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蒂姆正在厘清自己的人生 Tim's organizing his life.
他想把这个给你 He wants you to have this.
他不想听你的消息 He doesn't want to hear from you,
喝牛奶是你的爱好吗 Is this milk drinking a habit of yours?
我父母觉得这样能长高些 I think my parents were hoping it would make me taller.
-谁是我的乖仔 -是我 是我 Who's my boy? - I am! I am!
我吓到你了吗 Do I scare you?
你怎么会吓到我 Why would you scare me?
我能把持住我自己 I can handle myself.
问题是“你能把持得了我吗” The question is, "Can you handle me? "
麦克劳德先生是我们的安全主管 Mr. McLeod's our head of security.
我们已经向那些被举报 We've begun issuing summons
或疑似同性恋的人发出了传票 to those reported or suspected of homosexuality
你是否认为自己 Have you ever considered yourself
爱上过另一个男人 to be in love with another male?
猪猡滚出卡斯楚 猪猡 Pigs out of the Castro! Pigs一
你想找死吗 快过来 Trying to get yourself killed? Come on!
我爱一个男人20年 I've loved a man for 20 years
并承担了这么做的后果 and lived with the consequences.
你知道这需要多大的勇气吗 Do you have any idea what fucking courage that takes?
杰罗姆与我们住在一起 Jerome lives with us.
他是我之前的学生 我们认识时他无家可归 Former student. Homeless when I met him.
金伯利 你父亲身上是有些 Kimberly, there are things about your father
我无法理解的东西 I don't understand.
但我热爱我们打造的生活 But I loved the life we made together.
我爸要是跟你一样酷就好了 I wish my dad could be as cool as you.
你父亲在用他所知的最好方式爱着你 Your father loves you the best way he knows how.
四季宝 我儿子死了 Skippy, my boy's dead.
他死了 He's dead.
我的青春喂了狗 I've wasted all this time.
-没有 -我浪费了人生 No. My life on you.
我有急事得出趟门 I have to make a quick trip.
就两三天 Just two or three days.
房屋中介星期五会过来 The rental agent's coming on Friday.
希望你在那之前回家 I'd like you to be home for that.
我会的 I will
露西 你是我的一切 Lucy, you're everything to me.
我要真是你的一切 If I was everything,
你就不会出这趟门了 you wouldn'tibe going where you're going.
你说你认识州长的熟人 You said you know someone connected to the governor.
说服他安排我和 Convince him to set up a meeting
州长的幕僚长见个面 with the governor's chief of staff.
四季宝 我不能打那个电话 Skippy, I can't make that call.
我还要考虑家庭 I have a family.
我有权利保护他们 I have a right to protect them.
我还有权利活下去呢 And I have a right not to die!
蒂姆癫痫又发作了 Tim's had another seizure.
情况很严重 但他们把他从死亡线上拖了回来 It was severe, but they were able to pull him out of it.
我似乎总是在寻找那些 I seem to be always searching for something
让我迷失其中的东西 to lose myself in completely.
就像神学院的说的 It's like we say in seminary,
逾越一切 beyond measure.
我一定要走 I have to go.
我必须忘记你 I have to get over you.
我可没培养我家乖仔当军人 I didn't raise my boy to be a soldier.
霍克 Hawk.
答应我你不会写信 Promise you won't write.
我不会的 I won't.
请讲 Yeal
是我 It's me
露西 Lucy.
我以为是医院打来的 Yeah, I thought it was the hospital.
过去两天发生了很多事 It's been a rough 48 hours.
-霍克 -抱歉我没打给你 Hawk- I'm sorry I haven't called.
霍克 Hawk.
我来了 I'm here.
来哪儿了 Where?
旧金山 San Francisco.
我没收到你消息 很担心 I didn't hear from you. I was worried.
一切都还好吗 孩子们还好吗 Is everything all right? Are the kids okay?
家里没事 大家都很好 No, nothing like that. Everyone's fine.
我是担心你 I was worried about you.
现在也很担心 I am worried
我没事 No, I'm fine.
我很好 I'm fine.
那房子的事呢 What about the house?
搬家公司那边 The movers
这些都先搁置了 AlI that's on hold
我懂了 I See
咱俩得谈谈 We need to talk.
同性恋平权组织向加州州长 California Governor George Deukmejian
乔治·杜克梅吉安施压 is being pressured by gay rights advocates
要求他签署旨在防止艾滋病患者 to sign legislation aimed at preventing
被非法解雇或剥夺住房的法案 AIDS patients from being fired or denied housing.
瞧瞧谁来了 Look who s here.
我带你去散个步吧 Let's take you for a stroll.
把我围巾掖好 Careful with the scarf.
我可不想跟伊莎多拉一个下场 I dont want to go out like Isadora.
但据州长回应 According to the governor,
对艾滋患者的同情 compassion for victims of AIDS
并不足以构成 is not a sufficient reason
修改现行法律的理由 to make a significant change in existing law.
他说 鲜有证据表明 He says, There is too little evidence"
-关了吧 -这些团体 Turn it off. "...that these groups
正面临歧视 face discrimination.
可耻 可耻 Shamel Shamel
我帮你带了补给 Replenished your supplies.
你感觉怎么样 How're you feeling?
我今天下午会去找我朋友 I'm seeing my friend this afternoon.
那个募资人 他认识州长的幕僚长 The fundraiser, who knows the governor s chief of staff.
安排你要的会面 That meeting that you wanted,
你跟我大吵一架的那个 that we had the big fight over.
蒂姆 Tim.
我昨晚醒来时 无法确定自己身处何处 I woke up last night, and I didn't know where I was.
我知道我在医院 但我什么都不记得 I knew I was in a hospital, but I couldn't remember.
我不知道自己是谁 I didn't know who I was.
你是蒂莫西·大卫·劳克林 Timothy David Laughlin.
斯塔顿岛那个虔诚可爱的男生 That adorable Catholic boy from Staten Island.
他们都说伏特加味道小 It's not true what they say about vodka.
但我能从你身上闻到 I can smell it on you.
你认真的吗 霍克 Really, Hawk?
这才早上10点 10: 00 in the morning.
