someone.
爸 Hi, Dad.
他得了原发性CNS血管炎 He has what they call primary CNS vasculitis.
CNS是什么 Uh, CNS?
中枢神经系统 Central Nervous System.
就是同一时间发作一系列中风 It's a bunch of strokes all at one time.
他失去了多数认知性能力 He lost most of his cognitive function...
说话能力 his speech,
运动能力 但是 you know, fine motor stuff, but...
我爸的意识还在某处 ...my dad's still in there somewhere.
好了 来吧 All right, come on.
AJ 你为什么没告诉我们 Hey, AJ, why didn't you tell any of us?
因为你刚才看到他时的表情 Because of the look on your face when you saw him.
-抱歉 我不是 -没事 没事 - Hey, I'm-I'm sorry, I didn't... - Oh, it's okay, it's okay.
第一次总是惊讶 It's always a shock the first time.
但我只想保护他的尊严 But I just want to protect his dignity,
不让他变成马戏团表演 you know, not turn him into a circus act.
每次我来这里 我就... You know, every time I come here, I just...
我会想我爸没机会做的那些事 I think about all the things my dad won't get to do.
他没过上的生活 All the life he isn't living.
但你还有选择 格罗弗 But you still have choices, Grover.
对 我选择不去看心理医生 Yeah, I'm choosing not to go to therapy.
不 你选择不面对自己的悲伤 No, you're choosing to not address your grief.
你选择放弃 You're choosing to give up.
我带你来这里是因为 I brought you here because
我希望看到他 和他过的生活 I was hoping that by seeing him and the life that he has
能激励你开始过你剩下的生活 would kickstart you into living the life that you have left.
如果我们不开始做决定 If we don't start making some decisions,
永远无法使宪法生效 we're never gonna ratify a constitution.
我们不能加快过程 We can't rush the process.
美国宪法花了116天才写完 It took 116 days to write the American Constitution.
对 那时候买一条面包 Yeah, in an era when it took two weeks
都要花两周 现在世界运转变快了 to get a loaf of bread-- the world moves faster now.
我们要跟着一起变快 We have to move faster with it.
对 但这份文件是永久留存的 丹尼 Yeah, this document is forever, Danny.
不意味着需要花那么久撰写 Doesn't mean it should take that long to write it.
我觉得我们需要一个新策略 I think we need a new strategy.
一下子商议所有事项确实压力太大 Looking at this thing all at once is too overwhelming.
我们分成小块商量 一项项生效 Let's break it into smaller pieces and ratify them one by one.
我认为该从公民及移民事项开始 I say we start with citizenship and immigration.
这部分的最新一稿同意 Well, the latest draft of that section allows
在基本背景调查和一周的等待期后 for citizenship after a basic background check
授予申请人公民身份 and a week-long waiting period.
同意的人举手 All in favor?
我就知道你会想通 I knew you'd come around.
显然我是不同意 但无所谓 Well, it's obviously no for me, but it doesn't matter.
你们票数已经够了 You seem to have the votes.
卷毛肯定是你们这边的 Rizzoli over here is on your side.
我不太确定 I'm not so sure.
等等 你什么意思 Wait. What do you mean?
基本的背景调查没问题 The basic background checks are good.
但有些案子 But in some cases,
只会带来更多问题 it really only leads to more questions.
我们需要更多时间好好核查申请人 We need more time to properly vet people.
那就是两票赞成开放边界 两票反对 That's two votes for open borders, two votes against.
意味着 总统女士 决定却在你手中 Which means, Madam President, you're the tiebreaker.
你决定怎么样 小妹 What's it gonna be, sis?
正确的决定很显然 The right decision is so obvious.
我为什么无法下决心 Why can't I make it?
我赞成移民 I vote yes on immigration,
宾夕法尼亚州的人们就能留下 the people from Pennsylvania get to stay.
更重要的是 我们立下了先例 More importantly, we set a precedent
让后代能看到格雷洛克是个... for generations to come that Greylock is a...
欢迎大家的地方 在这里... a welcoming place, that...
新面孔和新想法总能找到安身之处 that new faces and new ideas will always have a home here.
我投否定票 那些都无法发生 I vote no, none of that happens.
我们关闭边界 那些值得 We close our border, and a bunch of people
第二次机会的人就得不到了 who deserve a second chance don't get one.
我是个坏人 I'm a terrible person.
你不是个坏人 You're not a terrible person.
但你爸是 But your dad is.
所以这个决定很困难 That's what makes this so hard.
