THE DISSIDENTS - 19
翻译：阿箫 | 校对：Stout
Restored and digitized with the support of the Technical means
This film was restored by in conjunction with La Cinémathèque française
backed by the Franco-American cultural fund
影片大致改编自一本有争议的书
Loosely based on a controversial book
即狄德罗所著同名小说
by Diderot with the same title,
这部影片完全是虚构创作
this film is a work of imagination.
它无意声称自己描绘了宗教机构的真实样貌
It does not claim to paint a true picture of religious institutions,
甚至也不是十八世纪的宗教机构
even in the 18th century.
观众会将自身置于历史与虚构的双重视角
The audience will themselves place it in that double fictional and historical perspective
并拒绝任何草率、不公以及站不住脚的概括
and refuse any hasty, unfair and of course indefensible generalisations.
1760年
1760.
丹尼斯·狄德罗当时47岁
Denis Diderot was 47 years old.
这位《百科全书》的编者只用几周时间就完成了《女教徒》的写作
The editor of the Encyclopédie wrote La Religieuse in just a few weeks.
在18世纪 女修道院的生活通常只保持着
In the 18th century, convent life often retained
真正宗教生活的表象
only the outer signs of a truly religious life.
为了换取住宿费用
In exchange for a boarding fee, many bourgeois and aristocrats
许多资产阶级和贵族把他们的女儿关在修道院里 直到出嫁
shut their girls up in convents until they wed.
寡妇和未出嫁女性通常会待到死去
Widows and single women would often retire there.
修道院以类似现在公证活动的方式被收购
Abbeys were bought as notarial practices are today.
他们管那叫 生计
They call that a "living".
监管者大多数因为出身高贵被选中
Superiors were mostly chosen for their noble birth.
20岁或者更年轻的女修道院院长有时掌管一个大家庭
Very young abbesses
- 20, or even younger - were sometimes in charge of large households.
在许多修道院里
In many convents,
招待会和演出非常频繁
receptions and shows were frequent.
修女的规矩却放得很宽
Rules were loosened
或者说在接触世俗生活的过程中失去意义
or lost meaning through contact with that worldly life.
狄德罗从真实人物身上汲取小说的灵感
Diderot took inspiration from real characters for his novel:
奥尔良的路易丝·阿德莱德 摄政王菲利普的女儿
Louise Adelaide of Orleans, daughter of Philippe the Regent,
在1719年获得了切尔斯修道院院长的职位
who acquired the title of Abbess of Chelles in 1719,
是圣尤特鲁修道院院长的形象来源
served as a model for the Mother Superior of Saint Eutrope.
至于修女苏珊娜·西蒙宁 原型为玛格丽特·德拉马尔
As for Suzanne Simonin, the nun, she is the image of Marguerite Delamarre
父亲为积累财富，将三岁的她送到了修道院
sent to a convent at the age of three to increase her father's fortune.
1752年 她为反对强制命令提出上诉
Having appealed against her forced orders in 1752,
她输掉了官司
she lost her case and remained cloistered until her death
在狄德罗故事里所说的朗尚修道院一直待到死去
in the Abbey of Longchamp which is in Diderot's story.
当然 《女教徒》就像博须埃所评价的一样
And surely La Religieuse is like the comment on these words by Bossuet:
“不要贸然进入如此崇高的使命
"Do not enter rashly into such a high calling.
以及如果你没有对俗世感到极度厌恶
"And if you don't feel extreme disgust with the world,
姐妹 离开围场”
"sister, leave that enclosure."
培养女孩需要花钱
Setting the girl up would cost money:
这就足够成为把她献给宗教的理由
that is reason enough to devote her to religion.
她没有表现出任何使命感
She shows no sign of a calling:
形势所迫 不可避免 这些理由就已足够
the opportunities given by the situation
and necessity will have to suffice.
我们把受害者带到圣殿
We lead the victim to the Temple;
我们把她介绍给神父
we present her to the Priest
她成了一个牺牲品
and she becomes a sacrifice which,
非但没能赞美和取悦上帝
far from glorifying God and pleasing Him,
反而成为他的眼中之钉
becomes execrable in His eyes
由此激起他的复仇之心
and excites his vengeance...
乔治·德·博勒加德 出品
Georges de Beauregard introduces
丹尼斯·狄德罗 《女教徒》
Denis Diderot's La Religieuse
玛丽- 苏珊娜·西蒙宁 你能保证说实话吗
Marie-Suzanne Simonin, do you promise to speak the truth?
我保证
I promise.
你是自愿来这里的吗
Are you here of your own free will?
是的
Yes.
玛丽-苏珊娜·西蒙宁
Marie-Suzanne Simonin,
你是否向上帝许诺忠贞 贫穷和服从
do you promise poverty, chastity and obedience to God?
不 先生
No, Monsieur.
玛丽-苏珊娜·西蒙宁
Marie-Suzanne Simonin,
你是否向上帝许诺忠贞 贫穷和服从
do you promise God poverty, chastity and obedience?
不 先生 我做不到
No, Monsieur, no.
孩子 听我说
My child, listen to me.
大人 您问我是否愿意向上帝许下
My Lord, you ask me if I promise God
忠贞 贫穷和服从的承诺
chastity, poverty and obedience.
我听见了 我的回答是不
I heard you. My answer is no.
女士们 先生们 尤其是您们二位 我的父母
Ladies and gentlemen, and especially you, my parents,
你们可以作证
you are my witnesses.
我是被胁迫至此
I am here under duress.
我假装遵从父母的意愿
I pretended to go along with my parents' will,
为的就是公开反抗施加在我身上的暴力行径
in order to protest publicly against the violence done to me.
我并无圣召 也不想再对父母言听计从
I have no vocation. I do not wish to obey my parents.
亲爱的父亲母亲 你们想让我做什么都可以 任何事都可以...
Dear parents, do whatever you will with me, anything...
但是别让我进修道院
except a nun!
我不想当修女！我也不会当修女！
I don't want to be one and I won't!
我不！我不！
No! No!
我还是你的孩子
I am still your child.
放手 苏珊娜
Let go, Suzanne.
放手
Let go.
你哭了
You weep
但你表现得忘恩负义
but you behave ungratefully.
你知道我们损失多大
You know what we have lost.
你的姐妹身陷麻烦
Your sisters are in trouble;
把她们嫁出去花了我们太多的钱
marrying them off ruined us.
你父亲是位好律师 但他也不是银行家
Your father is a good lawyer, but not a banker.
我们不能给你一份体面的嫁妆
We cannot give you a decent dowry.
你把头巾摘下来了
You took the veil;
不进修道院的话要花更多钱
you entering the convent was more expense.
所有人都听到了你信仰宣言
Everyone heard about your profession of faith.
你公开反抗的事已经成了件丑闻
Your public refusal caused a scandal.
怎么了？
Well?
怎么不说话？
Nothing to say?
你要对我做什么
What will you do with me?
跟我来
Follow me.
神父 你听我们忏悔已有二十年
Father, you have been our confessor for 20 years.
请跟她谈谈吧
Please talk to her.
我从来不把人们带入宗教
I have never taken people into religion.
只有你能说服她
Only you can convince her.
上帝召唤我们来到这个国家
God calls us to this state;
在他的声音里掺杂我们的声音是很危险的
it is dangerous to add our voices to His.
你找到判决了吗
Have you found the judgement?
还在找
I am looking.
苏珊娜在房间里关了三个月
For three months, Suzanne has been shut in her room.
她知道没有回转的余地
She knows there is no hope.
我受够了
I'll be done with this.
我今天能见一见母亲吗
Will I see my mother today?
我能跟父亲说说话吗
Can I ask to speak to my father?
或者至少我能给他们写信吗
May I at least write to them?
你知道 不可以
You know you cannot.
今天是什么日子
What day is it?
这个月的第二个星期一
Second Monday of the month.
直说吧
Let's be frank.
我现在一无所有
I gave everything for this one.
也做不了别的事情
I do not see what I can do now for the other.
她必须反省自己
She must reflect.
我还能拿那个女孩怎么办呢
What can I do with that girl?
她没法独立生存
She cannot work with her hands.
她在世上还有什么自由可言呢
What freedom would she have in the world?
比身处宗教还不如
Even less than in religion.
你知道现在的世道对于身无分文的未婚女子来说意味着什么
You know what happens today to unmarried and penniless girls.
- 养老院 - 监狱 收容所
- A hospice. - Or prison, or an asylum.
我只是请求你去看看她 你知道的
I am only asking you to see her, you know.
我会跟她谈谈的
I shall speak to her.
过来 孩子
Come here, my child.
别害怕 敞开心扉
Do not be afraid to open your heart.
过来吧
Come here.
我没什么可说的
I have nothing to say.
我入教时年纪已经不小了
I took orders late in life.
我能理解你
I might understand you.
我妈妈恨我
My mother hates me.
孩子 不要责怪你的母亲 要怜惜她
My child, pity your mother more than you blame her.
她有一颗善心
She is a good soul.
- 违背她…… - 谁强迫她了
- It is against her... - Who is forcing her?
是她把我带到这个世界上来的
She brought me into the world.
为什么就我和其他姐妹不一样
Why am I different from my sisters?
- 你的确不一样 - 什么意思
- You are. - What do you mean?
来吧 试着接受你的命运
Come on. Try to be patient about your fate.
坐下来
Sit down.
让我们静坐一会儿
Let us be silent for a moment.
不 不 神父 我无法祈祷
No. No, Father. I cannot pray any more.
- 我尝试过很多次 但是... - 孩子
- I have tried and tried, but... - My child.
我比其他姐妹更漂亮
I was prettier than my sisters.
这让我的父母感到忧虑
It distressed my parents.
我才15岁不到
I was nearly 15.
一个年轻人正在向我姐姐求爱
A young man was courting my sister.
我意识到他喜欢的是我
I realised he liked me.
我跟母亲提了这件事
I warned my mother.
四天之后 我就被送到了修道院
Four days later, I was sent to the convent.
我在这里待了两年 直到我宣誓信仰
I stayed there for two years, until my profession of faith.
他们说我的父亲和母亲都是正派人士
They say my mother and father are decent people.
人们喜爱他们 尊重他们
People like them, respect them.
那么 为什么 对待我就……
So why, for me...?
小女儿
Daughter,
我想你需要知道些事情
I see there are things you need to be told.
有很长一段时间 我都催促你的母亲
For a long time, I urged your mother
让她告诉你这个秘密 但她始终没说
to tell you the secret; she never resolved to.
你知道她是哪种人
You know how she is.
她相信自己可以说服你 但是 她错了
She believed she could convince you anyway; she was wrong.
她让我告诉你
She asked me to tell you
你不是西蒙先生的亲生女儿
that you are not Mr Simonin's daughter.
我想不是的
I thought not.
既然这样的话 小姐
Given that, Miss,
你怎么能像他们的亲生女儿一样
how can you have the same place
享受同等对待
as children who are not your sisters?
如果你的母亲能向你的父亲承认……
If she can confess to your father...
那谁是我真正的父亲？
Who is my father?
那我就不知道了
That, I have not been told.
你的姐妹们被优待
Your sisters have been greatly favoured.
而你被剥夺一切
Everything was done to reduce your fortune to nothing.
如果再失去父母 你拥有的就更少了
If you lose your parents, you will no longer be much.
你排斥修道院
You reject the convent.
或许你会为不在修道院而后悔
Maybe you will regret not being there.
我别无所求
I ask for nothing.
该说的我都说了
I have said what I had to say.
现在请你自己慎重考虑该如何抉择
Now it is up to you to think it over and decide.
神父……
Father...
我想再问一个问题
One more question.
- 我的姐妹们知道这件事吗？ - 不 她们不知道
- Do my sisters know this? - No, they do not.
她们还是分走了我的一切？
And they took everything from their sister?
那就是她们如何对待我的
That is who they think I am.
我不建议你指望依靠她们
I do not advise you to count on them.
她们得养孩子 这是个很实诚的借口
They have children, that will be an honest pretext
就这样逼得你乞讨
to reduce you to begging.
供养你也是很难的
And the bread you are given is hard.
如果你听我的
If you will hear me,
和父母搞好关系吧
make your peace with your parents.
就像你母亲所期望的那样
Do what your mother expects of you
进修道院
and enter into religion.
你会有一份微薄的津贴
You will have a small allowance.
就算过得不开心 至少你还能养活自己
Your days will be, if not happy, at least bearable.
去吧 孩子 你既聪明又善良
Go along, my child. You are sensible and good.
仔细想想吧
Think carefully about it.
你的母亲会来跟你谈谈
Your mother will speak to you.
坐吧
Be seated.
你父亲不在 说要紧事
Your father is away; say what you have to.
你见过塞拉芬神父了
You saw Father Seraphin.
现在知道自己是什么身份了吧
You now know who you are
也知道你能从我这里得到什么
and what you can expect of me.
所以 苏珊娜……
So, Suzanne...
你怎么决定的
What is your decision?
母亲 我知道我什么也没有
Mother, I know I have nothing
什么也不能奢求
and can claim nothing.
我知道我的身份了
I know who I am.