见过我朋友后 我再跟你汇报 I'll let you know how it goes with my friend.
顺便说下 不客气 You're welcome, by the way.
这是什么 What's this?
放弃抢救同意书 A do- not- resuscitate order.
我下次癫痫发作 There's a chance I could come out
还有机会靠呼吸机活下来 of the next seizure on life support.
社工让我考虑一下 The social worker thinks I might want to consider.
怎么了 What?
我很快回来 I'll be back.
需要我带点什么吗 What can I get you?
舒缓喉咙的 冰棍行吗 Something for your throat, a Popsicle?
葡萄 Grape.
我以为你会想吃樱桃 I had you pegged for cherry.
露西来旧金山了 Lucy's in town.
她问我能不能见见你 She asked if she could see you.
打扰下 Excuse me.
蒂姆 该换液体了 Tim, I need to change your IV.
我不这么早喝酒 Too early for me.
知道我妻子现在在哪吗 Know where my wife is right now?
别让我猜 I give up.
费尔蒙酒店 The Fairmont Hotel,
旧金山的那家 The one in San Francisco.
你觉得挺有趣是吧 I'm glad you think it's funny.
先生 这里禁止抽烟 You can't smoke in here, sir.
真是的 Christ.
-谢谢 -不客气 Thank you Youlre welcome
我觉得杰罗姆也感染了 I think Jerome has the virus.
-什么 -他还没告诉我 What? - He hasn't told me,
但他最近总躲着我 but he's been cold to me lately.
我还常见他和弗兰基窃窃私语 I see him whispering with Frankie.
他为什么不告诉我呢 Why won't he tell me?
男孩子 Boys.
他们怎么了 What about em?
从不会主动说出心中的苦闷 Well, they never want to talk about whaf s eating at them.
你得主动出击 It's up to you to make the first move.
趁还来得及 Before it's too late.
太不公平了 It's not fair
这孩子才刚 The kid was just
弄清自己的取向 就染上了病毒 figuring himself out when it was spreading.
而我 终于安定下来 要认真跟弗兰基过日子 And here I was finally settled and faithful to Frankie.
那你呢 And you?
什么 What?
你的测试结果 Your test?
阴性 Negative.
王八蛋 Son of a bitch.
依然刀枪不入 Stjll bulletproof.
是的 Yeah
大力开球 And the kick is wide,
军队目前处于领先地位 keeping Army in the lead.
转播稍作暂停 提醒各位听众 We'll pause now to remind our listeners
红十字会正夜以继日地 that the Red Cross is working tirelessly
帮助成千上万的匈牙利难民 on behalf of thousands of Hungarian refugees
逃离苏联入侵 fleeing the brutal Soviet invasion.
-谁赢着呢 -军队 - Who's winning? - Army.
通过人道主义捐赠 ...humanitarian effort by donating- -
你今天任务还多着呢 You're having a big day.
新书房安顿下来了 Getting settled in your new study?
这里永远都是你父亲的书房 Mm. This'll always be your father's study.
-这是什么 -一封电报 What's this? - A telegram.
刚发给你的 It just came for you.
有什么要紧事吗 Anything to worry about?
没事 是我老板 休息日也不放过我 No. It's just the boss dogging me on my day off.
亲爱的 帮你操劳的老公倒杯啤酒好吗 Sweetheart, would you fetch your hardworking husband a beer?
乐意至极 Happy to.
谢谢 Thanks.
富勒先生 Mr. Fuller
劳克林下士 Corporal Laughlin.
你没守住诺言 You broke your promise.
“答应我你不会写信的”但你还是写了 Promise you won't write. "You wrote.
你先发电报的 真是惜字如金啊 You sent a telegram. Very succinct
霍克 匈牙利难民 做点什么 "Hawk. The Hungarian refugees. Do something. '
要是苏联没入侵匈牙利 If the Soviets hadn't invaded Hungary,
我恐怕就再也听不到你消息了 I might never have heard from you.
我只是波尔克堡一介军职文员 I was stuck behind a desk at Fort Polk.
人微言轻 但恰好认识一个 I couldn't do anything, but I knew someone
国务院的人 at the State Department who could.
还在为反共事业奋战呢 Still fighting the anti- communism cause.
是啊 Yes.
但真没想到会有工作邀约 But I didn't expect a job offer.
别急 你还没拿到呢 Well, you don't have the job yet.
来吧 Come on.
-下午好 -你好 Good afternoon Hello.
国会通过救济法案后 When Congress passed the Relief Act,
我们便成立了这个办公室 we set up this office to process
全力处理匈牙利难民事宜 as many Hungarian refugees as we can,
你们想招多少人 How many positions are you looking to fill?
目前需要五个 Right now? Just five.
你的申请还在处理中 Your application may take some time to process.
但像你经验如此丰富的老兵 But a veteran with your experience
通过安全审查不成问题 shouldn't have any trouble getting a security clearance.
再说了 你是富勒先生推荐的 And you have a better- than- average chance
肯定比别人更有机会 of being selected, considering you've been
被录用 recommended by Mr. Fuller.
他说你曾为麦卡锡参议员工作 He tells me you used to work for Senator McCarthy.
没错 That's right. Yeah.
那些在54年弹劾他的怂包 他们错了 Those cowards who censured him in 54 were wrong.
历史会证明这一点 History will show.
他是个伟大的美国人 He's a great American.
看起来挺顺利哈 Looks like that went well.
霍克 还有安全审查这一关呢 Hawk, getting security clearance,
那是麦克劳德的部门 that's McLeod's department.
M部门 The M Unit.
不用担心麦克劳德 Yeah, you don't have to worry about McLeod.
他马上要升任爱尔兰大使了 He's going to be the ambassador to Ireland.
揭露变态终于有了回报 Exposing perverts pays off.
M部门虽说还在营业 The M Unit's still in business,
但势头也大不如前 but they're running out of steam.
对这份工作开心吗 You excited about the job?
很开心 I am.
真不知该如何感谢你 I don't know how to thank you.
我倒是有几个主意 I could think of a few ways.
我没这个意思 That's not what I meant.
上一次我们俩 The last time you and I
我为了摆脱你 只好去参军 I had to join the Army to get away from you.