如果你反对 你可以让他离开 If you vote no, you can send him away
并再也不见他 and never have to see him again.
我不需要 I didn't need, like...
家庭自制煎饼和野营旅行 homemade pancakes and camping trips and...
你懂的 You know.
爸爸做的那些事 我都不知道是什么 Whatever dads do. I don't even know.
我只希望他在身边 I just wanted him around.
现在他来了 Now he's here,
我却只希望他离开 I just wish he would leave.
我希望他能走 I wish he would leave.
我必须投赞成移民 I have to vote yes on immigration.
对 Yep.
那意味着这个自称为我父亲的人 And that means this guy who calls himself
可以随自己喜好待在格雷洛克 my father can stay in Greylock as long as he wants.
对 Yeah.
我们能在这多待一会吗 Can we stay down here a little bit longer?
可以 Oh, yeah.
谢谢 Thank you.
-丹尼 -我去拿外套 - Hey, Danny. - Hey, uh, let me just grab my coat,
然后就能去吃午饭了 and then we can head over for lunch.
我跟莎拉谈过了 I was, uh, talking to Sarah.
她提到了你母亲的事 She mentioned something about your mother,
说你们还小的时候发生了很多不愉快 about something bad having happened when you guys were kids.
她在说什么 What was she talking about?
没什么 It's nothing.
你为什么不告诉我 Why don't you tell me?
你想知道什么 What do you want to know?
她会喝醉 然后变得脾气暴躁 She'd get drunk and then she'd get mean,
然后她就... and then she'd...
变得... get...
打你吗 You?
我应该在你身边保护你 Should've been there to protect you.
你不用为这件事道歉 爸 You're not the one who needs to apologize for that, Dad.
我需要 而且 Yeah, I am, and...
我也会道歉 哪怕她永远不 I will, even if she never does.
你小的时候 When you were a teenager,
生活全是黑暗吗 was it all darkness?
-有任何光明吗 -有 - Was there any light in there? - Yeah,
也有 也有快乐的时光 there were... there were happy times,
即使是在 and, you know what, even...
是在最糟糕的时刻 even on the worst days,
我也不是一个人 所以 I was never totally alone, so...
早上好 各位 Good morning, everyone.
我非常骄傲地宣布 I'm really proud to announce
格雷洛克的第一条宪法生效了 that Greylock has ratified its first constitution.
议会和我非常 The council and I are really...
我们对为我们国家未来打下的基石 we're really proud of the foundation we have laid
感到非常骄傲 for our country's future.
但如果 如果撰写宪法的过程 But if the... if the process of writing this document
教会了我什么 那就是 has taught me anything, it's this:
这是个不完美的过程 it's an imperfect process.
人们会犯错 People make mistakes.
我知道 因为我犯过很多 I know, because I've made plenty,
我确定以后我还会犯很多 我们都会 and I'm sure I will make plenty more. We all will.
《格雷洛克宪法》
所以 在议会最后投票前 So, before the council took its final vote,
我们在宪法加了最后一条 we added one last clause to our constitution
为弥补那些错误 to account for those mistakes,
为弥补我们只是凡人 to account for the fact that we're human.
每五年 我们的宪法 Every five years, our constitution...
必须要从头写过 must be rewritten from scratch,
好让我们不被过去的错误枷锁拴着 so that we aren't chained to the mistakes of our past
或被完美的重担压倒 or crushed by the burden of perfection.
随着格雷洛克人民的成长和进步 As Greylock's people grow and evolve...
格雷洛克也会 so will Greylock.
你今天感觉如何 How are you feeling today?
我知道你不擅长打开心扉 格罗弗 I know you're having a hard time opening up, Grover.
那也没关系 And that's okay.
不如我先来说说 Why don't I do a little bit of talking,
看是否能激发你的交谈欲望 and we'll see if that inspires you to do the same?
好了 So...
我是艾德娜 I'm Edna.
我出生及成长于马萨诸塞州罗克斯伯里 I was born and raised in Roxbury, Massachusetts.
我母亲是个女裁缝 我父亲是个... My mother was a seamstress, my father was...
混蛋 an ass.
我做心理医生已经有40年 And I've been a therapist for 40 years.
你是格罗弗·西姆斯 You're Grover Sims.
25岁 You're 25 years old.
你出生成长于新罕布什尔州格雷洛克 You were raised in Greylock, New Hampshire,
你来这是因为 and you're here because...
因为你妻子去世了 Because your wife died.