但您还是我的母亲 我恳求您不要忘记这一点
But you are my mother. I beg you, do not forget that.
但愿我能记得
I wish I could.
我的女儿
My daughter.
别再妨碍我的生活了
Do not poison my life any further.
我的热情已经消耗殆尽
My passion has burnt out.
是良心还在苦苦支撑
Conscience has reasserted itself.
但是那个给我生命的男人呢
But the man I owe my life to...?
他死了
He is dead,
把你忘得一干二净
without remembering you.
他给我带来的悲痛足以害死你 也同样害死我
The grief he caused me could have killed you - and me.
上帝并不想这样
God did not want that.
女儿 你现在一无所有 往后也是如此
Daughter, you have nothing. You never will.
我能给的那点东西 都是从你的姐妹那里拿的
What little I can do is stolen from your sisters.
我把珠宝卖了 我也不赌钱了
I sold my jewellery. I liked to gamble; I stopped.
我喜欢的演出也不看了
I liked shows and I went without.
喜欢的奢侈品也不买了
I liked luxury and gave it up.
如果你按照我和西蒙宁先生的意愿做一名修女
If you become a nun as I wish, and Mr Simonin too,
我就能省下你的嫁妆
I will have earned your dowry by saving.
但是 母亲
But Mother,
不少人还是会来这里
a few people still come here...
说不定会有人中意我
Maybe someone could be content with me.
别指望了 你出的洋相已经把你毁了
You must forget that. The scandal has ruined you.
但是如果我没有结婚 也必须把自己关在修道院里面吗
But if I do not find a husband, must I shut myself up in a convent?
难道我要一直悔恨下去吗
Must my remorse never end?
不管怎样 你都是我的女儿
You are my daughter in spite of me.
你的姐妹们会为我送终 我不必看到你和她们待在一起吧
Your sisters will be at my deathbed; must I see you with them?
在我去见上帝之前 我想说
When I appear before God, let me say
我试图为我的过错赎罪 你也不会搅乱这个家
I have tried to atone for my misdeed and you will not upset this house
- 只要你宣誓…… - 母亲
- by claiming... - Mother!
你想让我带着什么死去
What do you want me to take when I die?
我要告诉你父亲 告诉他什么
I would have to tell your father... Tell him what?
告诉他你不是他亲生的吗
You are not his daughter?
如果跪在你面前有用的话……
If throwing myself at your feet would help...
但是你无动于衷
But you have no feelings.
你拥有你父亲那般不屈的灵魂
You have your father's unyielding soul!
走吧
Leave.
我们不想看到她
We do not wish to see her.
上帝啊 为我指路吧
God, light my way.
请赐予我力量
Give me Your strength.
你妈妈再也不会见你
Your mother has promised not to see you
但是你可以给她留言 给
but you can write to her. Here.
母亲 请原谅我
Mother, please forgive me.
尽情吩咐我
Order me what you will.
如果你想让我皈依宗教
If you wish me to enter into religion,
我希望这也是上帝的旨意
I would like that to be God's will too.
苏珊娜 你能认出这份便条吗
Suzanne, do you recognise this note?
能 先生
Yes, Sir.
- 是你自己写的吗 - 是的
- Did you write it freely? - Yes.
你下定决心了吗
Is your mind made up?
我决定了
It is.
你有哪个想去的修道院吗
Do you prefer a particular convent?
没有 对我来说都一样
No. I make no difference between them.
那好办
That will do.
我承认对接收这位女士抱有疑虑
I confess I have qualms about taking a lady
她并没有明确的神召
without a clear vocation.
我相信你也听过不少类似的话
I believe I am not the first to say so to you.
是的 院长
That is true, Mother.
但请您相信那只是因为她脾气不好
But please believe it was bad temper
并且苏珊娜从那之后就开始忏悔
and Suzanne has since repented.
我们初来乍到的小姐是怎么想的
What does our mistress of novices think?
丑闻就是丑闻
A scandal is a scandal.
我们这里可不能容忍
We could not tolerate such a thing here.
不会再发生这种事情了
It will not happen again.
在你们这样有名的修道院里
And her talents, in such a renowned house as yours,
她的才能也许可以为一些幼稚举动开脱
might excuse some childishness.
她在音乐方面有些才能 嗓音也还不错
She is a good musician and has a pretty voice;
你们还会收到嫁妆
and the dowry your community would receive...
那么 圣约翰修女
As for that, Sister Saint-Jean...
- 一千克朗 - 给出了她的意见
- A thousand crowns... - ...has given her opinion.
圣克莉丝汀修女 我可以说几句吗
Sister Sainte-Christine, may I reply?
丑闻吓不到我
Scandal does not frighten me.
我们接下来可能会受到叛逆的挑战
Our role here below is maybe to take on rebellious spirits
要教她们接受我们身上的戒律
and teach them to accept the laws imposed upon us.
那个孩子非常倔强
The child is a difficult soul,
我们必须尽力关照
and those are the ones we must take the best care of.
我收下你的女儿了
I accept your daughter here.
- 院长… - 别再说了
- Mother... - Please say no more.
我建议让你女儿写封信给我们院长
I advise you to tell your daughter to write to our dear Mother
感谢她如此慷慨地接收了你的女儿
and thank her for graciously accepting her in our house.
这是您新来的女儿
Here is your new daughter.
你有些任性 又初来乍到
You have been postulant and novice;
应该知道我们修道院的规矩
you know our convents' rules.
我们的规矩和其他修道院相似 但是都要严格遵守
Ours are much the same, but we apply them strictly.
我会教你的 你很快就会知道 绝不会忘
I will teach you; you will soon know them and not forget.
你懂音乐吗
But you know music?
你妈妈跟我们说你会唱歌
Your mother told us you sing.
我们有一把大键琴
We have a harpsichord.
如果你想的话 我们可以去会客室
If you wish, we can go to the parlour.
来吧 拿定主意
Come along, make up your mind.
我该唱什么
What must I sing?
想到什么就唱什么
Whatever comes to mind.
这个呢
This?
悲伤已经到来 火把颜色苍白
Sad preparations Pale torches
白日的可怖胜过夜间
Day more frightful than the night
坟墓上凄凉的星
Lugubrious stars of tombs
坟墓上凄凉的星
Lugubrious stars of tombs
不 除了你葬礼的灯光 我什么都看不见
No, I shall not see anything But your funereal lights
不 不
No, no
太棒了
Perfect!
苏珊娜 你唱得真好
Suzanne, you sing wonderfully.
女士 我很欣赏她
Madame, my compliments.
再见 女儿 别再给我带来任何痛苦
Adieu, daughter. Do not cause me any more suffering.
- 孩子 你怎么样 - 院长 我很听话
- How are you, my child? - Mother, I am resigned.
没有其他感受吗
Do you feel nothing more?
说实话 没有了 院长
To tell you the truth, nothing, Mother.
苏珊娜 我听过你的事情 我怜悯你的遭遇
Suzanne, I know your story. I pity you.
我明白你内心的折磨
I can understand your torments.
我和你一样 担心你的神召
I share your fears about your vocation.
我比你更能感觉到
I feel it even more cruelly than you.
但让我试着给你勇气
But let me try to give you courage.
- 你爱上帝吗 难道不爱 - 我全心全意地爱着他
- You love God, do you not? - With all my soul.
你甚至意识不到 长眠也会到来
The rest will come as well, without you even realising.
我们的上帝藏起来了
Our God is hidden.
他偷偷靠近我们
He comes to us like a thief
并不宣告他的在场
without announcing His presence.
如果我不是一个修女该怎么办
What if I am not made to be a nun?
每种状况不都很棘手吗
Is not every state thorny?
我们只能感受自己的状况
We only feel our own.
然后等待上帝的恩典自行显现
Let grace do its work.
清除你的杂念吧
Give up your thoughts.
即使是最简单的 最自然的念头
Even the simplest and most natural.
蒙上双眼 放逐意志
Blind yourself; deprive yourself of will
让天性在你身上消亡
and let nature die in you.
只有当上帝愿意显现自身意志的时候 你才能去寻找上帝
Accept only seeing God when He wishes to show Himself.
过来些 我的孩子
Come, my child.
让我们跪下祈祷
Let us kneel and pray.
我们在天国的神父
Our Father Who art in Heaven,
愿人都尊父的名为圣
Hallowed be Thy name.
愿你的国降临
Thy kingdom come,
旨愿你的旨意行在地上 如同行在天上
Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.
- 今日赐给我们… - 我们日用的饮食
- Give us this day... - ...our daily bread,
免我们的债
and forgive us our trespasses
如同我们免了人的债
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
不叫我们遇见试探
Lead us not into temptation,
救我们脱离凶恶
but deliver us from evil.
阿门
Amen.
救我们脱离凶恶
But deliver us from evil.
阿门
Amen.
恢复你的信仰 我的灵魂
Revive your trust, oh my soul
你在上帝面前 基督是你的伴侣
You are in the presence of God, Christ your spouse,
上帝啊
Jesus...
为你的爱而成为人
He who became man for your love
为了救你而死在十字架上
and died on the Cross to save you.
现在他留在这里听你说话
And now he remains here to listen to you,
赐予您的恩典
grant you His grace...
跟他说话
Speak to Him.
告诉他
Tell Him that...
告诉他
Tell Him...
我不知道发生了什么
I do not know what is happening.
当你来的时候
It seems that when you come
上帝走了
God goes away
他的灵魂是静默的
and His spirit is silent.
我是一个普通又心胸狭窄的女人
I am an ordinary, narrow-minded woman.
我不敢说话
I fear to speak.
亲爱的院长 也许这是一个征兆
Dear Mother, maybe it is a sign.
也许上帝让你哑口无言
Maybe God strikes you dumb.
院长 社会认可我们神职人员的职业
Mother, the community approves our postulant's profession.
圣苏珊娜修女
Sister Sainte-Suzanne.
耶和华是我的牧者
The Lord is my shepherd,
我必不致缺乏
I shall not want...
他使我躺卧在青草地上
He makes me down to lie in pastures green.
领我在可安歇的水边
He leadeth me the quiet waters by.
苏珊娜 怎么了
Suzanne, what is it?
你看到院长了吗
Have you seen our Mother?
我想她有点累了 应该是在花园休息
I think she is tired, and in the garden.
院长……
Mother...
- 怎么了 - 院长 帮帮我
- What is it? - Mother, help me.
我也想帮上忙
I would like help too.
是关于明天的信仰宣言吗
For tomorrow?
你知道的 院长
You know, Mother.
而你还没下定决心 同时感到从未有过的无助
And you are undecided, more helpless than ever?
我不知道自己是否有能力履行我的誓言
I do not know if I will have the strength to take my vow.
你可以的
You will.
我不会告诉你俗世的危险
I shall not tell you of the world's dangers
此前遇到这种情况我都会那样做
as is usual at such times.
你知道我非常喜爱你
You know I love you dearly.
他们说我对你偏爱有加 我不能否认
They say a favourite; I cannot deny it.
你总是尽职尽责 做一个好修女
You have always done your duty like a good nun;
为什么会对未来感到害怕呢
why fear the future?
因为不跟你在一起 院长
Not with you, Mother.
但是我不想离开
But I do not want to leave.
我的孩子
My child,
你的工作 你的悲伤 你的生命 这一切都属于上帝
your work, your sorrows, your life: all that belongs to God.
他存在并爱着我们 引导我们
He only exists and loves us, and guides us:
我们都由他掌管
we are in His hand.
苏珊娜 上帝掌管着你
Suzanne, God's hand is upon you.
保护着你
It keeps you.
它会让你不顾一切地为伴侣奉献
It leads you in spite of yourself to your holy spouse.
直到永恒极乐
To joy with no end.
直到安息
To rest...
亲爱的孩子 你对我做了什么
Dear child, what have you done to me?
愿上帝亲自与你交谈 因为他不会借我之口发声
May God speak to you Himself, since He will not with my mouth.
事实上 我累了
The truth is, I am tired.
我请求上帝不要看到这一天
I asked God not to see this day
但那不是他的旨意
but that is not His will.
你将会再次被要求向他许诺
For the second time, you will be asked
许诺他忠贞 贫穷与服从
to promise Him chastity, poverty and obedience.
我会跟你的母亲交谈 为你整夜祈祷
I shall speak to your mother and spend the night in prayer.
但是现在你该休息了 这是命令
But lie down: that is an order.
让我跟你一同祈祷
Allow me to pray with you.
你可以在九点到十一点祈祷
You may from 9 till 11,
再晚就不行了
no more.
那就留我一人祈祷 你去休息吧
Then you will leave me to pray alone, and rest.
去睡觉吧 苏珊娜
Go and sleep, Suzanne:
这是我的愿望
that is my will.
- 万福玛利亚 - 上帝保佑
- Ave Maria. - Deo gratias.
可怜我吧 我的主 可怜我吧
Have pity on me, my Lord, have pity on me.
我的心只向往您
My heart yearns only for You.
这是我对全能的神的请求
This is my appeal to the almighty.
上帝让我充满了爱
God that filled me with love.
他从天国送来他的慈悲和真理
He sent from Heaven His mercy and His Truth.
他把我从痛苦和绝望中拯救出来
He saved me from misery and despair.