再陷进去怎么办 What's next?
去外籍军团喽 The Foreign Legion?
感谢你的帮助 Thanks for your help.
回见 See you.
奥斯本给我消息后 我就通知你 I'll let you know when I hear from Osborne.
谢谢 Thanks.
请放那边 Just right over there,
-好的 -谢谢 Sure. Thank you.
-给你的 亲爱的 -谢谢 Here you go, sweetheart Thank you.
-放这里 这里 -完美 AII right. Right there Perfect.
你怎么了 Mm. What?
他在踢我 He's kicking.
-我能 -把手给我 Can I- - - Don't be afraid to touch.
你确定怀的是个男孩吗 You're sure it's a boy in there?
我有预感 I have a hunch.
爸爸不都想要男孩吗 Doesn't every man want a boy?
你跟孩子都健健康康的 我就知足了 I just want you and the baby to be healthy
女士 Ma'am?
放那 Right here.
他还真活跃啊 Oof. - He's going to town there.
打扰下 Excuse me.
这个您想放哪 Where would you like this?
那里就好 Right there is perfect.
我们再去拿剩下的 We'll get the rest.
谢谢 Thank you.
我负责为沙利文议员写演讲稿 I'm writing speeches for Representative Sullivan.
-密苏里出来的 -嗯 Missouri's own. - Mm- hmm.
-你一定把她当偶像 -当然 She must be a hero of yours. She is.
希望有一天 我也能竞选她的席位 And I intend to run for her seat someday.
但最理想的情况 Best part,
就是不当联邦政府公务员 I am no longer on the federal government's payroll,
联调局也不会再来翻我家内衣抽屉了 so no risk of the FBI raiding my underwear drawer.
你呢 投工作了吗 And you? Have you found something?
我刚向难民救济办公室递交了申请 I've applied for a position in the Refugee Relief Office.
国务院喔 At State?
是的 And, yes.
没错 是他推荐了我 Yes, he recommended me.
-别担心他已经变了 -人真的会变吗 Don't worry, he's changed. - Do people change?
我就变了 我已经不带着偶像滤镜看人了 I have. I've stopped worshipping false idols.
麦卡锡 辛主教 McCarthy, Bishop Sheen
甚至是 那个人 Even you- know- who.
你不为我骄傲吗 Aren't you proud of me?
上周卡洛琳寄给我一封信 I got a letter last week from Caroline.
她已经结婚了 She's married
跟她丈夫住在俄亥俄 Ljving in Ohio with her husband.
这是她的宝宝 That's her baby.
我有时会想 如果当初 I wonder sometimes, when it all happened,
我愿意和她一起离开华盛顿 if I had offered to leave D. C. with her
找个乡野处安身立命 and find some cottage somewhere.
我俩现在可能会是被八卦村民 We could have been those two eccentric old ladies
指指点点的两个古怪老太 that all the busybodies in town whisper about.
猫咪成群 却没老公的老太太 The one with all the cats and no husbands.
你看过《麦围里的守望者》吗 Have you read The Catcher in the Rye?
-没 -里面有句话 Mm- mm. There's a line in it.
大概是 一个孩子如果想追求金戒指 omething like, "If a kid wants to grab for the gold ring,
你便让他去追求 you have to let him do it.
即使他们得不到 也会从中成长 If they fall, they fall
金戒指是什么 What's the gold ring?
不知塞林格会不会同意 I don't know if Salinger would agree,
但我觉得是爱情 but I think it's love.
我想找个病人 蒂莫西·劳克林 I'm here to see a patient, Timothy Laughlin.
511房间 往前走 Room 511, straight ahead,
我不需要戴手套吧 I don't need to wear gloves, do I?
不用 别担心 No, you're perfectly safe.
谢谢你 Thank you.
我可以坐吗 May I?
你还好吗 How are you?
我身上有卡波西肉瘤 癫痫反复发作 I have KS recurring seizures,
头发掉的不戍样子 还有啥来着 哦对 and my hair is falling out What else? Um
社工建议我签下不抢救同意书 Uh, my cial worker suggested I sign
你呢 还好吗 a do- not- resuscitate order. How are you?
政府应该为你们做更多 The government ought to do more about this.
这太可怕了 It's terrible.
他们是可以做得更多 They could do more.
但你们富人就要交更高的税 But people like you would have to pay higher taxes.
我父亲曾主张建立全国医保 My father used to argue for a national healthcare system.
他认为国家有责任照顾自己的公民 He believed government should take care of its citizens.
我也这么认为 So do I.
你不该总是以貌取人 It's not always wise to judge someone on appearances.
你说得对 You're right.
这家医院跟我想象中不太一样 This hospital is not what I expected it to be.
这是全国唯一一家 It's the only one like it in the country,
把艾滋病人当人的医院 where people with AIDS are treated like human beings.
抱歉富勒太太 你来这干什么 I'm sorry, Mrs. Fuller, but why are you here?
我不知道 I don't know.
你对我丈夫心中很有分量 You mean something to my husband.
我以为只有见到你 我才会知道 I suppose I had to see you so I would know.
知道什么 Know?
你对他到底多重要 How much you mean to him.
你不能直接问他吗 Shouldn't you ask him?
好吧 Right.
你从他那里问不到答案 That wouldn't get you anywhere.
我跟霍克的时光总是很短暂 常常一别几年 My time with Hawk was rushed, with years in between.
他大半生都陪在你身边 You had him most of his life.
但你却贯穿始终 But you were always there.
我永远都活在你的阴影下 I could never get away from you.
-这又不是比赛 -当然是 - It's not a contest. Of course it is.
从来都是 It always has been.
那你为什么不离开他 Then why didn't you leave him?
因为我们有段美好的生活 Because we had a good life.
还有孩子 And children.
后来 在杰克逊 And then when Jackson...
你不会想听这些的 You don't want to hear this.
给我讲讲吧 Please.
杰克逊去世后 那痛苦让人难以承受 When Jackson died, it was so unbearable.
我唯一的安慰 The only comfort I had 这就是未来
就是知道霍克懂得这种痛苦 was knowing that Hawk understood that suffering,
他跟我感同身受 felt the same way. 这就是未来
如黑当时我是独自承受 If I had had to bear that alone,
也许根本熬不到今天 I wouldn't have lived through it.