这感觉就像胸口放了铁砧 对吧 It feels like there's an anvil on your chest, doesn't it?
当我的亨利去世时 When my Henry passed,
我一个月没离开家 I didn't leave the house for a month.
你是寡妇吗 You're a widow?
两次了 Twice.
史蒂文死于97年 Steven died in '97.
睡梦中心脏病突发 Heart attack in his sleep.
我们都该这么幸运 We should all be so lucky.
亨利是去年才走的 And Henry went just last year.
胰腺癌 Pancreatic cancer.
前一天还在 后一天就走了 Here one day, gone the next.
当你失去 When you lose...
你爱的人 someone you love...
你 你怎么 ...how... how do you, uh...?
-早上起床吗 -对 - Get up in the morning? - Yeah.
这不简单 It's not easy.
你只能提醒自己 你还在呼吸 You just have to remind yourself that you're still breathing.
然后你得允许自己 And then you have to give yourself permission
继续呼吸 to keep breathing.
最后一步很难 That last one's the tricky part.
我不知道你是什么情况 I-I don't know how it's been for you,
但对我来说 but for me,
让我最无力的不是悲伤 it was never the grief that got to me.
-而是... -内疚 - It was always, uh... - The guilt.
你 你会为活着感到内疚 就在... You, uh... you feel guilty for still being here after...
在他们离开后 after they've gone.
继续生活的...内疚 And guilty for... for moving on.
即使是想着继续生活 Even thinking about moving on.
你感到内疚多长时间了 How long have you felt that guilt?
从最开始就有 Right from the start.
从佩欣丝生病后 Right when Patience first got sick.
佩欣丝 Patience.
很好听的名字 That's a lovely name.
我记得 I remember when, um...
当肿瘤医生告诉我们坏消息时 ...when the oncologist came to give us the bad news...
我恳求上天给我们 ...just pleading for the universe to give us, uh...
更多时间 more time.
或把癌症给我 Or just give me the cancer instead.
让我生病 懂吗 Just make me sick, you know?
甜心派餐厅
不敢相信这都是泰勒布置的 Can't believe Tyler did all this.
-很不错 对吧 -我很骄傲 - They're good, right? - I'm so proud.
我知道 Oh, I know.
这是你的拒绝信 对吧 It's your rejections letter, huh?
整个布展都很酷 This whole thing is so dope.
-谢谢 -你怎么找到这些人的 - Thanks. - How did you find all of these people?
大部分是社交网络 Social media, mostly.
我邀请了所有 Uh, I just invited anyone
被艺展拒绝过作品的艺人 who got their art rejected from the art show.
说他们可以在这里展出 Told them they could show it here.
你觉得如何 So, uh, what do you think?
我觉得这很准确 I think it's accurate.
我们最后会变成僵尸吗 That we all become zombies?
我们都是过去的受害者 We all become victims of our past.
你做得对 投了移民的赞成票 You made the right choice voting "Yes" on immigration,
让爸爸留下 letting Dad stay.
我不是为了他 I didn't do it for him.
你不能永远生他的气 莎拉 You can't stay mad at him forever, Sarah.
你应该给他点时间 重新争取你的信任 You should give him some time to earn your trust back.
我会的 I will.
真的吗 Really?
对 他想要时间 我就给他时间 Yeah. He wants time, he can have it.
18年 18 years.
我就等了这么久 That's how long I had to wait.
他为什么不能 Why shouldn't he?
但在那之前 他可以离我远远的 But until then, he can stay the hell away from me.
听着 哥们 Listen, dude,
我很抱歉我做的事 I'm really sorry about what I did.
我不应该背着你提交你的作品 I should have never submitted your work without asking.
抱歉我朝你发火了 I'm sorry I blew up at you.
你为什么这么紧张 不敢给别人看你的照片 Why were you so nervous about showing people your photos?
你帮我宣传竞选 你组织了我们的边界示威 I mean, you ran my campaign, you organized our border protest.
你超级厉害 You're a total badass.
我不明白给人看照片 I don't get what's so scary
这有什么可怕的 about showing a couple of pictures.
竞选和那些...示威游行 With the campaign and with those... protests,
我人在暗处 you know, I'm-I'm in the shadows.
我是幕后的幕后人 I'm, like, the guy behind the guy.
但这个 我就是... And with this, I just...
你就是主角 You're the guy.
我感觉大家会一直... I feel like everyone's just always...
看着我 对我评头论足 looking at me and judging me.