上帝啊 如果您抛弃我是为了惩罚我
God, if You left me in order to punish me,
那就照您的意愿吧
so be it.
我不要求您归还带走的才能
I do not ask You to restore the gift you took away
但是请帮帮那个睡着的孩子
but please help that sleeping child.
跟她谈谈 跟她的父母谈谈
Talk to her; talk to her parents.
请原谅我
And forgive me.
你睡得早吗
Did you go to bed early?
按照你说的时间睡下的
When you ordered me to.
- 你睡着了吗 - 睡得很深
- Have you slept? - Deeply.
我就知道
I thought you would.
感觉怎么样
How do you feel?
还不错
Well.
你呢 亲爱的院长
And you, dear Mother?
我没见过有人能毫不畏惧地宣誓
I have seen no one take their vows with no fear,
但我从未感到如此烦恼
but for none have I felt so troubled.
我希望你能开心
I would like you to be happy.
如果你想继续保持与我的友谊 我非常愿意
If you let me keep your friendship, I will be.
如果这就是所有…
If that was all...
- 晚上你没有心事吗？ - 没有
- Did you have no thoughts in the night? - No.
- 你没有做梦吗？ - 没有
- Did you not have any dreams? - None.
你的内心怎么了
What is happening in your soul?
没事
Nothing.
我听从命运的安排
I obey my fate.
我与自己和解
I am letting myself go.
我连哭的力气都没有
I have no strength even to weep.
他们想这样 我不得不这样 只能想到这些
They want it, I have to, is all I can think.
你为何沉默
You are not speaking.
我来这里不是为了说些什么 只是想看看你
I came here not for that but to see you.
我必须保持沉默 我了解我自己
I must be silent; I know myself.
再休息一会儿吧 待会儿见
Rest a little more, so I may see you.
我该走了 上帝会妥善安置一切
Then I will go; God will do the rest.
现在几点了
What time is it?
六点钟
Six o'clock.
他们会来给你梳妆打扮的 在这里待着只会让我分心
They will come to dress you. Being here will distract me.
我心里只有一件事
I must only have one thing in mind.
把手举起来
Raise your arm.
把手举起来
Raise your arm.
把头转过去
Turn your head.
把头转过去
Turn your head.
圣约翰修女
Sister Saint-Jean.
- 万福玛利亚 - 上帝保佑
- Ave Maria. - Deo gratias.
- 圣苏珊娜修女 你有唱诗班的活动 - 是的
- Sister Saint-Suzanne, you have choir. - Yes.
那你要在接待室唱歌
You are singing in the service.
- 要我唱歌吗 - 你必须准备一下
- Singing? - You must prepare.
圣艾格尼丝修女
Sister Saint-Agnes.
- 我真的已经宣誓了吗 - 就在昨天 你成为了我们的姐妹
- Is it true that I made my profession? - Yesterday. You are our sister.
院长 那是真的吗
Mother, it is true, then?
你是什么意思
What do you mean?
院长 你会相信我吗 如果我说……
Will you believe me, Mother, if I tell you that...
什么
Well?
我不记得昨天发生了什么
I remember nothing about yesterday.
我不记得我做了什么 说了什么
I do not remember what I did nor what I said.
- 你的所做所言都很正确。 - 你相信我吗
- You did and said what was right. - Do you believe me?
我既相信也不相信
I neither believe nor do not.
你现在是圣苏珊娜修女 这便足够
You are Sister Saint-Suzanne; that is enough.
她是怎么死的
How did she die?
在拜访过你的姐姐之后
After going to visit your older sister.
她的身体状况开始恶化
Her health had weakened.
她不停地哭
She was sorrowing.
她有对你说什么吗
Did she say anything to you?
她让我把这个转交给你
She asked me to give you this.
- 你知道我父亲的名字吗 - 不知道
- Did you ever know my father's name? - No.
你喜欢现在的生活吗
Do you like your life now?
任凭时光流逝罢了
Time passes.
秋日接近尾声
Autumn is already ending.
孩子 这没什么大不了
My child, this is just a small thing.
这是我剩下的积蓄
Here is the rest of my savings.
为我祷告吧
Pray for me.
将你生下来是我唯一的过错
Your birth was the only error I made.
替我赎罪
Help me to atone for it.
想想我在另一个世界的命运
Consider that my fate in the other world
全凭你在这个世界的表现了
depends on your behaviour in this one.
再见 苏珊娜
Adieu, Suzanne.
不要对你的姐妹抱有期待 不要对你的父亲抱有希望
Ask nothing of your sisters; have no hope of your father
他们走在我的前面
who went before me.
再次说声再见
Adieu once more.
把信烧掉吧 以免影响到你
Burn the letter; fear changing your state:
你在这世上无依无靠
the idea of you in the world with no support
让我在最后的时日里愈发觉得悲伤
further upsets my last moments.
孩子 为什么哭泣
My children, why do you weep?
到我身边来 好让我亲你
Come close so I may kiss you all.
过来吧
Come here.
上帝啊
Jesus...
您将视察这个清单上的四个房间
You will visit the four cells on this list.
有些人的衬衫坏了
Some have destroyed their hair shirts;
我怀疑有些人留着圣经
I suspect some have kept their Bibles.
你把它们找出来然后交给我
You take them and give me them.
- 你想干什么 姐妹 - 看看你的房间
- What do you want, Sister? - To visit your cell.
这是命令吗
Was it an order?
院长让我这么做的
Our Mother asked me.
- 你的衣服哪儿去了 - 烧了
- Where is your hair shirt? - I burned it.
你的律例呢
And your discipline?
我扔了 还叫我的姐妹们也这样
I threw it away and urged my sisters to do so too.
谁同意的
Who allowed it?
德莫尼夫人说这些补赎不能纠正任何过错
Mme de Moni said those penances did not correct any lapses
只会徒增傲慢
and only gave pride.
德莫尼夫人走了
Mme de Moni is gone.
至少我可以为她哀悼 努力遵循她的教导
I can at least mourn her and try to follow her teachings.
这就是你明天不唱歌的原因吗
Is that what stops you singing tomorrow?
明天不是瞻礼日 我不在唱诗班
Tomorrow is not a feast day and I am not in the choir.
我不想做任何违反戒律的事
I wish no longer to do anything outside the rules.
你认识他们吗
Do you know them?
快看
Look.
这是我们的章程
It is our constitution.
我已重新读过并且烂熟于心
I have re-read it; I know it by heart.
这些是我作出的承诺 没有其他人这样做
These are the commitments I made, and no others.
你们中有一个人犯了严重的罪 反对教会神圣的权威
One of you has sinned seriously against holy obedience.
我必须对她严惩
I am obliged to punish her severely.
圣苏珊娜修女
Sister Saint-Suzanne.
接下来一个星期 你必须跪着祷告
For a week, you will spend the service on your knees.
只能吃面包或者喝水
You will also live on bread and water;
在你的房间里必须保持沉默
remain shut up in your cell;
外出时只能帮助普通教友完成最基础的任务
only come out to help the lay sisters with the basest tasks.
最后 从现在开始 我禁止你亲近任何一位姐妹
Lastly, I forbid you from now on to go near any of your sisters
不准跟她们交谈
and to speak to them.
苏珊娜修女 说说你对杨森主义的看法
Sister Suzanne, tell us what you think of Jansenism.
我毫无看法 因为我不知道那是什么意思
I think nothing of it, since I do not know it.
那莫林那主义呢
And Molinism?
我不懂
I know nothing of it either
也不想知道
and do not want to hear anything about it.
你是否受章程约束
Are you subject to the constitution?
- 在教会里的话 是的 - 你认同教皇诏书吗
- In church, yes. - Do you accept the bull?
我认同福音
I accept the Gospel.
但你必须选择一边
And yet you must take sides.
但说无妨
Answer frankly and do not fear.
我拒绝选择任何一边
I reject all sides
并保持基督徒的头衔
and hold to the title of Christian.
你走吧
You may go.
发生什么事了
What is happening?
你应该知道祷告早就开始了
You must know prayers were earlier.
我待在房间里怎么能知道祷告时间提前了
How could I, in my cell?
你就是应该知道 现在你要受罚了
You should have known and will be punished.
在她身体的其余部分
And for the rest of her body,
里面装满珍珠和宝石
it was so laden with pearls and precious stones
一直钻到她的鞋子下面
that they went all the way under her shoes.
向我走来
Step towards me.
跑吧 挽留我
Run and hold me back.
你来得太晚了
You will come too late.
万福玛利亚
Ave Maria.
上帝保佑
Deo gratias.
院长
Mother,
我需要纸和笔 好准备忏悔
I need paper and ink to prepare my confession.
可以再给我些吗 我有很多东西想写
Might I have more? I have a lot to write.
你知道我有很多东西要写 院长
You know I do, Mother.
谢谢你 院长
Thank you, Mother.
苏珊娜修女 跟我来
Sister Suzanne, follow me.
这是你现在的房间 杰罗姆修女会住进你原来的房间
Here is your cell. Sister Jerome will have yours.
苏珊娜修女 换上这身衣服
Sister Suzanne, undress and take this.
苏珊娜修女
Sister Suzanne.
你可能犯过错 但你不是个会撒谎的人
You have faults, but you are not a liar.
把真相告诉我
Tell me the truth.
你到底在纸上写了什么
What did you do with the paper I gave you?
我已经跟你说过了
I told you.
不 你没有
It is impossible.
你要了那么多纸 但你只写了那么点忏悔
You asked for a lot and your confession seemed short.
事实就是这样
It is true.
所以你到底写了什么
So what did you do with it?
我已经说过了
What I told you.
以教会神圣的权威发誓
Swear by the holy obedience
你向上帝发誓这是真的
you have vowed to God that it is true.
无论如何我都会相信你
I will believe you anyway.
你不能因为一些微不足道的事情就让我发誓
You cannot demand an oath for something so slight.
我不能这样做
I am not permitted to make it.
姐妹 你错了
You are mistaken, Sister.
你不知道自己冒着多大的风险
You do not know what you risk.
你到底在纸上写了什么
What did you do with the paper?
我告诉过你了
I told you.
- 纸在哪儿 - 我没有纸
- Where is it? - I do not have it.
你什么时候写的忏悔
When did you do it?
你发誓那些纸只用作忏悔了
Swear that it was all used to write your confession.
既然这事儿不重要
Since the thing is of no more importance,
我不会发誓的
I cannot swear.
快发誓 听见没
Swear! Well?
我不会发誓的
I will not swear.
- 你真的不发誓吗 - 是的 我不会发誓
- You will not? - No, I will not.
- 那么你有罪 - 什么罪
- So you are guilty! - Of what?
所有罪！你太无法无天了！
Everything! There is nothing you cannot do.
你故意称赞德莫尼夫人 好来贬低我
On purpose you praised Mme de Moni to put me down.
还蔑视我不得不重新订立的规则
And scorn the rules I had to lay back down.
你搅乱整个修道院 玩忽职守
You stir up the community, neglect your duties...
我不得不惩罚你
You made me punish you
以及惩罚那些被你唆使的人 这对我来说太难了
and those you seduced. The hardest thing for me.
我为你做过让步
I made allowances.
我以为你会认清自己的错误 回到我的身边
I thought you would recognise your faults and come back to me.
但你并没有
You did not.
你的心灵染上异样
Something in your spirit is unwell.
你在盘算着什么
You have projects.
为了修道院 我必须知道你在打什么算盘
The interest of this house demands I know them.
我会知道的
I will know them!
苏珊娜修女
Sister Suzanne.
- 告诉我真相 - 我说过了
- Tell me the truth. - I did.
再给你五秒钟
I will give you another five seconds to decide.
- 纸哪儿去了 它们还在吗 - 不在我这里
- The papers, if they exist? - I no longer have them.
你发誓纸上只写了你的忏悔吗
The oath that they held only your confession?
我不能说
I cannot take it.
很好
Very well.
把纸给我们 或者说出纸上写的什么
Give us the paper or say what was on it.
你真是好样的
You are too good.
你不了解她 她坏透了
You don't know her. Too bad.
我既没有冒犯上帝也没有冒犯任何人
I have done nothing to offend either God or men.
我发誓
I take my oath.
这不是我想听到的
That is not the oath I want.
她写信给大主教反对你
She wrote to the archbishop against you.
- 苏珊娜修女 你瞧 - 我目睹了一切
- Sister Suzanne, you see? - I have seen everything.
我能感觉到我渐渐迷失
I can feel I am getting lost,
但是迟早…
but a bit sooner or later...
随便你怎样对待我吧
Do what you please with me.
让我再亲吻她一次
Allow me to kiss her one more time.
把钟摇响 别让任何人出现
Ring the bell, and let nobody appear.
只要听话你就能离开这里
Obey and you will leave here.
- 我什么都没有做 - 我不知道你要做什么
I've done nothing, I don't know what you want!
修女 上帝在我们身边
Sister, there is a God!
我们亲爱的院长太过善良
Our dear Mother is too good.
到第三天 她就饶恕了你
Only the third day, she forgives.
太迟了
It is too late.
放开我 放开我
Leave me be. Leave me be!
我向上帝求教你的命运
I consulted God about your fate.