我该走了 I should be going.
富勒太太 谢谢你 Mrs. Fuller, thank you
谢谢你来看我 for coming to see me.
我也是帮朋友的忙 It's a favor for a friend.
他想和州长手下的人见个面 He'll settle for anyone on the governor's staff,
最好是朗尼根 but he's really hoping to meet with Lonigan.
-霍华德·朗尼根吗 -对 Howard? - Yeah
你朋友要求挺高啊 Your friend's aiming high.
你为州长筹了那么多钱 You raise a lot of money for the governor.
你这个朋友是什么来路 How do you know this friend?
他其实是露西的朋友 He's actually Lucy's friend.
他想就这种疾病 He just...He wants to have
跟政府来一次文明的对话 a civil conversation about this disease
这种病害死了很多人 It's killing an awful lot of people.
是啊 但害死的群体不合时宜 Yeah, but it's killing the wrong people,
或者说 正合时宜 or the right people,
取决于你怎么看了 depending on how you look at it.
那你怎么看呢 How do you look at it?
资助罹患癌症的儿童 会带来选票和捐款 He ping kids with cancer gives you votes and donations.
但得了艾滋的基佬 管他们作甚 Fags with AIDS, who gives a shit?
再说 路是他们自己选的 Besides, they made a choice.
没人会为了滚个床单 Nobody chooses to get a terminal disease
就故意去得绝症 because they wanted to fuck somebody
你的老二之前不也 God knows, you put your dick in plenty of holes
插过很多洞吗 back in the day.
你怎么还针对起我了 Are you taking this personally?
不是的 抱歉 No. [chucklesj Sorry.
只是 露西 呃 Ah. Lucy is. It's just, uh,
我只想维持家里和平 你懂得 I'm trying to keep the peace at home, you know.
老婆开心 生活才能幸福 Happy wife, happy life.
你这忙不好帮啊 霍克 It's a big ask, Hawk.
现在人人谈艾色变 Nobody wants to talk about freaking AIDS.
-两杯 -买单 宝贝 Two of them. Just the bill, baby?
她太小了 She's young.
我能说啥呢 我喜欢紧致的 What can I say? I like it tight.
这倒让我想起 Yep. That reminds me
共和党大会上那位国会议员的女秘书 of that congressman's aide at the Republican Convention.
那是 1980年 What was that, 1980?
我记得你俩在房里 Didn't security take her out of your room
嗨得不能行 in the middle of the night
吵得四邻都不得安宁 because the two of you were shit faced
-保安只好大半夜把她请出去 -对 and making so much noise? - Yeah.
天啊 Christ.
琳达知道这事吗 Did Linda ever find out about that?
这就卑鄙了 霍克 That's low, Hawk.
即使是你 Even for you.
我尽量帮露西的朋友争取机会吧 I'lI see what I can do to help Lucy's friend,
但别抱太大希望 but don't get your hopes up.
参议员乔瑟夫·麦卡锡 Thousands appeared to pay their respects
因肝炎于周四在贝塞斯达海军医院逝世 to Senator Joseph McCarthy, who died of hepatitis
数千人前来送他最后一程 at Bethesda Naval Hospital on Thursday.
超过7名参议员 副总统尼克松 Some 70 senators, Vice President Nixon
联调局局长胡佛也来到了现场 and FBI Director Hoover were in attendance
明天 麦卡锡的遗体将被转移至 Tomorrow, McCarthy's body will be moved
圣马太大教堂做安魂弥撒 to St. Matthew's Cathedral for a Requiem Mass.
借过 Sorry.
举枪致敬 Present armsl
安息吧 Rest in eace.
感谢您为国服务 先生 You served our country well, sir.
愿您安息 参议员 Rest in peace, Senator
上帝保佑你 先生 God bless you, sir.
你是富勒先生的朋友 You're Mr. Fuller's friend.
没错 我认识你吗 That's right. Do I know you?
舔席的 Cocksuckerl
别脏了这地方 You don't belong here.
滚出去 Get out of here!
嘿 小心点 Hey, hey, careful.
我就知道你会在这儿 Hey. had a hunch you'd be here.
来吧 Come on.
露西逼我交出了公寓 Lucy made me give up my apartment,
所以我转移到了这里 so I use this place.
这是露西一个叔祖父传给我们的 We inherited it after one of Lucy's great uncles passed.
我们计划秋天孩子出生后 We plan to sell in the fall,
把它卖掉 after we've settled with the baby.
你用这房子来干啥 What do you do here, exactly?
读书 听音乐 Read, listen to music.
做男人独处时会做的那些事 What a man does when he gets the chance to be alone.
我可是忠诚婚姻的典范 I'm the epitome of marital fidelity.
要来杯啤酒吗 Can I get you a beer?
不想喝啤酒的话 我还准备了牛奶 There's milk, if you change your mind.
查尔斯·明格斯 Charles Mingus.
对 露西讨厌爵士乐 Yeah, Lucy hates jazz.
我们家只许放勃拉姆斯或科尔·波特 It's Brahms or Cole Porter at our house.
不过我怀疑 我一出门 Although I suspect, when I'm not home,
她会悄悄拿出猫王来听 she puts on that Elvis character.
干杯 Cheers.
你很幸福 You're happy.
定程度上的幸福 Happy within reason.
你怎么闷闷不乐的 So, tell me what's bothering you.
不会是在为麦卡锡难过吧 You can't be grieving for Tail Gunner Joe,
虽然我最终认清了麦卡锡的真面日 At the end, I saw McCarthy for what he was.
乌合之众利用者 煽动政治家 A rabble rouser, demagogue.
但我为什么有种怅然若失的感觉 So why do I feel like I've lost someone?
因为你认识他 Because you knew him.
说明你为人厚道 And you're a decent person.
他有信仰 有理想 He believed in something. He had ideals.
即便理想放错了地方 他也充满激情 And even if they were misguided, he held them with passion.
我也曾有这种激情 I used to have passion like that
卫生间能用吗 Does the bathroom work?
能用 在那边 Yeah, it's...down there.