而这些照片 至少在今天之前 And with the photos, at least until now,
这是唯一我能保持神圣的东西 I always had one thing that I kept sacred.
-能再来点吗 -好 - Can I get some more? - Yeah.
谢谢 Thanks.
外面的风暴越来越强了 Yeah, storm's getting bad out there.
对吧 天气预报说会很严重 Yeah? Weather reports say it's gonna be a real doozy.
他们在把今年和78年的暴风雪相比了 They're comparing it to the blizzard of '78.
这地方看起来好棒 泰 This place looks great, Ty.
谢谢 Thanks.
抱歉我迟到了 我去看心理医生了 Oh, sorry I'm late. I had therapy,
然后回来时因为大雪前进地很慢 and that snow slowed me down on the way back.
没问题 It's not a problem.
只要你能让大家继续喝酒 Um, as long as you can keep everybody drinking.
我去烤箱里拿曲奇 可能烤焦了 Got some cookies in the oven. They might be burning.
-嗯 -我看到了 - Right. - I saw that.
你看到什么了 You saw what?
你对去看心理医生的事实话实说 You being honest about going to therapy.
这没什么好丢人的 对吧 It's nothing to be ashamed of, right?
没错 Right.
我 我还没谢谢你 You know, I, uh... I never got to thank you
让我见到你爸 for letting me meet your dad.
我很希望下次你去看他时跟你一起去 And I'd like to come with you next time you go and see him.
总得有人喂他吃那些薄荷糖 I mean, somebody's got to help him eat all those peppermints.
谢谢 格罗弗 Thanks, Grover.
好 我也希望如此 Yeah. Yeah, I'd like that.
你还有什么想知道的 All right, what else you want to know?
格雷洛克
丹尼 Danny.
你 你来这干什么 What are... uh, what are you doing here?
曲奇 Cookies.
-什么 -棕黄油巧克力碎曲奇 微微烤焦 - What? - Brown butter chocolate chip, slightly burnt.
-好吧 -我去甜心派餐厅找你 - Okay. - I went to Sweetie Pie to find you, and, um,
我听到格罗弗说你要来这里 I overheard Grover say that you came here
还一些艺展的装饰品 to return some decorations from the art show.
地下室的沙发垫堡 Couch cushion forts in the basement,
在红袜队比赛间隔之间亲热 making out between innings of Red Sox games.
石头果园干草捆后的幽会 Hooking up behind the hay bales at Stone Orchard.
在山麓四号偷偷溜去看电影 Sneaking into movies at the Foothill Four.
你 你帮我补习英语 You-you helping me with-with English.
在我拉伤内侧副韧带后 你帮我复健 You-you helping me rehab my knee after I tore my MCL.
你帮我 把玻璃渣从手臂里取出来 You helping me... pull glass out of my arm.
你 You...
拿着冰袋帮我敷眼睛 holding frozen peas on my eye.
你...抱着我 You... holding me.
你有权知道 You deserve to know
我为什么离开 why I left.
我离开格雷洛克的那晚 我跟我妈吵架了 The night I left Greylock, I got into a fight with my mom.
最 The...
最糟的一次 worst... we'd ever had.
她... She was, um...
她在打我巴掌 并爆粗口骂我 She was slapping me and-and calling me names.
然后 And...
我人生中第一次 And for the first time in my life,
我举起拳头打她 I raised my fist to hit her back.
就在我准备 But before I could
下拳前 我阻止了自己 take a swing, I-I caught myself.
我看到... I-I saw...
我的影子倒映在窗户上 在她的肩膀上 my reflection in the window over her shoulder.
我看到自己准备打她 I-I saw myself ready to hit her.
准备好又打又踢 而且 Ready to punch and kick and...
那时候我意识到 That's when I realized
我妈身体里的暴力 也流淌在我身体里 that the violence that was in my mom was also in me.
所以我... So, I-I...
我当晚就收拾了东西 离开了家 我... I-I packed my bag and left that night. I...
我没打过电话因为我知道 如果我打了 I never called because I knew that if I did,
你会说服我 让你跟我一起走 而我... you'd convince me to let you come with me, and I...
我不能允许那种事 I couldn't let that happen.
我 我必须 我必须保护你不受我的伤害 I-I-I... I had to... I had to protect you from me.
抱歉我伤害了你 I'm sorry that I hurt you.
你要知道我这么做是为了保证你的安全 Just know I only did it to keep you safe,
就像你一直保证我的安全 just like you had always kept me safe.