他触动我的心 我听从于他
He touched my heart and I obey.
跪下来求他原谅
Kneel and ask Him forgiveness.
主啊 我请求你的原谅 为我所做的错事
My Lord, I ask your forgiveness for the misdeeds I have done
就像你在十字架上为我做的那样
as you did on the Cross for me.
她把自己比作耶稣
She compares herself to Jesus!
这还没完
That is not all.
发誓你不会把发生的事说出去
Swear you will never talk about what happened.
没有人会知道
No one will ever know.
我发誓
I swear.
这可能是我们最后一次谈话了
We may never have another opportunity to talk.
上帝会原谅我们的
God will forgive us.
我没有读过你写的内容 但我大概能猜到
I have not read your memoir but I can guess.
你认识很多人
You know many people.
我谁都不认识
I know nobody.
我不希望把你推向火堆
I don't wish to compromise you.
我的朋友 你会迷失的 我很清楚
My friend, you would be lost, I know.
你想要什么
What do you want?
把回忆录带给律师 让他作出答复
The memoir to be passed to a lawyer and him to give a reply.
你是想离开吗
You want to leave?
得到答复后 你需要去找法律人士
With the reply, you will need to see people of law.
好的
Yes.
- 你需要自由 - 是的
- You will need freedom. - That is true.
你是否已预见自己可能遭受的迫害
Have you foreseen your persecution?
法律会保护我
The law will protect me;
我需要让别人知道
I will need to be shown.
我会张嘴说话 我会尽情抱怨
My mouth will be open and I will be free to complain.
如果不能呢
If you fail?
我会找其它的修道院
I will ask for another house.
或者就在这间修道院死去
Or I will die in this one.
死前你会饱受折磨
You suffer a long time before dying.
无论我被迫做什么
Whatever I'm made to do,
都没人能说那是因为罪恶的激情在驱使着我
no one can say I'm led by a guilty passion.
我不理解任何人
I see no one.
我要求自由
I am asking to be free
因为我不愿牺牲自由
because I did not sacrifice my freedom willingly.
放心 我会想着你的
Rest assured, I will think of you.
我知道我们关系不错
I know you are my friend.
求上帝指引你 我会和你一起祈祷
Ask God to guide you. I will pray with you.
圣周随之到来 我们却在遭受黑暗时刻的巨大考验
Holy Week followed, and our darkness was much sollicited.
我唱得相当出色 收获了不少掌声
I sang well enough to raise that loud, scandalous applause
但那些掌声既嘈杂又可耻 就像是献给剧场演员一样
that your actors are given in their theatres,
那是永远不该在上帝殿堂响起的声音
which should never be heard
尤其是在庆祝耶稣基督纪念日的时候
in the Lord's temples, especially when His son's memory is being celebrated.
我亲爱的孩子
My dear child.
亲爱的苏珊娜
Dear Suzanne.
请允许我 修女
Allow me, Sister.
院长 你会好心地还给我…
Mother, would you be so good as to give me back...
你的项链坠子吗
Your locket?
我同意了
I consent.
苏珊娜修女 马努里先生在访客室
Sister Suzanne, a Mr Manouri is in the visitors' room.
他是你的律师
He is your lawyer.
我们得到了罗马方面的许可
We have permission from Rome.
很快就会通知你的上级
Your superior will shortly be told
以玛丽- 苏珊娜·西蒙修女的名义
in the name of Sister Marie-Suzanne Simonin
对她的宣誓提出抗议
of a protest against her vows
请求离开宗教生活
with a request to leave religious life
离开修道院 过她认为合适的生活
and leave the cloister to live her life as she sees fit.
但是 为了打赢官司
But, in order to succeed in this business
我需要保证能够见到你
I will need to be able to see you.
我们需要一种通信方式
We will need a means to correspond.
- 我会想办法 - 还有一件事
- I will think about it. - Another thing.
当法律程序开始时 你得先留在这里
When the procedure begins, you will remain here,
暂时屈服于别人的残忍行径
given up to others' cruelty.
我早有心理准备
I have thought about that.
事情不会更糟了
It will not be worse than it has been already.
这件事会遭到许多反对
There will be several sorts of opposition.
来自法律的
That of the law;
来自朗尚修道院的 来自你姐姐的
that of the Longchamp house; that of your sisters.
她们已经获得家庭财产
They received the family goods.
一旦获得自由 你就拥有索取这笔财富的权利
Once free, you could claim your rights to that fortune.
我可以提出放弃我的权利
I can offer to give up my rights.
你在这儿的时候还可以反悔
That act of withdrawal made while you are still here
一旦获得自由之后就没有反悔余地了
will be invalid when you are free.
事实上 她们能体面地接受吗
And indeed, could they decently accept it?
遗弃一个没有避难所也没有财富的妹妹
Leave a sister with no refuge and no fortune?
世人会怎么说
What would the world say?
如果她一时兴起就结婚了呢 如果她有了孩子怎么办
And what if she marries on a whim? What if she has children?
她们会竭尽全力避免这些情况发生
They will fight that danger with all their strength.
但请不要灰心
Do not be discouraged.
我会尽我所能帮助你
I will help you as much as it is in my power to do so.
什么 姐妹 你想离开我们
What, Sister, you want to leave us?
- 是的 - 你会对你的誓言提出上诉吗
- Yes. - Will you appeal against your vows?
是的 院长
Yes, Mother.
- 它们不是出于你自愿的吗 - 不是
- Were they not made freely? - No.
- 谁强迫你了 - 一切
- Who forced you? - Everything.
- 你的父亲强迫你了吗 - 我的父亲强迫了我
- Your father? - My father.
- 你的母亲呢 - 我的母亲也强迫了我
- Your mother? - Also.
那在宣誓的时候你为什么不抗议
Why did you not complain when you made them?
我当时并不在场…
I was elsewhere...
我甚至不记得去过那里
I do not even remember being there.
- 怎么能这样说 - 我说的是实话
- How can you speak thus? - I am telling the truth.
你觉得自己可信吗
Do you think you will be believed?
不管他们相不相信 事实就是事实
Whether they believe me or not, the facts remain true.
陪我走一会儿 苏珊娜
Take a few steps with me, Suzanne.
院长 如您所愿
As you wish, Mother.
如果这样的借口被听到 想想它会如何被滥用
If such pretexts were listened to, think how it would be abused.
你还记得我对你采取的惩罚吗
You remember the punishments you made me give you.
伪证就是最大的罪行
Perjury is the greatest crime.
但我没有发誓
But I have sworn nothing.
我们的错误没有得到纠正吗
Have our wrongs not been righted?
这不是主要原因
That is not why.
那是为什么呢
Why, then?
缺乏神召 以及违背自由意愿的誓言
The absence of a calling and vows not taken freely.
为什么当时不早说
Why not have said so in time?
第一次宣誓时我勇敢地提了出来
I was brave the first time;
第二次宣誓时我失去了意识
the second, I was unconscious.
都是真的 你知道的 院长
And it is true, and you know it, Mother.
如果我请你作证 你能发誓我当时精神正常吗
If I ask you to bear witness, will you swear I was in my right mind?
我会的
I will.
那你会做伪证 而不是我
Then you will commit perjury, not me.
你会制造不必要的骚乱
You will create unnecessary noise.
然后流言四起
There will be scandalous discussions.
- 这不是我的错 - 这个世界本就不友善
- It will not be my fault. - The world is unkind.
他们会以最大的恶意揣测你的思想 心灵和道德
They will think the worst of your mind, heart and morals
他们只相信自己愿意相信的
They can believe what they like!
- 我的心灵是纯洁的 - 难以置信
- My heart is pure. - Unbelievable.
为什么这样
Why is it?
我和其他人一样有自己的性格
I have my character, like everyone else.
你喜欢修道院的生活 我讨厌它
You like convent life; I hate it.
上帝给予你恩惠
God has given you favours;
但没有给予我
I have none.
你会在世间迷失
You would be lost in the world;
你的救赎就在这里
your salvation is here.
我会迷失在这里
I will be lost here
我希望在这个世界上得到拯救
and I hope to be saved in the world.
德莫尼夫人的情谊将我引入歧途
My friendship with Mme de Moni misled me
但我也讨厌伪善
but I am sick of being a hypocrite.
身居于此 心却远离
My body is here but my heart is not.
我永远只能做个不像样的修女
I am and always will be a bad nun!
你对摘下头巾和脱下修道服没有悔恨之心吗
You have no remorse leaving the veil, the clothes that bind you to Jesus?
没有 因为我并非自愿穿戴它们
No, because I did not put them on through my own free will.
我想撕掉它们 扔得远远的
I would like to tear them and throw them far away.
姐妹们会怎么想
What will our sisters say?
所以你选择迷失
So you want to be lost.
我选择离开！
I want to leave!
如果你不喜欢修道院…
If you dislike the convent -
我不喜欢修道院 不喜欢我的处境 不喜欢宗教
I dislike the convent, my condition, religion!
我不想在这里或是任何地方被迫保持沉默
I do not want to be shut up, here or anywhere.
孩子 你被魔鬼附身了
Child, you are possessed by the Devil.
看看你现在的样子
Look what a state you are in.
不 我再也不想披着头巾了
No, I do not want to wear this anymore!
再也不要 再也不要
No! No more, no more!
天哪...
Jesus...
院长
Mother.
我既没有疯也没有被魔鬼附身
I am neither mad nor possessed.
我为自己的暴力行为感到羞愧
I am ashamed of my violence
我请求宽恕
and I beg forgiveness.
但你要自己判断
But judge for yourself:
我不能再撒谎了
I can no longer lie.
我总是拯救他人
I do what saves others,
憎恨和诋毁自己
and hate and discredit myself.
你想避免丑闻吗
Do you want to avoid scandal?
我有一个办法
There is a way.
我不是要你开门
I am not asking you to open the doors,
只是让他们放松防卫
just have them badly guarded.
- 你疯了 - 听我说
- You are mad! - Listen to me.
如果我的自由也拒绝我 我的绝望将是如此…
If my freedom is refused me, my despair will be such...
我会杀掉自己 我会杀掉自己 我会杀掉自己的
I will kill myself. I will kill myself. I'll kill myself!
圣苏珊娜修女 去教堂
Sister Saint-Suzanne, go to church
求上帝触摸你 让你了解自己的状态
and ask God to touch you and make you aware of your state.
质问你的良知
Question your conscience.
你可以离开唱诗班了
You are excused from choir.
姐妹们 我请求你们乞求上帝的怜悯
Sisters, I ask you to beg God's mercy
为一个抛弃他的修女
for a nun who has abandoned Him
她即将承认他眼中的亵渎行为
and is about to commit a sacrilegious act in His eyes
让他人蒙羞
and shameful in others'.
苏珊娜修女
Sister Suzanne
你所有的工作都将被剥夺 直至另行通知
until further notice, you will be deprived of all work.
你将不会有任职
You will not be served.
你要跪着行礼
You will kneel for services.
没有人会跟你说话
No one may speak to you,
没有人会帮助你 没有人会靠近你
assist you, come near you
甚至不会碰你用过的东西
or even touch things you have used.
来 躺在中间
Come and lie in the middle.
为了拯救这个可怜的灵魂 背诵圣徒的祷文
For the salvation of this poor soul, recite the litany of the saints
然后为垂死的人祈祷
and then the prayers for the dying.
圣约瑟夫修女
Sister Saint-Joseph.
别过来 走开
Do not come in. Go away.
- 你想做什么 - 我很饿
- What do you want? - I am hungry.
你看起来毫无生气
You are not fit to live.
从她身上跨过去 她只是一具尸体
Walk on her, she is just a corpse.
走开
Move away.
再走远些
Further.
你想干什么
What do you want?
不论是上帝还是人类都没有将我判处死刑
Neither God nor men have sentenced me to death.
命令我有资格活着
Order me to be allowed to live.
你配吗
Are you worthy?
只有上帝知道
Only God knows that.
我只是等待
I am just waiting
等待命运被裁决
for my fate to be decided.
很好
Good.
走吧 我会留意的
Go; I will see to it.
你的监管者尽力阻止我来见你
Your superior tried to stop me seeing you.
我们在任何礼仪中都没见到你
We did not see you any more at services.
他们不让我说话
They shut me up.
阻止我离开
Stop me from going.
不让我吃东西
Deprive me of food.
姐妹们朝我扔垃圾
My sisters throw filth at me.
晚上 他们把碎玻璃扔在我脚边
At night, they sow broken glass under my feet.
我的念珠被拿走了
My rosary was taken away.
他们说我着了魔
They say I am possessed.
想给我驱邪
They want to exorcise me.
大声点 女儿 我听不见你说话
Speak louder, daughter, I cannot hear you.
先生 别信她的谎言 不论你做什么
And you, Sir, do not believe her lies whatever you do.
它们都是谎言
They are real lies.
他们不能阻止你来见我
They cannot forbid you see me.
为此 我可以让他们遵守法律 希望有用
For that I can have them obey the law. I hope.
我不能让你从那些惩罚中逃离
I cannot spare you those penalties.
你只能耐心点
You must be patient.
对不起 到时间了
I'm sorry, time is up.