婚姻忠诚的典范 The epitome of marital fidelity.
努力为之 I try.
你带男人来过吗 You bring men here?
你会是第一个 You'd be the first.
我不信 Don't believe you.
闭嘴 喝你的奶 Shut up and drink your milk.
我家小宝被军队塑造成男人了 The Army made a man out of my Skippy.
-是这样 -对 Yeah, it did. Yeah.
他现在长大了 He's all grown up now.
是长大了 I am.
好想被你操 I want you to fuck me.
操 Oh, shitl
天呐 Oh, Godl
我问问奥斯本你的申请到哪一步了 I'lI check with Osborne about your application.
这算是贿赂吗 Is that a bribe?
买我回到你身边 To get me to come back?
要我贿赂你才能回来吗 Do I have to bribe you to come back?
我打开你信的那一刻 就知道会是这样 I knew this was going to happen the minute I opened your letter.
想见我时 就去基督教青年宫留言 Leave a message for me at the Y.
我随叫随到 I'lI meet you here whenever you want.
不用那么麻烦 Better.
我在门框上给你放把钥匙 I'll leave the key on the frame above the door.
你想来就来 Come when you like.
我保证不会给你添麻烦的 I promise I won't be any trouble.
我不期望你给我什么 I don't have any expectations.
但我期望 I have plenty.
我到处都找不到 霍克 I can't find it, Hawk.
应该放洗衣店了吧 I think it's at the cleaner's.
没事 露西 我穿淡蓝色那件好了 It's okay, Luce. I'll wear the light blue.
等等 找到了 Wait. Here it is.
我快速帮你熨一下 I might have to give it a quick press.
怎么啦 What?
我去快速熨 I'm going to give it a quick press.
谢谢 亲爱的 Thanks, sweetheart.
该死 Oh, fuck.
-我可以进来吗 -当然 May I come in? - Of course.
-嗨 -嗨 Hi. Hi.
要来杯汽水吗 Would you like a soda?
谢谢 Thanks.
所以 你 So you...
你和蒂姆谈过了 You talked to Tim.
是的 I did.
抱歉我一走就是这么久 I'm sorry that I've been aw forso long.
我不该让你一直等下去 I shouldn't have left you hanging.
我知道搬家是个大工程 I know that the move's been stressful.
如果需要的话 If we have
我们可以把行程推迟一两个星期 we'll push things bac eek gr two.
我会找个借口告诉办公室的 I'lI let the office know. I'Ilmake some excuse,
我不去意大刑了 I'm not moving to Italy.
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
我不会去的 I'm not moving.
孩子们都在华盛顿 The kids are in D. C
我的生活也在华盛顿 My life is there.
但我得去意大利 I have to go to ftaly
-这是我的职责 -我知道 It's my job. lknow.
但我不会和你一起去 But I'm not going with you,
我做不到 I can't
好吧 那我不去了 Okay. Then I won't go
你不明白 You don't understand.
-我可以中请退休 -霍克 I'lI put in for retirement Hawk
-我们可以 -霍克 And you and I can make Hawk
你说你要来看他 我其实并不介意 When you first came out here, I didnft mind.
蒂姆对你很重要 Tim means something to you.
你们也应该好好告别 You deserve a chance to say goodbye.
我以为 And I thought
愿上帝原谅 God forgive me.
等他死了 一切就结束了 When he dies, it will be over
你们的关系 The two of you.
我们就终可以拥有 And you and I can hava our life togeuher
从未有过的幸福 in a way we never had it.
种没有他的生活 Free of him.
但现在我知道 But now I know
他永远都会在 it will never be over.
只要你想 我明天就可以飞回家 I'll fly home tomorrow, if that's what you want.
-我不是 -今天都行 你想要什么都行 That's not- - - Today. Whatever you need.
不 霍克 别说了 No, Hawk. Stop.
你这边还有未了的心愿 You have unfinished business here.
你需要坚持到底 You need to see it through
等你处理好了再回家 但我届时 Come home when you're ready, but when you do,
应该不会在家了 I don't think I'll be there.
我得去机场了 I have to leave for the airport.
我把航班提前了 I moved up my flight.
我会和金伯利跟马克住段时间 I will stay with Kimberly and Mark for a while.
你不能就这么抛弃 You're not going to throw away
我们三十年的婚姻 thirty years of marriage just like that.
我们还有家庭 We have a family.
-有孙儿 -那你的欲望呢 Grandbabies. - What about desire?
那种你对蒂姆的渴望呢 Like the kind you had for Tim.
-露西 -我一辈子都没体会过 Lucy- - I have lived my whole life
被人渴望的感觉 not knowing what it's like to be desired.
你知道我有多孤独吗 Do you have any idea how lonely that's been?
听着 我们能解决这一切 Look, we are going to work this out.
我们向来如此 We always do.
再见了 霍克 Goodbye, Hawk.
露西 Luce.
得分 That's game.
再来 你开球 Run it back. Your ball.
杰罗姆 Jerome.
开始啊 Take it outl
你究竟是怎么了 What's going on with you?
你一直在躲着我 You've been avoiding me.
跟我多说两句都嫌多 I can't get more than two words out of you.
-你他妈快开球 -不 Just fucking play. - No.
你到底怎么了 告诉我 What's going on with you? Tell me what's wrong
-没什么 -告诉我怎么了 Nothing. Tell me what's wrong.
-真没什么 -别骗我了 Nothing. Cut the bullshit.
我阳了 I'm fucking positive!
你满意了吗 You happy now?
别 求你 不要 Don't. Just...don't.
-对不起 -这不是 I'm sorr - It's not
-这不是你的事 -是我的事 - It's not about you It is about me.
你的事 就是我的事 It's about you, it's about me.
你现在还不明白吗 Don't you understand that by now?
我他妈的太蠢了 I was so fucking stupid.
都是我的错 It's my fault.
我 我不该滥交 I...I shouldn't have fucked around.
我该更小心的 I should have been more careful.
-我真傻 -不不不 Stupid. - No, no, no.
-我他妈真的 -你还年轻 It's too fucking- - - You're young.
你有弄清自己喜欢什么的权利 You have the right to explore.