晚安
Good evening.
- 她说了什么 - 说她着了魔
- What does she say? - She is possessed.
苏珊娜修女 别伤害我
Sister Suzanne, do not hurt me!
- 你做了什么 - 你想对她做什么
- What did you do? - What did you want to do to her?
- 撒旦 - 撒旦
- Satan! - Satan!
- 魔鬼 - 魔鬼
- Satan! - Satan!
有罪
Impure!
上帝啊 我的上帝 请听我说
God, my God, listen to me.
来到我身边 给予我帮助
Come and help me.
- 上帝不会为你而来的 - 死吧 该死的
- There is no more God for you. - Die and be damned!
- 阿门 - 阿门
- Amen. - Amen for her.
- 阿门 - 阿门 阿门 阿门
- Amen for her. - Amen, amen, amen...
让我们免去虚礼
Let us avoid ceremony.
以玛丽·苏珊娜·西蒙宁的名义提出抗议
A protest has been made in the name of Marie-Suzanne Simonin
抗议她的誓言
against her vows.
我们已有三次辩论
We have debated three times
一方面召集修女的家人参加听证会
and summoned to this hearing the sister's family, on the one hand,
另一方面 召集了朗尚的人
and on the other, the Longchamp community.
希望你们每个人的发言都尽可能简短些
I pray each of you to be brief.
先生们 这里有两张纸条 都是苏珊娜写的
Gentlemen, here are two notes, both written by Suzanne.
一张写给她母亲 说她打算摘下头巾
One to her mother, saying she intends to take the veil;
另一张写给德莫尼夫人 感谢她的收留
the other to Mme de Moni, thanking her for taking her.
我们正在申请对西蒙修女进行驱魔
We are filing an exorcism case against Sister Simonin.
我们内部辩论过 这是多数人的结论
We debated amongst ourselves and it was a majority conclusion.
苏珊娜修女已宣布放弃洗礼
Sister Suzanne has renounced her baptism
错误的观念使她破坏神圣的礼仪
and bad ideas take her away from divine services.
这些是我们的控诉
Those are our accusations.
她不戴念珠 她践踏基督
She does not carry a rosary; she tramples on Christ;
她亵渎神明
she blasphemes...
三天前 她向一位年轻的新信徒举起了手
Three days ago she raised her hand to a young novice.
你们自己判断吧
Judge for yourselves.
我会听从法庭的判决
I will follow the court.
我对无休止地与修道院打交道感到疲倦
I am tired of endless dealing with convents
并不热衷于参与其中
and not keen to get involved;
我们知道我们在那里没有什么权威
we know we have little authority there.
但事态很严重
But the facts are serious
马努里先生也提出控诉
and there is also the complaint by Mr Manouri,
并且已由地方法官通过
passed on by the magistrates.
这或许并不重要 但仍必须执行
It is not very important but we must act.
我们去朗尚吧
Let us go to Longchamp
看看西蒙宁修女 决定是否给她驱邪
and see Sister Simonin to decide about exorcising her.
站起来
Stand up.
跪下来把你的灵魂献给上帝
Kneel and recommend your soul to God.
在我听从你之前
Before I obey you,
你为我做了什么判决
what have you decided for me?
我该问上帝什么
What must I ask God?
我该请求他什么
What favour must I ask Him?
宽恕你一生的罪过
Forgiveness for all your life's sins.
你要像就在他面前一样说话
Speak as though you were before him.
把她扶起来
Stand her up.
可惜 她不会自愿把自己献给上帝
Sadly, she will not recommend herself to God...
你知道要怎么做
You know what to do.
请允许我亲吻那个十字架
Permit me to kiss that crucifix.
我命令你们把她架走
I order you to walk.
天啊 可怜可怜我吧
My God, have pity on me!
上帝 如果我冒犯了你 请原谅我
God, forgive me if I have offended You!
上帝 请可怜我
God, have pity on me!
苏珊娜修女
Sister Suzanne,
站起来
stand up.
- 松开她 - 她很危险
- Untie her. - She may be dangerous.
松开她
Untie her.
摘下她的头巾
Take off her veil.
苏珊娜 你相信上帝吗 相信圣父 圣子和圣灵吗
Suzanne, do you believe in God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit?
- 我相信 - 相信我们神圣的院长 教会吗
- I do. - And in our holy mother, the Church?
我相信
I do.
你放弃和撒旦…
Do you renounce Satan and...
怎么了
What is it?
有人在伤害我
Someone hurt me.
安静 你这个坏蛋
Silence, you wretch!
- 你愿意放弃和撒旦有关的一切吗 - 我放弃 我愿意放弃他
- Do you renounce Satan and his works? - I do. I do renounce him.
我命令你大声说出对我们主的崇拜
I order you to worship our Lord out loud.
我主
My Lord,
我的救世主
my Saviour,
你为我的罪死在十字架上
you who died on the Cross for my sins,
我崇敬您
I worship you.
让你的一滴血落在我身上
Let a drop of your blood fall on me
我会得到净化
and I will be purified.
原谅我 上帝
Forgive me, Lord,
就像我原谅我所有的敌人一样
as I forgive all my enemies.
尊敬的院长
Reverend Mother!
你留下来
Stay.
苏珊娜修女 站起来
Sister Suzanne, stand up.
这是告你的诉讼 别害怕回答 让我们看看…
Here is the case against you. Answer without fear. Let us see...
你为什么不认罪
Why do you not confess?
- 他们阻止我 - 为什么不去圣礼呢
- They prevent me. - Why not go near the sacraments?
- 他们阻止我 - 为什么不去弥撒和行礼
- They prevent me. - Why not go to Mass and services?
- 你很清楚… - 安静
- You know very well... - Silence!
你为什么在晚上离开房间
Why do you leave your cell at night?
我没有水和生活必需品
I have no water or basic necessities.
- 为什么没有 - 我不知道
- Why not? - I do not know.
为什么你的房间没有上锁
Why does your cell not lock?
- 因为我把锁弄坏了 - 为什么
- Because I broke the lock. - Why?
去参加耶稣升天仪式
To go to the Ascension Day service.
你进教堂了吗
Did you enter the church?
- 是的 - 她没有
- Yes. - That is not true!
- 整个修道院… - 都可以发誓教堂门被锁上了
- The whole community... - ...will swear the door was closed.
他们在门前发现了我
They found me at that door
你就命令他们从我身上走过去
and you ordered them to walk on me!
那不是真的
Untrue!
女士 我提问的时候你再发言
Madame, you may speak when I question you.
- 你的念珠和十字架呢 - 她们拿走了
- And your rosary and crucifix? - They took them.
- 你的《日课经》呢 - 她们拿走了
- And your breviary? - They took it.
- 那你怎样祈祷 - 我用所有的心意祈祷
- How do you pray? - With my heart and mind,
- 即使我不被允许祈祷 - 谁不准你祈祷了
- though I was forbidden to pray. - Who forbade you?
尊敬的院长
The Reverend Mother.
尊敬的院长
Reverend Mother.
你有没有阻止她去祷告
Is it true or false that you forbade her to pray?
我觉得…我可以…
I believed... and I was right to...
我没问这个 有还是没有
I did not ask that. Yes or no?
我是不让她去 但是…
I forbade her, but...
苏珊娜修女 你为什么光着脚
Sister Suzanne, why are you barefoot?
我没东西可穿
I have nothing to wear.
为什么你的衣服这么脏
Why are your clothes dirty?
- 我身上的衣服连着穿了三个月 - 为什么
- I have slept in them for three months. - Why?
我根本没有亚麻布
I have no linen at all.
- 为什么没有 - 都被拿走了
- Why not? - It was taken away.
- 你吃饱了吗 - 我乞求能够吃饱
- Are you fed? - I ask to be.
所以你没吃饱
So you are not.
是什么罪行使你受到如此严厉的惩罚
What misdeed makes you deserving of such severity?
我的罪行是没有神召
My crime is not to have a calling.
- 以及放弃我的宣誓 - 那应由法律来判决
- And to renounce my vows. - It is up to the law to decide.
在那之前 你必须履行你的职责
Until then, you must be able to carry out your duty.
- 想控诉什么人吗 - 不 我不想控诉谁
- A complaint about anyone? - No, I haven't.
我不是来指控谁的 只是为了保护自己
I am here not to accuse but to defend myself.
那么 走吧
Go, then.
- 去哪儿 - 回你的房间
- Where? - To your cell.
走吧
Go.
我刚刚质问你了 现在要质问你的监管者
I have questioned you; now your superior.
在命令撤销之前我不会离开
I will not leave until order is restored.
这样恐怖 这样多变 这样持久吗
Such horrors, so varied and ongoing?
不大可能吧
It is improbable.
我也这样想 主教 但事实如此
I agree, Your Grace, but it is true.
那个女人不值得受她的指控
That woman is unworthy of her charge.
我想是的 陛下 她应该被免职
I think so, Your Grace. She deserves to be removed.
但是 海伯特先生 她不会被免职
And yet, Mr Hébert, she will not.
- 有谁阻拦你吗 - 没有人
- Who is stopping you? - No one.
德图蒙特夫人一定做了认为是对的事情
Mme de Tourmont must have done what she thought was right.
我之前和她父亲打过交道
I used to know her father a little.
他们家境贫穷 在军队里没什么地位
They are poor people, of low military status,
但值得尊敬
but honourable.
她有三个兄弟 都是优秀的军官
Her three brothers are excellent officers;
最小的兄弟去年英勇牺牲了
the youngest died bravely last year.
但我看到那孩子感动了你
But I see the child touched you.
不要抗议 这不是犯罪
Do not protest; it is not a crime.
她有什么要求吗
What about her request?
我认为教会法庭将拒绝索赔
I think the ecclesiastical court will reject the claim.
- 无需进一步问讯吗 - 他们能做什么
- Without further enquiry? - What can they do?
西蒙宁小姐的朋友对此颇有意见
Mlle Simonin's friends have been too noisy about it all.
天知道我们这些纵容的行为会被如何看待
God knows how any indulgence from us would be seen.
唉…
Alas...
看看我们的哲学家写了什么
See what our philosophers write:
“如果那些监狱的门是为一个可怜的女人而开
"If the doors of those prisons were opened for one wretched woman,
人们会尝试强迫他们…”
"the crowds would go and try to force them..."
他们是对的
They must be right.
不要害怕你的庇护
Do not fear for your protégée,
马努里先生将上诉 将在议会进行听证
Mr Manouri will appeal, and it will be heard before Parliament.
治安法官知道他们的职责
The magistrates know their duty.
- 你会听从他们的判决吗 - 愿上帝使判决明智而公正
- Will you go by their decision? - May God make it wise and just.
先生们 让我们继续调查西蒙宁案
Gentlemen, let us carry on examining the Simonin case.
苏珊娜在审判中败诉
Suzanne lost her trial.
发生什么了
What is happening?
- 万福玛利亚 - 上帝保佑
- Ave Maria. - Deo gratias.
去访客室
Go to the visiting room.
我是马努里先生派来的
I come from Mr Manouri.
- 我败诉了 - 这我还不太清楚
- I have lost my case. - That I do not know.
他让我把这封信给你
He gave me this letter for you.
- 你会回信吗 - 不会 你走吧
- Will there be a reply? - No. Go.
苏珊娜…
Suzanne...
万福玛利亚
Ave Maria.
你看过那封信吗
Did you read the letter?
我收到了 但还没看
I received it; I didn't read it.
- 所以你不… - 不 我知道
- So you do not... - Yes, I do.
我想清楚了
I worked it out.
如果我能让自己变得有用
If I can make myself useful...
我可以见到第一任总统 总教区牧师
I could see the first president, the vicars-general...
别见任何人
Do not see anyone.
- 一切都结束了 - 并没有
- It is all over. - No.
你可以换个修道院
You could change houses.
很多正派人士都有兴趣
Many decent people take an interest.
其中有些人很有钱 愿意提供住处
Some of them have money: they will provide your dowry.
如果你净身出户 他们也不介意
If you leave with nothing, they will not object.
那些正派人士已经忘记我了
Those decent people are already forgetting me.
- 你会离开这里的 - 我已经别无所求
- You will leave this place! - I ask nothing,
已无所盼 已无所反
I hope for nothing, I oppose nothing.
但愿上帝能改变我
If only God could change me.
但这是不可能的
But it is impossible.
这件长袍已经和我的皮肤 我的骨头相连
This robe has attached itself to my skin, my bones.
我讨厌这种生活
I hate this life.
我能感到我的厌恶
I can feel I hate it.
你必须换个修道院
You must change convents.
我会再来见你的 你将会离开这里
I will come and see you again. You will leave this place.
哦 苏珊娜 你感觉怎么样
Well, Suzanne, how are you treated?
- 他们忘记我了 - 很好
- They forget me. - Good.
求你一件事 告诉修道院院长
A favour, please: call the Mother Superior
- 来听你我的问答 - 请讲
- to hear your questions and my answers. - Go on.
- 你会失去我 - 别害怕
- You will lose me. - Do not fear.
你再也不会受到她权威的束缚
You are no longer under her authority.
这周结束之前 你将去圣尤特罗普修道院
By the end of the week, you will go to St Eutrope.
你有位不错的朋友
You have a good friend.
你的律师
Your lawyer.
- 马努里先生吗 - 就是他
- Mr Manouri? - That is he.
他见到了大主教 以及所有以虔诚著称的人
He saw the Archbishop and all the people known for piety.
他为你准备了嫁妆和新修院
He has placed a dowry for you with that new convent.
如果你有任何身体上的不适
If you know of any disorder,
一定要告诉我
I order you to inform me.
我没有不舒服
I do not.
我以神圣的教会权威的名义命令你
I order you in the name of holy obedience.
很好
Very well.
我请你你对一切保密
I ask you to keep all this secret.
你怎么认识马努里先生的
How do you know Mr Manouri?
通过我的案件
From my case.
你经常去见他吗
Did you see him often?
没有 只见过几面
No, only a few times.
那自你输掉官司起呢
And since you lost your case?
见过一面
Once.
- 他给你写信了吗 - 没有
- Did he write to you? - No.
- 你给他写信了吗 - 也没有
- Did you write to him? - No.
他会告诉你他做了什么的
He will want to tell you what he has done.
我命令你不要去见他
I order you not to receive his visits
如果他写信给你 请你把信原封不动地寄给我
and if he writes, to send me the letter unopened.
听到了吗 不要把信拆开
Do you hear me? Without opening it.
我听见了 我会的
I hear and will obey you.
她真漂亮
How pretty she is!
继续
Go ahead.
坐下来 孩子
Sit down, my child.
- 哦 对不起 大人 - 不用对不起
- Oh, sorry, my Lord. - Not at all.
我想你已经知道那些悲伤的…
I believe you have been told of the woes...
我知道 他们做错了
They were wrong, I know!
她很贴心
She is sweetness itself.
- 你看 我的孩子 教会… - 请原谅
- You see, my child, the Church... - Excuse me.
…修道院种类繁多
...by the great variety of its convents,
允许每个成员…
allows each member...
我太喜欢你了
I already love you madly.
来完成他们自己的使命
...to fulfill their own calling.
有一个适合所有人的地方 每个人都必须努力
There is a place for all and each person must endeavour...
当那些学究走了
When those pedants have gone,
我会把姐妹们叫过来 你会为我们唱歌吗
I'll call the sisters and will you sing for us?
…努力寻找这个地方
...endeavour to find the place
由主宰分配给他的永恒
assigned to him for all eternity by the Master,
万物的创造者
Creator of all things.
过来坐下
Come and sit down.
让我讲完
And let me speak.
既然你要换修道院 就应该郑重地重申你的誓言
Since you are changing convent, you should solemnly renew your vows.
我们将举行一个愉快的仪式 大人
We will have a lovely ceremony, my Lord.
别忘了你的嫁妆源于慈善
Do not forget your dowry was charity.
吃巧克力吗 大人
Chocolate, my Lord?
你真可怜…
You were pitied...
- 来点面包和果酱吗 - 请坐下来
- Some bread and jam? - Please sit down!
你再感激也不为过
You cannot be too grateful...
可怜的小家伙 过去的就让它过去吧
Poor little thing! But it is over.
我们会安慰她的 她愿意怎么做就怎么做
We shall console her; she shall do as she wishes.
来点水果利口酒
Some fruit liqueur?
不用了 谢谢
No, thank you.
已经很晚了
It is late already.
孩子 你受苦了
My child, you have truly suffered.
你的监管者和我住在一起
Your superior and I were boarders together.
我们在皇家港 我们都非常讨厌她
We were at Port-Royal. We all loved to hate her.
可以告诉我…
You can tell me...
- 那就是新来的女孩 - 她太漂亮了
- That's the new girl. - She's so pretty!
看看她的眼睛有多迷人
Look how ravishing her eyes are!
- 别在意 - 我来看看情况如何
Take no notice. I have come to see how this is.
我的小朋友会在那里祈祷
My little friend will pray there.
她应该有一个垫子
She shall have a cushion.
扶手椅 你坐着舒服吗
The armchair - are you comfortable?
这是我们院的床单 不是很好
It is our household bed linen, not very fine.
床垫还不错
The mattress is good.
你肯定累了
You must be tired.
想在床上待多久就待多久
You may stay in bed as long as you like.
上帝保佑
Deo gratias.
很晚了 苏珊娜 院长叫你过去
It is late, Suzanne. Our Mother is asking for you.
进来 进来
Come in, come in!
苏珊娜 早上好 你睡得还好吗
Good morning Suzanne! Did you sleep well?
这杯咖啡在这儿有一小时了
This coffee has been waiting for an hour.
希望它还好
I hope it is nice.
噢 它凉了
Oh, it's cold.
没关系
Never mind.
快喝吧
Hurry up.
然后我们谈一谈
And then we will talk.
你的母亲很久之前就去世了吗
Did your mother die long ago?
- 快一年了 - 你的父亲呢
- Nearly a year. - Your father?
不久前也去世了
Shortly before.
我还有两个姐姐 应该是的
I still have two sisters, I suppose.
他们告诉我 你很有才能 也很有智慧
I am told you are full of talent, and wit too,
那非常好
which does no harm!
你听见厄秀拉修女是如何演唱格洛丽亚的吗
Did you hear how Sister Ursula sang the Gloria?
我当时不在 你知道的
I wasn't there, you know!
她嫉妒多萝西金丝雀般的嗓音
She is jealous of Dorothée's canary!
以及克莱门特修女在福音书中的样子
And how Sister Clément looked during the Gospel.
苏珊娜 为我们弹点什么助兴吧
Entertain us, Suzanne; play us something
然后你来唱歌
and then you'll sing.
这里有垫子
A cushion.
非常动听 但我们有我们在教堂里需要的所有圣洁
Very pretty, but we have all the saintliness we need at church.
我们都很孤独 我的朋友也会是你的朋友
We are alone; my friends will be yours.
唱一些欢快的歌吧
Sing something gay.
比如流行民谣呢
Any fashionable ballads?
- 她很累了 - 没有
- She is tired. - No!
她嗓音甜美 必须得唱点儿什么
She has a lovely voice; she absolutely must sing something.
我不知道唱什么
I know nothing.
你不记得在俗世中唱的是什么了吗
Do you not remember what was sung in the world?
离开俗世还没过多久
It hasn't been long.
好像很久远了 而且我对俗世的了解很少
It seems far away - and I saw so little of the world.
- 你知道“爱情岛”吗 - 姐妹们曾经唱过
- Do you know "Plaisir d'amour"? - The sisters sang it.
太好了 唱“爱情岛”吧
Yes! "Plaisir d'amour"!
爱的愉悦
The pleasure of love
稍纵即逝
Only lasts a moment
爱的痛苦
The pain of love
伴随一生
Lasts your whole life long
我把所有都留给了负心的西尔维
I left everything For ungrateful Sylvie
她离开了我
She left me
有了新的爱人
And took another lover
爱的愉悦
The pleasure of love
稍纵即逝
Only lasts a moment
爱的痛苦
The pain of love
伴随一生
Lasts your whole life long
唱得好
Wonderful!
我感觉厄秀拉修女…
I feel Sister Ursula...
- 她有着最崇高的嗓音… - 安静点
- She has the noblest voice... - Be quiet!
她弹唱起来就像天使 真想每天都能听到
She plays and sings like an angel and I want to hear her every day.
我以前会弹 她可以教我
I once knew how to play: she can help me.
- 哦 你不会忘掉 - 让我坐下
- Oh, you do not forget. - Let me sit down.
那么 你觉得你的学生怎么样
So, what do you think of your pupil?
她的手比她老师的还要轻柔
Her hands are lighter than her teacher's.
我喜欢这双手
And I admire these hands.
看到了吗 泰瑞斯修女 简直是世界上最漂亮的手指
See, Sister Thérèse? The prettiest fingers in the world.
不要垂下眼睛 看看我
Do not lower your eyes. Look at me.
看着我
Look at me!
你的监管者必须知道你所有的想法
Your superior must know all your thoughts.
不准有任何保留
You must hide nothing from her.
什么都要告诉我
Tell me everything.
如果你隐瞒了什么 要小心
If you hide anything, beware.
我会当面惩罚你的
I will have you punished in my presence.
泰瑞斯修女 如果你无聊就先走吧
Sister Thérèse, go if you are bored.
我没有无聊
I am not.
我有很多问题想问这个孩子
I have so many questions for this child!
- 我不想走 - 我想知道她所有的事情
- I am sure. - I want to know her whole story.
我想知道他们对你做了什么
I want to know everything they did.
我很确信我会想哭 但是没关系
I am sure it will make me cry, but never mind.
苏珊娜 什么时候你能全部告诉我
Suzanne, when will I know it all?
你让我讲我就讲
When you order me.
现在就可以 如果你有时间的话
At once, if we have time.
已经十点了 马上就会敲钟
It is 10 o'clock. The bells will soon ring.
- 那开始吧 - 但是 院长…
- Begin anyway. - But Mother...
你答应过我祷告前留出一段时间
You promised me some time before the service.
我有一些不安的想法
I have unsettling thoughts.
如果我不先告诉你 就难以在教堂祈祷
I will not be able to pray in church if I do not tell you first.
你的想法很疯狂
Your thoughts are mad.
我很清楚你是怎么想的 明天再说吧
I bet I know what they are. Tomorrow.
亲爱的院长
Dear Mother!
就按照姐妹的要求来吧
Give my sister what she requests.
我下次再跟你讲
I will tell you another time.
向你倾诉会让她免受痛苦
Telling you will stop her suffering.
- 泰瑞斯 你让我心烦 - 我知道
- Thérèse, you annoy me. - I know.
我很尴尬 但我不想这样尴尬
It embarrasses me and I do not want to be embarrassed.
我知道
I know!
我的情感不受控制
I am not mistress of my feelings.
我希望能控制自己 但我不知道该怎么办
I wish I were, but I do not know how.
亲爱的姐妹 你这是怎么了
Dear sister, what is wrong?
为什么躲着我
Why do you avoid me?
院长不能同时爱我们两个吗
Can our Mother not love both of us?
不能 这不可能
No, it is not possible.
为什么你会来这里
Why did you come here?
你在这里不会快乐太久
You will not be happy here for long.
并且我永远都不会快乐
And I will be unhappy forever.
你在害怕什么
What do you fear?
我是伤害了她的情谊 还是把她从你身边带走了
That I abuse her friendship? Take her away from you?
你不了解我
You do not know me.
这不是你的错 我知道
It is not your fault, I know.
- 向我保证… - 保证什么
- Promise me... - What shall I promise?
保证…
Promise me...
尽量少见她
to see her as little as you can.
但是为什么 既然我都向你保证了…
But why? Since I assure you that...
我思绪混乱
I am lost.
好了 女孩们 这是在密谋什么吗
Well, girls, are we plotting?
院长 请原谅我未经允许来到这里
Mother, forgive me for coming here without your permission.
是的 你应该先提出请求
Indeed, you should have asked.
我的姐妹很难过 我想安慰她
My sister was sad and I wanted to console her.
那 伟大的上帝呢
What about, great God?
你对我的善意让她担心
Your goodness to me worried her.
她害怕你在心底更加偏爱我
She is afraid you will prefer me in your heart.
嫉妒之心是很正常的
That feeling of jealousy - which is quite natural,
同时 取悦你 院长…
and flattering to you, Mother -
似乎变得残忍 所以我想安慰她
was... it seemed it had become cruel and I was reassuring her.
泰瑞斯修女 我仍能感受并将保持对你的情谊
Sister Thérèse, I felt friendship for you and I still do,
但我的情感不是谁独有的
but I will not allow claims to exclusiveness.
摆脱掉这些念头
Get rid of them
如果你害怕我对你仅剩的情感也淡去
if you fear to dampen my remaining attachment to you.
还记得阿加丝修女的遭遇吗
Remember what happened to Sister Agathe.
唱诗班里我对面的那个高个子女孩
That tall girl opposite me in the choir.
孩子 你了解我 我很仁慈
My child, you know me: I am kind.
别让我惩罚你 我会很难过
Do not make me punish you - I would suffer too much.
跟我回去吧 苏珊娜修女
Come back with me, Sister Suzanne.
回到你的房间里去 未经我允许不准离开
Go back to your cell and do not leave it without my permission.
亲爱的院长
Dear Mother!
原谅泰瑞斯修女吧
Forgive my sister Thérèse.
她失去了理智 不知道自己在做什么
She has lost her head and knows not what she does.
原谅她吗 我会的
Forgive her? I will.
- 那你会用什么和我做交换呢 - 我什么都没有
- What will you give me in exchange? - I have nothing.
你有前额…
Your forehead...
现在开始讲述你的故事已经太晚了 但是来吧
It is too late to begin your story, but come
给我上一堂大键琴课
and give me a harpsichord lesson.
回去吧
Go back.
你最好回房间去
You had better go back to your cell.
快回去
Go back.
- 院长 谢谢您 - 为什么谢我
- Mother, thank you. - What for?
因为镜子
The mirror.
不要和别人说 这里戒律很严格
You must not mention it. It is a strict rule,
但是…
but...