作为黑人 这个国家已经 You're Black in a country
让你觉得矮人一等 that will try to convince you you ain't shit.
而同性恋的身份 更让你面临自己人的背弃 You're gay, and your own people may never accept you.
听我说 你听好了 But listen to me, and hear this.
你是无辜的 You're innocent.
你是 You are.
无辜的 innocent.
说出来 Say it.
说吧 说出来 Go on, say it.
-我是无辜的 -你是无辜的 I'm innocent You're innocent.
-我是无辜的 -你是无辜的 I'm innocent. You're innocent.
你是无辜的 You're innocent.
我是无辜的 I'm innocent.
-我是无辜的 -你是无辜的 I'm innocent. - You're innocent.
无辜的 你是无辜的 Innocent You re innocent.
你是无辜的 You're innocent.
信不信由你 保罗才是外向的那一个 Paul's the social one, believe it or not.
-嗯 -他喜欢跳舞 Mm. - Well, he loves to dance.
我们以前常去跳舞 Oh, we used to dance all the time.
保罗跳得特别棒 Paul's a terrific dancer.
见面安排上了吗 Did we get the meeting?
希望不大 It doesn't look good.
我俩还上过探戈课 We took tango lessons.
全班就两对儿同性恋 We were one of two gay couples in the class.
没人在乎 No one cared.
这就是旧金山 That's San Francisco.
你们在一起多久了 How long have you two been together?
十七年了 Seventeen years.
我们相识时年龄还很年轻 We were...We were babies when we met.
我不知道算不算一见钟情 I don't know if it was love at first sight,
但我们是在大学相识 but we met in college
然后就搬到一起住了 and moved in together right away.
从那以后 我们再也没分开超过一个星期 We haven't been apart for more than a week since.
我还有什么机会呢 ♪ What chance would I have ♪
为何点燃欲火 ♪ Why let the fire start? ♪
我渴望着 ♪ I long to know ♪
你甜蜜拥抱的悸动 ♪The thrill of your sweet embrace ♪
但当我们面对面时 ♪Yet when we're face to face ♪
我眼里只有你 ♪I just look at you ♪
我渴望着 ♪I long to know ♪
你甜蜜拥抱的悸动 ♪The thrill of your sweet embrace ♪
但当我们面对面时 ♪Yet when we're face to face...♪
有趣的是 It's funny.
什么 What?
等我拿下这份工作 When I get that job
我们就是同事了 we'll be colleagues.
我们天天都能见面 We'll see each other every day.
四季宝 Skippy.
怎么了 What?
你发出咕噜噜的声音 You were making noises.
我有点担心 I was worried.
-我没事 -好吧 - I'm okay. AlI right.
我好冷 I'm cold.
-霍克 -是吗 Hawk. - Yeah?
霍克 放弃抢救同意书 Hawk, the do- not- resuscitate- order.
我是不会签字的 I'm not gonna sign it.
我要是再昏迷 我希望他们把我救回来 If something happens to me, I want them to bring me back.
我要抗争下去 I wanna fight.
很好 Good.
我很开心 I'm glad.
-我去叫护士 -不 别去 - I'll get the nurse. - No. Don't.
不要走 Don't go.
没事的 伙计 It's all right, buddy.
这样好点没 That better?
好多了 Oh, yeah.
我觉得我在渐渐远去 I feel like I'm fading away.
每天都消逝一点点 I'm disappearing a little every day.
不会的 我在你身边 No, I'm here.
有我在 I've got you.
拜托了 戴夫 Come on, Dave.
我没法安排朗尼根见你朋友 I can't get Lonigan to meet with your friend.
听着 如果你是在为那个玩笑生气 Listen, if this was about the joke I made,
就当是我嘴欠 I was just kidding around.
艾滋病对州长来说是个雷区 AIDS is a touchy issue for the governor right now.
听着 会有个筹款晚宴 Look, there's this thing, a fundraiser gala.
我可以给你弄几张票 I could get you a couple tickets.
-什么时候 -周五晚上 When? Friday night.
朗尼根会出席的 Lonigan'll be there
我可以安排你俩聊上五分钟 I can arrange for you to have five minutes with him.
也许将来方便时 他会见见露西的朋友 Maybe he'll agree to see Lucy's friend at some point.
将来方便时 我不接受 At some point? No, that's not good enough.
我都答应他了 戴夫 I promised him, Davel
你不明白 You don't understand.
我欠他的 I owe him.
我只能做到这一步了 It's the best I can do.
你说露西也来了 记得带上她 You said Lucy was in town. Bring her.
四季宝 Skippy.
你不会恰巧有套燕尾服吧 I don't suppose you happen to own a tuxedo.
已故参议员约瑟夫·麦卡锡 Roy Cohn, the lawyer and right- hand man
50年代的红色恐怖期间的 to the late Senator Joseph McCarthy
律师兼得力助手 罗伊·科恩 during the infamous Red Scare of the 1950s, is dead.
今早于马里兰州贝塞斯达去世 享年59岁 Cohn died today in Bethesda, Maryland, at the age of 59.
死因为心脏病发作和人类T细胞淋式病毒 The causes were a heart attack and complications
引起的并发症 通常认为这种病毒会导致艾滋病 from the HTLV- III virus, which is thought to cause AIDS.
他职业生涯的最后二十年被毁于 The last two decades of his career were marred- -
罗伊·科恩死了 Roy Cohn died.
看来那孙子也有人类的一面 Guess that fucker was human after all.
-嗯 -你看怎么样 Hmm. - What do you think?
正好是蒂姆的尺寸 It's just about Tim's size.
我还做了这个 Ah, got this too.
虽然不是正式黑领结 不过 Not officially black tie, but
怎么啦 What?
每次都是你 It's always been you.
我怎么了 Me?
你每次都是坚强的那个 You've always been the stronger one.
从来如此 Always.
他告诉你了 He told you?
会没事的 It's gonna be okay
我 我只是不想让他失望 I...Ijust don't want to let him down.
你不会的 宝贝 You won t, baby
我们不会的 We won't.
我们回家了 We're here,
你觉得霍克知道自己要面对什么吗 Do you think Hawk has any idea what he's getting into?
绝对不知道 Not a clue.
马上就到 Almost there.
好了 你没事吧 There. You okay?
-好了 -他来了 大家伙 AII right- There he is, big guy.
-慢着点 -谢谢 There you go. - Thank you.
露西 Lucy
你怎么回家了 What are you doing home?
你妈妈给我留言了 Well, your mother left word for me.
-医生来过了 -我有点害怕 The doctor was here? - I had a little scare,
但没什么问题 but it turned out to be nothing.
海伦说你不舒服一周了 Helen said you'd been feeling ill all week.
你知道她说话有多夸张 You know how she exaggerates.
我是不舒服 但这是正常的 I'm uncomfortable, but that's natural,
一天几小时罢了 and it's only a few hours a day
你从来没说过 You never said anything.
我给你办公室打过电话 但你出去了 I tried you at the office but you were out.
-昨天吗 -昨天 Yesterday? - Yesterday.
还有前天 And the day before.
我没事 I'm fine.
担心宝宝是女人的工作 It's a woman's job to worry about the baby
你有你的工作 我也有我的 You have your work, I have mine
走吧 回去工作吧 Go on. Go back to the office
快去吧 Shoo.
行吧 AlI right.
晚餐时见 I'll see you at dinner, then.
没问题 Of course,
对不起 I'm sorry.
是参议院事务办的富勒先生吧 Mr. Fuller. Senate Affairs.
正是 That's right.
有什么需要我的 What can I do for you?
事关一位匈牙利难民救济办公室的 It's about a fellow who's getting close to a job
职位候选人 in the Hungarian Refugee Relief program.
他叫什么 His name?
蒂莫西·劳克林 Timothy Laughlin.
有什么不妥吗 And the issue is?
在你曾审问过我的那个方面 He's got a few problems in the area
他有些问题 you once questioned me about.
奥斯本办公室给我发了一封信 Osborne's office sent me this letter.
说我不满足他们的安全标准 I don't satisfy their security considerations.
你知道这什么意思吧 有人告诉他们 You know what that means? Somebody's told them that- -
嘘 冷静 Shh. Calm down.
说实话 玛丽 玛丽 Honest, Mary. Mary?
我不懂 I don't understand.
我的军队生活一清二白 I have lived a perfectly clean life in the Army.
华盛顿没有一个人知道这件事 There isn't a soul in Washington who knows.
是霍金斯干的 It was Hawkins.
不 不可能 No, that's impossible.
他昨晚来找我了 He came to see me last night.
他想让我来告诉你 He wanted me to tell you.
所以我才请你吃午饭的 That's why I invited you to lunch.
他向M部门举报你了 He reported you to the M Unit.
我不明白 I don't understand.
他要趁着你还没拿到这份工作时举报你 He wanted to do it now before you got the job,
这样他们就不会开展调查了 so there won't be an investigation.
他们就 你会 They'll just You will be.
终身不得在联邦政府 Be banned from working for the federal'government
任职 for the rest of my life.
他知道我多么想要这份工作 He knew how much I wanted that job.
为什么 Why?
你入职后 关系就会变麻烦 You'd become inconvenient.
-他不是这种人 -他是 He isn't like that. He is.
他正是这种人 He is exactly like that.
-我要去见他 -你见不到他的 - I have to see him. - You can't.
露西进产房了 Lucy went into labor.
他们在锡布利纪念医院待了一晚上了 They've been at Sibley Memorial all night.
谢谢 Thanks.
我在梦里与你相见 ♪ I can dream about you ♪
如果今晚无法拥你入怀 ♪ If I can't hold you tonight...♪
给 Here you go.
我在梦里与你槌见 ♪ I can dr ream about you ♪
怎么了 What?
感觉像约会似的 It feels like we're on a date.
先给你打个预防针 我可能会和别人调情 I should warn you, I may make a pass.
给女孩希望 是吧 A girl can hope, can't she?
戴夫在那 Oh. There's Dave.
准备好了吗 You ready?
好 好 AII right all right.
很高兴见到你们 你们能来太好了 Nice to see you. So glad you could come.
玩得开心 Enjoy the evening.
-戴夫 -霍克 - Dave. - Hawk.
露西来不了 我就带着这位朋友来了 Lucy couldn't make it, so I brought the friend
我和你提过的 - I was telling you about.
戴夫·霍尔姆 蒂姆·劳克林 Dave Holm. Tim Laughlin.
认识你真高兴 Nice to meet you.
我们希望能和朗尼根先生见上一面 We're looking forward to meeting Mr. Lonigan.
如黑州长来的话 或许还能见见州长 Maybe even the governor, if he makes an appearance.
-我不知道霍华德在不在 -他就在那里 - I'm not sure Howard's here. He's right there.
是哦 Oh, right
但我现在不想打扰他 Well, I don't want to interrupt him right now.
要不晚一点吧 但我也说不准 Maybe later. But, uh, I can't make any promises.
戴夫 他大老远来见朗尼根 Dave, he came all this way to meet Lonigan- -
-没关系 -我们见不到是不会走的 - It's fine. We're not leaving.
没关系 It's fine.
我们等等吧 We'll wait.
我出去透透气 I'm gonna get some air.
听着 霍克 Look, Hawk
无论如何 州长肯定会否决艾滋病法案的 the governor's gonna veto the AIDS bill anyway,
所以让露西的朋友跟朗尼根见面 so introducing Lucy's friend to Lonigan,
完全就是浪费时间 - it's a waste of time.
-别往心里去 -我吗 No hard feelings. Me?
-让我把话说清楚 -干嘛啊 Just to be clear What the fuck?
蒂姆不是露西的朋友 Im isn't Lucy's friend.
他是我的朋友 He's my friend.
他刚从医院出来 He just got out of the hospital.
他住院的时候 我一直陪着他 I was there with him the whole time.
我爬上了他的床 还把他抱在怀里 I climbed into his bed and held him.
晚宴很棒 戴夫 Great party, Dave.
-你没事吧 -没事 You okay? - Yeah.
四季宝 Skippy.
很久以前 我做了伤害你的事 A long time ago, I did something to hurt you.
我觉得 就连我出现在你的生活中 也会对你 And I think, even being in your life hurt you
-造成某种伤害 -霍克 - in some way. Hawk.