苏珊娜 我一直在想关于朗尚的事
Suzanne, I have been thinking about that Longchamp business.
我有个提议
I have a proposal for you.
你的嫁妆来自慈善机构 是吗
Your dowry came from charity, did it?
是的 院长
Yes, Mother.
- 在朗尚的姐妹为你留着嫁妆吗 - 是的
- And the Longchamp sisters kept theirs. - Yes...
- 什么都没还给你吗 - 没有 院长
- And gave none back? - No, Mother.
你有权利叫她们还回来
You have the right to ask them to give it back.
怎么样 苏珊娜
Well, Suzanne?
我该怎么做呢
How would I do that?
我们会支付诉讼朗尚修道院的费用
A lawsuit against the Longchamp convent, and we would pay the fees.
如果我们赢了 就平分
If we win, we split it.
噢
Well?
跟上 女孩们
Come along, girls!
无法作答吗
No reply?
- 你在做梦吗 - 是的
- Are you dreaming? - Yes.
我看到我的名字再次出现在卷宗当中
Yes, I seeing my name appearing again in case notes;
更细致的听证会 一些阴暗的事情
hearings with more details, dark things,
诽谤让我看起来很可怕...
slander to make me seem horrible...
我会变得愤愤不平
I would become bitter
并为我的无知感到羞愧
and ashamed of my innocence
我会哭泣…
and I would weep...
我不想这样
I do not want that.
别再说了 那不重要
No more talk of that. It is not important.
放开她 快放开她
Leave her! Leave her alone!
- 苏珊娜 你爱我吗 - 当然爱你 你对我这么好
- Suzanne, do you love me? - Yes, you are so good to me.
- 不 你不爱我 - 我不爱你吗
- No, you do not. - Not love you?
- 不 - 我要做什么呢
- No. - What must I do?
你猜
Guess.
我想想 猜不出来
I am trying. I cannot.
羊毛很脏
That wool is dirty.
头巾太紧了
That veil is too tight.
毫无进展
No progress there!
- 你今年多大了 - 不到20
- How old are you? - Not yet 20.
你会跟我分享人生经历吗
Will you tell me your life story?
- 会 - 所有的吗
- Yes. - All of it?
是的 但那得花很长时间 况且也很悲伤
Yes. But it will be long and sad.
别担心 我不介意
Do not worry, I like to weep.
你一定也不介意
You must like it too.
我们可以互相为对方擦眼泪
We can wipe each other's tears
也许我们会在你悲伤的故事中感到开心
and maybe we will be happy in the middle of your sad story.
谁知道我们会产生怎样的感受呢 快讲给我听吧
Who knows where emotion may lead us? So, tell me!
苏珊娜
Suzanne,
你非常喜欢你的第一任院长吧
you liked your first Mother Superior very much.
是的 非常喜欢
Yes, very much.
她没有比我更爱你 但你比爱我更爱她
She did not love you more than me, but you loved her better.
无法回答吗
No answer?
我当时不开心 她让我的苦痛得以缓解
I was unhappy and she eased my pain.
是谁让你痛恨起修道院的呢
Who made you hate the convent?
你肯定有什么事没说
You are hiding something.
不可能吧 像你这么漂亮
It is impossible, pretty as you are,
- 没有人跟你说过吗 - 有的
- that no one ever told you. - I have been told.
- 你喜欢这个人吗 - 不喜欢
And did you like the person?
你爱上他了吗
You fell in love with him?
- 没有 - 什么
- No. - What?
没有暗恋吗
No secret passion?
- 把所有事都告诉我吧 我非常宽容 - 没什么可讲的了
- Tell me everything, I am indulgent. - There's nothing to tell.
所以你为什么如此讨厌我们的生活
So what makes our life so loathsome to you?
这样的生活
This very life.
我讨厌别人把我关起来
I hate being put away and held back.
我觉得我受到其他事情的召唤
I feel I am called to something else.
谁告诉你的
Who told you that?
压在我身上的无聊过于沉重
The boredom that weighs heavily on me.
- 即使是在这里吗 - 是的 亲爱的院长
- Even here? - Oh yes, dear Mother.
即使是在这里 即使你对我非常好
Even here, in spite of all your kindness to me.
但是…
But...
你能感受到自己内心所动吗
do you feel movements within yourself?
- 比如欲望 - 感觉不到
- Desires? - No.
我相信你
I believe you.
你的性格看起来很平和
Your character seems peaceful.
- 非常平和 - 甚至是冷漠
- Fairly. - Cold, even.
我不知道
I don't know.
- 你对俗世有所了解吗 - 只知道一点点
- Do you know the world? - Only a little.
俗世什么地方吸引了你
What draws you to it?
我不知道 但我能感觉到
I do not know, but I feel it.
你怀念自由吗
Do you miss having freedom?
怀念 也许还怀念许多自由以外的事物
That, and maybe many other things.
比如呢
What other things?
我的朋友 向我敞开心扉吧
My friend, open your heart to me.
你想结婚吗
Would you like to marry?
我当然想 那比我独自一人要好
I would certainly like that better than being what I am.
为什么
Why?
- 我不知道 - 真的吗
- I do not know. - Do you not?
告诉我
Tell me,
一个男人的出现会给你留下什么印象
what impression does the presence of a man make upon you?
如果他风趣 我会很乐意听他讲话
If he is witty, I listen with pleasure.
如果他很帅气 我也会注意到他
If he is handsome, I notice him.
那你的心呢
And your heart?
不 没什么波动
No, not yet.
当你的目光碰到一个男人
And when your gaze met a man's
- 你不会感到… - 有时候感到困惑
- did you not feel... - Confused, sometimes.
那使我目光低垂
It made me lower my eyes.
- 但是内心没有波动吗 - 没有
- But no inner turmoil? - No.
你没有任何感觉吗
Did your senses have nothing to say?
这些感觉可以通过语言表达吗
Is there a language of the senses?
- 你不知道吗 - 不知道 亲爱的院长
- Do you not know it? - No, dear Mother.
- 这对我有什么用呢 - 它有可能会驱散你的无聊
- What use would it be to me? - It might dissipate your boredom.
也有可能徒增无聊
Or increase it, maybe.
院长 我不明白你在说什么
Mother, I don't understand what you say.
你想听的话我可以解释得更清楚
I can be clearer if you want.
算了 我宁愿不明白
No, I would rather not know.
为什么害怕了
Why be afraid?
她如此纯真
She is so innocent!
我是 但我宁愿去死也不愿这样
I am; and I would rather die than stop being so.
院长 到底怎么了
Mother, what is the matter?
我说了什么伤害到你的话吗
Did I say something to hurt you?
原谅我 我说话不过脑子 原谅我
Forgive me. I speak without thinking. Forgive me.
苏珊娜
Suzanne,
- 你睡得好吗 - 还好
- do you sleep well? - Yes.
- 你一般躺下就能睡着吗 - 大部分时候都能
- Do you fall straight to sleep? - Almost always.
那你睡不着的时候会想什么
And when you do not, what do you think about?
想我之前的人生
My past life,
想我之后的人生会有多悲惨
and how sad the rest of it will be.
我要么向上帝祈祷 要么哭泣
I either pray to God or I weep.
如果你早上醒得很早会想什么呢
And when you wake early in the morning?
我会直接起床了
I arise.
- 马上就起吗 - 马上就起
- At once? - At once.
你不想做梦吗
Do you not like to dream?
在枕头上休息呢
Rest upon your pillow?
不想
No.
- 赖床呢 - 不
- Enjoy the gentle warmth of your bed? - No.
从来都不吗
Never?
你从来不会沾沾自喜吗
Have you never been tempted to see with complacency
你多么可爱呀
how lovely you are?
不 我不知道我是否像你说的那样可爱
No. I don't know if I am as lovely as you say.
并且... 我们为他人而美丽 不是为自己
And... we are beautiful for others, not for ourselves.
你从来不…
Do you not ever...
院长 勒穆瓦纳神父想见你
Mother, Father Lemoine wants to see you.
我禁止你离开房间
I forbade you to leave your room.
- 你们在这里做什么 - 我是跟着院长来的
- What are you doing here? - Obeying our Mother.
你们在一起很久了吗
Were you together long?
她想多久就有多久
As long as she wanted.
你保证过的
You promised.
我从来不保证任何事情
I did not promise anything.
你敢告诉我你做了什么吗
Will you dare tell me what you did?
可怜可怜我吧
Have pity on me.
上帝保佑
Deo gratias.
上帝保佑
Deo gratias.
别担心 苏珊娜
Do not worry, Suzanne,
是我
it is me.
怎么了 院长
What is the matter, Mother?
为什么你还没睡
Why are you not asleep?
我睡不着 做了噩梦
I cannot sleep. My dreams torment me.
我看到你在他们手里
I see you in their hands,
头发凌乱 脚上满是血迹
with messy hair and bloody feet.
我颤抖着醒来
I tremble and wake up.
对不幸感到害怕 像是来自天国的预兆
I fear some misfortune, an omen from Heaven.
- 我想见见我的朋友 - 亲爱的院长
- I wanted to see my friend. - Dear Mother.
我感冒了 但我没什么好怕的
I caught cold, but I have nothing to fear.
我想我快睡着了
I think I am going to sleep.
把手给我
Give me your hand.
你的脉搏很稳定
Your pulse is calm;
不用担心
nothing troubles it.
亲爱的院长 您感冒还没好
Dear Mother, you are still catching cold.
是的
You are right.
再见了 朋友
Goodbye my friend.
怎么了 你为什么在哭
What is the matter? Are you weeping?
是泰瑞斯在敲门
It is Thérèse.
是的 肯定是她
Yes, it must be her.
别伤害她
Do not hurt her.
再见 苏珊娜
Goodbye, Suzanne.
回床上去 睡个好觉
Go back to bed; sleep well.
苏珊娜修女 回你的房间去
Sister Suzanne, go back to your cell.
我今天不想让你忏悔
I do not want you to confess today.
- 为什么不让 - 我就是不想
- Why not? - I do not want you to.
- 但是别人会… - 管他们呢
- But what will people... - Whatever they like.
如果你向我忏悔 我可以免除你的义务
If you confess to me, I can absolve you.
这是怎么了
What is this?
来吧 我会听的
Come. I will hear you.
去吧 既然你执意要去 但是向我保证…
Go then, since you must, but promise me...
想说什么都可以 上帝自有判断
Say whatever you like. God will judge me.
但是神父 她是我的监管者
But Father, she is my superior.
她可以来我房间 也可以叫我去她房间
She can come to my room, call me to hers,
- 只要她想 - 我知道
- ...whenever she likes. - I know.
上帝保佑你如此之久
Blessed be God for keeping you so long.
我不敢说得更清楚了
I daren't speak more clearly.
我不想成为她的帮凶
I do not wish to become her accomplice.
但我要求你从她身边逃走
But I order you to flee from her.
永远不要一个人进她的房间
Never go into her room alone.
对她关上门 尤其是在晚上
Shut your door to her, especially at night.
如果她不管不顾进门 赶紧进走廊
If she comes in nonetheless, go into the corridor.
必要的话大声呼叫 把大家都喊醒
Call out; shout if you must. Arouse the household.
如果魔鬼亲自站在你面前 也要想尽一切办法
Do everything you would if Satan himself stood before you
哪怕他追赶你
and pursued you.
是的 孩子 小心魔鬼
Yes, my child, Satan.
那才是你看到的人 伪装成你的监管者
That is who you must see, disguised as your superior.
跟我说说
Say with me,
你身体还好吗
Are you in good health?
- 还好 神父 - 你能熬住一夜不睡觉吗
- Yes, Father. - Can you go without sleep for a night?
- 能 神父 - 好吧
- Yes, Father. - Well...
今晚别上床
Do not go to bed tonight.
晚饭后去祭坛脚下 并在祈祷中度过夜晚
After supper go to the foot of the altar and spend the night in prayer.
你还不清楚你处于什么样的危险之中
You do not know what danger you were in.
你会感谢上帝对你的庇佑
You will thank God for having protected you.
我给你的唯一补赎就是要远离监管者
The only penance I give you is to keep far from your superior.
我意识到我的建议会对你有所影响
I am aware how my advice affects you
但是我不得不这样做
but I owe it to you.
上帝主宰一切
God is the Master
我们只有一条戒律
and we only have one law.
苏珊娜 你在这里干什么
Suzanne, what are you doing here?
如你所见
You can see.
- 你知道现在都什么时候了 - 我知道
- Do you know what time it is? - Yes.
为什么你不待在房间里
Why are you not in your room?
我正在为圣餐礼做准备
I am preparing for Holy Communion.
利用晚上的时间吗
Do you mean to spend the night?
是的
Yes.
谁允许的
Who gave you permission?
勒穆瓦纳神父叫我这么做的
Father Lemoine ordered me.
他不能在违反戒律的情况下让你做事
He cannot give orders against the rules.
我命令你回床上去
I order you to go to bed.
这是他让我做的补赎
This is the penance he gave me.
你可以做别的工作来代替
You will do other work instead.
我不想做别的
I do not choose.
过来 孩子 这么冷的天 你会生病的
Come along, my child, this cold night will make you ill.