你不用 You don't have.
我这辈子一直在等待上帝爱我 I spent most of my life waiting for God to love me.
后来我发现 唯一重要的事情是 And then I realized the only thing that matters
我爱上帝 is I love God.
和你也是一样的 It's the same with you. ，°·
我爱了你一辈子 I have loved you my whole life.
除了你 我从来没有爱过别人 I've never loved anyone but you.
你是我深入骨髓 倾尽所有去爱的人 You were my great, consuming ve
大部分人遇不到这样的爱 And most people don't get one of those
我遇到了 I did.
我不后悔 I have no regrets.
你瞧瞧 Mm. Wouid you look at that?
在公共场合吻我 世界也没有毁灭 In public, and the world didn't come to an end.
蒂姆 Tim.
你来做什么 What are you doing here?
把你的名牌给我 I'l take your badge.
马库斯要和我一起回晚宴 Marcus is going inside with me.
他需要你的名牌才能进去 He needs your badge to get in.
我没明白 I don't understand.
我知道朗尼根不会见我们 I knew Lonigan would refuse to see us.
我们也不可能有机会接近州长 And we'd nevei get close to the Governor.
所以 And then...
我把你请来了晚宴 I invited you to the gala.
这多方便 I mean, it was very convenient.
我觉得被利用了 I think I've been used.
有一点吧 A little.
好吧 AlI right.
让我们聊聊好吗 Hey. Give us a minute?
不管你要做什么 Look, whatever you're up to,
我不想知道细节 and I don't want to know all the details,
我都会等着你的 I'lI wait for you.
不 你回家吧 No. You need to go home.
回到你归属的地方 Where you belong,
不是 It's not.
我想留下来 I want to stay
这场仗我必须打 I have to fight thil fighc
意味着我要放弃所有 That means letting go of everything else.
如果你在我身边 我做不到义无反顾 And if you're around, I will ngt be able to let go.
但我想支持你 But I wanna show up for you.
回家吧 霍克 Go home, Hawk.
拜托了 Please.
别让我难做 Make it easy for me
嘿 四季宝 Hey, Skippy.
笞应我你不会写信 Promise you won't write.
我不会的 I won't.
谢谢 Thank you.
我很荣幸 I'm honored to be representing
今天晚上代表杜克梅吉安州长出席这场活动 Governor Deukmejian tonight,
他是一位能够带领这个政党和这个州 a candidate who can lead this party and this state
进入21世纪的候选人 into the 21st century.
女士们 先生们 杜克梅吉安州长 Governor Deukmejian is grateful
感谢各位今晚的支持 for your support tonighi, ladies and gentlemen.
希望各位能竭尽所能 And I hope you will do everything you can
助他稳坐加利福尼亚州州长的位置 to help keep him in his seat as California's governor.
你们的支持至关重要 Your help is essential
有了各位的帮助 我们才能守住目前的成果 in securing the gains we've made
让这个伟大的州继续前进 and keeping this great state moving forward.
我们的州长捍卫 And our governor is a champion
未来充满机遇的社会 of the opportunity society of the future.
富勒 刚生下宝宝的那家人 他们在哪 Uh, the Fullers. They just had a baby. Where一-
富勒先生回家更衣了 Mr Fuller went home to change,
我想富勒太太正在休息 and I believe Mrs. Fuller is resting
好吧 稍等 我去看看 AII right, one moment Let me go and check
-走吧 -杜克梅吉安州长 Let's go. - Governor Deukmejian
感谢 is grateful- -
-怎么回事 先生 -好了 Excuse me. Gentleman Get it.
-我好了 -不好意思 - I got it. Excuse me.
你们在干什么 What are you people doing?
这边 先生 This way, sir.
我搞定了 来… I got it, Here.
-好 -好了 AII right Yes. Got it
-准备好了吗 -好了 Ready? - Yes.
已有三千名感染了艾滋病毒的加州人死去 Three thousand Californians with HIV have died.
但杜克梅吉安州长 But Governor Deukmejian
一直不愿通过保护我们的法案 continues to veto legislation to protect us.
我们不是死于艾滋 We're not dying from AIDS
我们死于冷漠 welre dying from indifference.
政府在残害我们 Our government is killing us!
立刻资助艾滋病患者 AIDS funding now!
政府在残害我们 Our govemnment is killing us!
立刻资助艾滋病患者 AIDS funding nowl
政府在残害我们 Our government is killing us!
立刻资助艾滋病患者 AIDS funding now!
爱吞噬了我 ♪Love is overtaking me♪
和我的心 ♪ And my heart ♪
在夜里敲打你的名字 ♪ Pounds out your name in the night ♪
露西 Lucy.
我看到你哭时也是如此 ♪ It's the same when I see you cry ♪
唤醒了我的心 ♪And it's waking my heart up ♪
打碎了我的心 ♪And it's breaking my heart ♪
更重要的是 吞噬了我的心 ♪ But mostly, taking it over ♪
正如光芒万丈的太阳 ♪ Like the sun shines gloriously ♪
映红天空 ♪ Through the sky ♪
我知道我们似乎相识不久 ♪ I know it seems like we just met ♪
但现在已如此不同 ♪ Oh, but it's so different now ♪
已如此不同 ♪ Is it so different now? ♪
已如此 ♪ Is it so...♪
政府在残害我们 立刻资助艾滋病患者 Our government is killing us! AIDS funding nowl
政府在残害我们 Our government is killing usl
立刻资助艾滋病患者 AIDS funding now!
我知道你在发抖 浑身湿透 ♪`I know you're shivering and you're wet ♪
但可以躺好吗 ♪ Oh, but won't you please lie still? ♪
可以躺好吗 ♪ Won't you please lie still? ♪
这就是我的感觉 ♪ Oh, it's just the way I feel ♪
爸爸 Dad?
找到他了 You found him?
真美 It's beautiful
从你跟我描述的来看 这很适合你的朋友 From what you've told me, it really suits your friend.
对 Yeah.
确实 It does.
宝贝 Sweetheart
他不是我的朋友 He wasn't my friend.
他是我爱的男人 He was the man I loved.