你可以在房间里祈祷
You can pray in your cell.
你在躲着我
You are avoiding me.
是的 我在躲你
Yes, I am.
- 魔鬼 退后 - 怎么了 快停下
- Get back, Satan! - What is the matter? Stop!
我不是魔鬼
I am not Satan.
我是你的监管者 也是你的朋友
I am your superior and your friend.
原谅我 亲爱的院长
Forgive me, dear Mother.
不是我要这么做的 是勒穆瓦纳神父的要求
It is not me, it is Father Lemoine.
你跟他说什么了
What did you tell him?
他向我提问 我不得不回答
He questioned me; I had to answer.
所以我现在在你眼里很可怕
So now I am horrible in your eyes.
没什么好说的
There was nothing to say.
对你来说 还有什么比我的友谊更正常的呢
What is more normal than my friendship for you?
他看待事物的方式不同
He sees things differently.
怎么说
How so?
他看到了罪恶的黑暗
He sees the blackness of sin.
你已经迷失了 而我即将迷失
You, already lost; me, about to be.
我不知道
I do not know.
勒穆瓦纳神父能看到神示
Father Lemoine sees visions!
这不是他第一次争执
This is not his first dispute.
如果我爱上某人 他就试图让她反对我
If I get attached to someone, he tries to turn her against me.
他差点把可怜的泰瑞斯逼疯
He nearly drove poor Thérèse mad.
我受够了 我会把他赶走的
I am beginning to have enough. I will get rid of him.
他住在离这里十里远的地方 我们需要他的时候他不能总是赶来
He lives ten leagues from here and cannot always come when we need him.
但是你会不再畅所欲言吗
But will you not come back up to talk comfortably?
是的 亲爱的院长 不再会了
No, dear Mother, no.
请允许我在这里过夜 否则明天我就不敢…
Please allow me to spend the night here or tomorrow I will not dare...
你呢 你会接受圣餐吗
And you? Will you receive communion?
当然
No doubt.
勒穆瓦纳神父什么也没说吗
Did Father Lemoine say nothing?
没有
No.
为什么
How come?
我们去忏悔罪行吧
We go to confess our sins;
我对你的情谊似乎不一样
my friendship for you does not seem one.
一起去我的房间吧
Let us go up to my room.
不 亲爱的院长 我向上帝发誓我不会去的
No, dear Mother, I swore to God I would not.
我不会再来见你了
I will not come to see you again.
让我们再做一会儿祷告 然后跟我走
Let us each say one more little prayer, then come with me.
不 院长 不
No, Mother, no.
请允许我在这里过夜
Give me permission to spend the night here.
很好
Very well.
只要你不再那样做
On condition that you do not do it again.
我想见见勒穆瓦纳神父
I wanted to see Father Lemoine.
你不会见到他的
You will not see him.
我是新的负责人
I am the new director.
发生什么事了
What happened?
我可以相信你的谨慎吗
Can I count on your discretion?
完全可以
Entirely.
我相信有人给大主教写过信
I believe someone wrote to the Archbishop.
他们说什么了
What did they say?
他住得太远了 他的道德太过严厉
He lives too far away; his morals are too austere.
他们怀疑他是杨森主义者 在这里制造分裂
They suspect he is a Jansenist; he sows division here
让修女们反对院长
and turns the nuns against their superior.
谁跟你说的
Who told you that?
他自己说的 我有时候能见到他
He did. I see him sometimes.
- 他跟我说起你 - 他都说什么了
- He told me about you. - What did he say?
说你会受到怜悯
That you were to be pitied;
说他只见过你一两次
that he had only seen you once or twice,
但他很怕你 他害怕…
but he was afraid for you. That he dreaded...
害怕什么
What?
算了 不说了
Let us leave it.
我是你的告解神父
I am your confessor;
我也可以向你倾诉
I can also confide in you.
我的例子也许会给你一点勇气
My example will perhaps give you a little courage.
我也没有神召 苏珊娜修女
I do not have a calling either, Sister Suzanne.
并且我从未有过
And I never have.
但我仍然选择皈依宗教
I also entered into religion
尽管我自己并不想
in spite of myself.
你遭受父母和上级的迫害
The persecution you received from your parents and superiors,
这些我都经历过
I too have received.
为什么要告诉我
Why tell me this?
为了让你忍受自己的处境
To teach you to bear your condition.
那是我们唯一的办法
That is our only resort.
我们无法逃避悲伤 但我们可以听之任之
We don't avoid sorrow but we are resigned.
好的修道士和女教徒会为他们的十字架感到高兴
Good monks and nuns rejoice in their cross;
他们预料到了屈辱
they anticipate mortifications;
用现在的幸福换取未来的幸福
they exchange their present happiness for future happiness.
至于我们…
And we...
苏珊娜修女
Sister Suzanne,
我们承受着同样的悲伤
we suffer the same sorrows
但是获得了什么回报呢
but for what reward?
我们在忏悔中被诅咒 就像其他人享受世俗之乐
We are damned in penance as surely as others in their worldly pleasures.
我们自我剥夺 他们享受快乐
We deprive ourselves; they have fun.
之后 相同的地狱在等待我们
And afterwards, the same Hell awaits us.
我们背负着锁链 毫无打破它们的希望
We are laden with chains, and no hope of breaking them.
亲爱的姐妹 试着拖动它们前行
Dear sister, let us try to drag them.
再见 我会再来见你的
Goodbye. I will come and see you again.
别 亲爱的院长 别 我保证
No, dear Mother, no, I promised.
这对我们都好
It is best for both of us.
我在你的灵魂中占据了太多空间
I take up too much space in your soul
反而挤占了属于上帝的空间
and that is lost to God.
这该由你评判吗
Is that for you to criticise?
你不进来吗
Will you not come in?
不 亲爱的院长 不了
No, dear Mother, no.
你不进来吗 圣苏珊娜
Will you not, Saint-Suzanne?
你不知道可能会发生什么
You do not know what may happen.
你不知道
You do not know!
你会杀了我
You will kill me...
苏珊娜
Suzanne?
苏珊娜
Suzanne.
苏珊娜
Suzanne...
圣克莱门特修女 为我祈祷吧
Sister Saint-Clement, pray for me.
泰瑞斯修女 为我祈祷吧
Sister Thérèse, pray for me.
你一定要
You must.
但是 勒穆瓦纳神父说了什么
But... What Father Lemoine said?
- 他说得很有道理 - 为什么这么说
- He was right to say it. - Why?
修女 听从我和勒穆瓦纳神父的建议吧
Sister, follow my advice and that of Father Lemoine
只要你活着就不用尝试弄懂
and try not to know why as long as you live.
但是如果我知道危险是什么 我就能更好避开
But if I knew what the danger was, I could better avoid it.
可能正好相反
It might be the opposite.
你对我的评价这么低吗
Is your opinion of me so low?
某些光亮是有害的
Some lights are harmful.
如果你知道得多 你的监管者就更不尊重你
Had you known more, your superior would have respected you less.
我不明白
I do not understand.
那更好
All the better.
感情怎么会有危险
How can affection be dangerous?
为什么说我们彼此相爱是错的呢
Why is saying we love each other wrong?
明明如此甜蜜
It is so sweet.
的确如此
That is true.
但也如此平常
And is it so common?
可怜的院长
Poor Mother Superior.
她不适合修道院生活
She was not made for convent life.
这就是你违背本性时会发生的事情
That is what happens when you go against nature.
有点疯狂
A sort of madness.
她疯了吗
Is she mad?
是的 她疯了 甚至还会更加疯狂
Yes, she is, and she will become even more so.
所有那些未经神召而皈依的人
And all those who enter without a calling -
你认为这就是他们的命运吗
do you think that is their fate?
不 不全是
No, not all of them.
有些人早已死去 或者逐渐习惯于此
Some die before, or become used to it,
或者短暂地抱有希望…
or hope for a while...
希望什么呢
Hope for what?
他们的誓言会被撤销
Having their vows rescinded.
然后呢
And then?
希望某天发现一扇门是开着的
Finding a door open one day,
希望修道院着火了
the convent catching fire,
希望回廊的墙壁倒塌
the cloister walls falling down...
你说得对
You are right.
我看到了那些幻觉
I saw those illusions.
我仍能看到
I still do.
当我们失去那些幻觉
And when we lose them
我们既会怨恨自己也会憎恶他人
we hate ourselves and hate others.
我们呼唤天国 寻找一扇漂亮的高窗
We call upon Heaven; we look for a nice, high window,
一口井 一根绳子
a well, a rope...
有时候确实能够找到
Sometimes we find them.
有些人激动不已
Some become furious.
有些人把希望带进坟墓里
Some take their hopes with them to the grave.
那些是幸运儿
Those are the lucky ones.
毫无疑问
And no doubt
我最为不幸
the most unlucky.
哦 神父
Oh, Father,
我对听到的事情感到抱歉
I am sorry to have heard you.
- 为什么 - 我之前还不那么了解自己…
- Why? - I did not know myself...
但我现在了解了
And now I do.
神父 我真该死
Father, I am damned.
泰瑞斯修女
Sister Thérèse,
我们的院长怎么样了
how is our Mother?
- 她快不行了 - 我该怎么做
- It will kill her. - What must I do?
现在为时已晚
You could have done much.
姐妹 我不明白
Sister, I do not understand.
我不能再等了
I cannot wait any longer.
我必须和你谈谈
I must speak to you.
神父 在告解室之外我是不会见你的
Father, I will not see you outside the confessional any more.
听我说 苏珊娜
Listen to me, Suzanne.
今天我必须向你坦白
Today I must confess to you.
有什么事 离我远点
What is the matter? Leave me alone.
你让我失去了本来有的勇气
You made me lose what courage I still had,
但是我…
and yet I...
走开
Go away.
我如何能给你那样的勇气
How can I give you that courage?
我自己都没有
I don't have it myself.
听我说 从来没有两个人像你和我一样
Listen to me. Never have two beings been so alike as you and I.
你内心的故事也是我的故事
The story of your soul is also the story of mine.
为什么说这些
Why do you say that?
走开
Go away.
快走开
Go away!
我们都被诅咒了
We are damned together.
苏珊娜 你也是
Suzanne, you too
你在诅咒你自己
are damning yourself.
别说了
Stop.
苏珊娜 你必须逃走
Suzanne, you must flee.
万事俱备
Everything is ready.
一辆马车等着你 我有朋友接应
A carriage will wait for you. I have friends.
你会很安全的
You will be in safety.
你可以忘记你的痛苦
You can forget your suffering.
发现他们试图向你隐藏的世界
Discover the world they tried to hide from you.
我不相信你
I do not believe you.
我不能相信你
I cannot believe you.
难道你不想要自由吗
Do you not want to be free?
想…
Yes...
从未如此想要自由 但不是以这种方式
More than ever - but not like that.
这是唯一的办法
It is the only way.
给我两天时间
Give me two days.
到明天傍晚
Until tomorrow evening.
半夜十一点到十二点之间 在花园底下的井边等着我
Be at the bottom of the garden by the well between 11 and midnight.
- 苏珊娜 - 我在 姐妹
- Suzanne! - Yes, Sister.
去马厩说你的祷告语吧
Go to the stable and say your Deo gratias.
看看她努力当修女的样子 圣玛丽修女
Look at her pretending to be a nun. Sister Saint-Mary!
逃跑的女孩抓住了吗
Did the girl who ran away get caught?
还没 但是把逃跑的修道士抓回来了
Not yet, but the monk was brought back.
他们是怎么处理的
What did they do?
把他交给他的监管者了
Gave him back to his superiors.
他将在地牢里度过一生
He'll spend his life in a dungeon.
如果那个找到女孩 她也是同样的下场
The girl too, if she is found.
这就是蔑视宗教的代价
Serves them right for scorning religion.
玛丽 怎么了
Marie, what is the matter?
没怎么
Nothing.
你不会愚蠢到被那个女孩感动了吧
Are you silly enough to be moved by that girl?
她要做的只有吃饭 喝水 祈祷和睡觉
All she had to do was eat, drink, pray and sleep.
这样的人生多好啊
It was a good life.
不太喜欢在这种天气去河边
Not like going to the river in this weather.
我们只了解自己的痛苦
We only know our own suffering.
她是个顽皮的女孩 上帝会惩罚她的
She is a naughty girl and God will punish her.
你不能待在这里 孩子 跟我来
You must not stay there, my child. Come with me.
跟我来
Follow me.
你收到我的留言了吗
Did you take my message?
给马努里先生的吗 他去世了
To Mr Manouri? He is dead.
这不是真的
It is not true.
别哭 这里还有其他人
Do not cry, there are others.
更漂亮 更可爱了
Better-looking and more loving.
我们不是在嫉妒
And we are not jealous!
原谅我 上帝
Forgive me, Lord.
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字幕 维多利亚·布里顿
正如一个对航海一无所知的人
And just like the madness of a man who, not knowing how to sail,
不经领航就贸然出海一样
might take to the sea with no one to pilot him,
一个人不经上帝意志的引导就进入宗教生活
is the madness of a creature who enters upon religious life
也是一种疯狂的表现
without God's will to guide her.